To Lose Trust

I'm sorry, I know it isn't right but it hurts so much…

Shin let his hand fall away from the knife as blood pooled around him. He watched in fascination as the ruby pool slowly grew and his head began to swim. The room blurred just as two pair of feet came into view. No!

" Holy Shit! Touma get in here now." Shuu cried, seeing Shin of the floor in a pool of blood.

" What is… Fuck!" exclaimed Touma walking in," Shuu grab some towels and a blanket."

The blue haired warrior clamped a hand on each slashed wrist and pressed, pinning them between the floor and his hands. When Shuu returned, they switched places and Touma checked the older boys breathing and pulse. Both were weak and that worried the archer. Touma quickly called for an ambulance. When he looked back down, distant aqua eyes stared at him.

" Let me die Touma." Begged the water warrior," Please, I can't do this anymore. It hurts Touma. It hurts and I can't make it stop."

" I'll help you make it stop hurting Shin but this isn't the way… Isn't that what you always tell me?" said Touma hiding his tears," Shuu go wait for the ambulance I'll do this."

" I'm tired Touma." The small mans words were beginning to blur together," Is it always this scary?" his eyes started closing.

" Don't close your eyes Shin!" ordered Touma hearing the ambulance," You can't die on us. Do you hear me?"

" I'm cold…" whispered pale lips.

Touma didn't dare let up the pressure on his friends' arms but before he could react the paramedics were there, ushering him out of the way. As they worked, Touma could hear them talking.

" I never expected this." Said the older paramedic.

" You've been here before."

" Always sticking me with the newbies…" sighed the older man," I've been here three times in the last six months to get this kids buddy." He sighed as he started the I.V. the younger medic was having trouble with," This guy seemed to be held together better than the others."

" What's your name?" the younger paramedic asked Shin.

Shin started to close his eyes but the older guy stepped in," Shin, open your eyes." He ordered. Shin complied with great effort," Blue!" he said referring to Touma," Get over here and talk to him. I want to keep an eye on you too."

" Come on Shin, you've got to stay awake buddy." Said Touma moving with the stretcher," Shuu, drive your van and meet us at the hospital, I'll call the others on the way."

" I'll pick Ryo up along the way." Replied Shuu mechanically, as he watched them rush his best friend away.

Touma nodded and turned his attention back to Shin. The ride seemed to take hours though it was only a ten-minute ride to the hospital. Without though he dialed Ryo's cell phone.

" Hello…"

" Ryo, Shuu's coming to get you. Shin and I are going to the hospital."

" Touma, slow down and tell me what's happening."

" Hold on Shin." Soothed Touma brushing long auburn locks out of his face." Shuu will explain. I've got to call Seiji and Nasuti so they can meet us at the hospital." He hung up without saying more.

He quickly called Seiji, who promised to call Nasuti, and was relieved by the knowledge that they wouldn't take long in reaching the hospital. As they pulled up to the hospital, he could see the life leaving Shin's eyes but he refused to lose hope.

Inside, the doctors left him standing alone as they tried to save the warrior of Trust. Touma had no idea where to go or what to do so he stood there. It wasn't until he felt a hand on his shoulder that he realized that he wasn't alone.

" There's nothing you can do right now but hope and pray." Said the older paramedic," Come on, Blue, let's find you something clean to wear."

Touma looked down at his white shirt and blue jeans only to find them stained red with blood," Thank you."

" So tell me, Blue, how many times have you been in this place? Everyone seems to know you on sight."

" I've been here too many times to remember." Sighed Touma accepting the scrubs handed to him," It's just these last three times that I put myself here." Touma found himself staring at his feet.

That hand, both strong and kind, rested on his shoulder once more," We've all done things we regret, Blue. Why don't you go change before your friends get here. Make sure you wash off all the blood, your friends will be worried enough without thinking that you're hurt too." The man turned to leave but stopped suddenly and turned back," Oh, Touma, next time I see you in my ambulance it better not be something that you did on purpose. See ya later Blue."

Touma was stunned but he quickly returned to changing. When he was finished he turned to the small sink and scrubbed the blood off his hands and arms. Once finished, he went in search of information about Shin. Retracing his steps he made his way back to the room where they had been working on Shin. To his horror, he found the room empty.

" Excuse me, can you tell me where they took my friend?" asked Touma.

" They just took him up to the ICU Touma." Replied the nurse.

" Touma! What in the hell is going on?" asked Seiji rushing up.

" Shin's in the ICU." Answered Touma fighting his tears.