Doctor Lake smiled softly whilst the uncomfortable woman shifted in her seat. Over the years he had spoken to many many people,all with different problems and worries. People trusted him,they treated him as a friend,someone they could confide in without judgment. Doctor Lake had been a psychiatrist for five years,he knew the ins and outs of every patient he had sessions with. Although his job was demanding at times,he found great satisfaction in helping others sort their lives out. Ronnie Mitchell was one of these people,he had only met her twice and had already made a big impression. Like an onion she had so many different layers,she seem troubled and extremely hurt by events that had happened in her life. He wanted to explore every emotion and try and get inside her mind,he wanted to help this woman. "So Ronnie,last session we talked about your mother,and how you felt when she left" he reminded her,his voice full of kindness and warmth.

Ronnie nodded,even though she had met Doctor Lake once before she still felt extremely exposed and uncomfortable. This seemed to be her worst nightmare,opening up to a stranger and telling them your deepest darkest secrets. Ronnie Mitchell was never one for talking about her feelings,it was better to keep things locked away so no one could hurt you. Being hurt and let down her whole life Ronnie over the years had learnt to let no one in,making sure her broken heart couldn't be shattered all over again. Just over two months ago Ronnie had found everything she ever wanted,her daughter was alive,her daughter was Danielle. The shy timid girl that wanted to befriend Ronnie,the innocent stall holder that hung about with Stacey. Not knowing that Danielle was the baby she gave away all them years ago she had shut her out. Ronnie had helped Danielle get an abortion,she convinced her that getting rid of her child was the best thing to do. She had crushed her unknown daughter until the day of her fathers wedding. Danielle finally plucked up the courage and confronted the mother she craved for,the seven month silence was finally broken and everything was out in the open.

Ronnie licked her lips and crossed her legs,"I was fourteen years old,so scared and alone,i had no one" she shook her head fighting back any tears that wanted to escape her eyes. "Pregnant at fourteen,i was the talk of the school,everyone knew and it wasn't long before my dad found out. Soon as he found out things changed,he started to hate me,hate me for disgracing the family and shaming his name" Ronnie rubbed her forehead nervously,she glanced at the Doctor before continuing. "He told me to get rid of it,put it up for adoption,he said if I did things between me and him would get better...and I believed him. Then I gave birth to this beautiful little babygirl..i called her Amy" her lip trembled slightly. "I held her,and he took her..he took her away from me..all I got was two hours and twenty three minutes and then he took my baby away" Ronnie bit her lip to hold back the seeping emotions that were about to jump out,she couldn't break down,not in front of a complete stranger.

"Then what..what happened after he made you give her away?" Doctor Lake asked,jotting down a few notes making sure he didnt miss a single detail.

Ronnie stared into the carpet,digging up painful memories and reminders hurt her so much,it was like her heart shattering into pieces all over again. "After my Amy was taken,my life just seemed to go downhill,me and my dad were always arguing,and my little sister Roxy was wrapped around his little finger. I cried..every single night I cried..just the thought of my little girl being brought up by complete strangers was heartbreaking for me..i was trapped in this world of hurt" Ronnie explained,her voice calm and controlled. "Me and Roxy we moved to Ibiza,to start a new life get away from my dad..but I could never escape the past..everytime a little blond girl walked past me I would think..thats her..thats my Amy" Ronnie shook her head.

Doctor Lake turned his desktop light on for some warmth and better vision,he watched this woman morph into a scared fourteen year old child,it was obvious the pain was still tender and raw. "What happened after Ibiza?" he asked softly stroking the hairs on his chin.

Ronnie sighed and cleared her throat,"We moved to London,it was my cousin's wedding and we thought we would show up,see some old family. After a while we decided to stay,Walford seemed alright at the time and my Aunty Peggy needed us around so we stayed" she smiled. "Before I knew it we had been living in London for ages,couldn't imagine not living there..time went on..i brought a nightclub I met someone and things were good..i was happy" Ronnie explained as she thought of Jack,although a quick flash of him and Roxy with Amy soon destroyed any happy memories of the two of them. "And then this girl moved to the square,she was nothing like the typical girls..she was blond,had the most gorgeous brown eyes..everyone seemed to like her" Ronnie let a tear roll down her cheek,all the emotions she had locked away wanted to escape and be set free,but Ronnie couldn't,she couldn't let herself fall. "I had no idea she was my daughter..see my dad told me she died..thirteen years ago in the bath and I believed him. The thought of never being able to hold my baby again,never knowing who she turned out to be..i cant ever forgive him" she whispered shaking her head little.

"So the blond girl Danielle was your daughter,what happened when you found out?" Doctor Lake asked becoming more intrigued with this complex story,he wanted to know more.

"She worked for me,i gave her some shifts at the club,she even worked for my Aunty Peggy. There was something strange about her,i could never put my finger on it..she...she was always staring at me,wanting to be my friend and .." Ronnie sighed. "I pushed her away..i..i dont know..she was always there,everywhere I turned she was there looking at me. She came to me..told me she was pregnant and I offered to go with her to have an abortion" Ronnie closed her eyes tightly as she remembered Danielle breaking down in the flat confessing she was pregnant,Danielle's small voice as she spoke with her on the phone. Telling her own child she was the biggest mistake,telling her she should have had an abortion. Ronnie's chest felt heavy,she reached for the glass of water and took a sip. "I went with her,she looked so scared and unsure,she asked me over and over again what I would do..like my opinion really mattered you know? I encouraged her.. I said yes she should have the abortion,how did I know I was telling her to abort what would have been my grandchild?" Ronnie placed the glass back in its place and stared at the doctor.

Doctor Lake nodded and scrunched his nose as he wrote,he sat back in his expensive leather chair and smoothed down his tie. "When did she tell you,that she was your daughter?" he glanced at his watch as the session was starting to come to an end,but he wanted to know more,he wanted to know the whole story.

Ronnie wasn't sure if she could continue with this horrifying tale,she knew she had to speak to someone,get some kind of help to control her emotions and heal her hurt but this was all to much. Ronnie looked across at the kind face and took a deep breath,"It was at my fathers wedding,she told me..begged me to believe her but I thought my baby died.. I thought she was dead!" Ronnie raised her voice wanting the man to believe her,believe that she wasn't some kind of monster. "I wanted to believe her but my father he..he lied and told me she was mad,crazy and that she needed help. Danielle never gave up,she told me she put the locket..the same locket I gave away with my Amy" Ronnie held the locket dangling from her neck, "In my glass downstairs,by then my dad had me believing him..such a good liar so smooth and convincing" she shuddered. "Then we went downstairs,she looked so helpless rushing around trying to find the locket..screaming at me that I had to believe her" Ronnie bowed her head in shame,she couldn't explain the next part,she couldn't bare to see that horrified look in his eyes.

"If you want to stop we can,im not pressuring you into anything you feel uncomfortable with" he smiled reassuring the woman nervously running a hand through her hair. He put his notepad down in front of him and rested his face against his hands. "Are you ok to continue Ronnie?" he asked.

Ronnie nodded slowly,"Danielle had dragged up so much pain so many hurtful heartbreaking memories,i felt myself breaking in front of everyone,loosing control because of this girl. I threw her out,told her I didnt want her,told her I never wanted to see her again,i remember her sitting on the road staring up at me still wanting me to believe her. I was so hurt..so..so angry that I said who would want a daughter like you" Ronnie let out a small sob,a sob from the pit of her stomach that even made Doctor Lake feel extremely uncomfortable. Ronnie rubbed her hands over her face,anything that distracted her from reliving that night. The mascara had run down her cheeks,she smiled at the kind man offering her a tissue,she slowly dabbed her damp face. Ronnie took another deep breath and pressed her lips tightly together gathering thoughts and trying to remember what happened next. "I went back inside..everyone was talking and whispering and I remember feeling so hurt. My dad he..he looked straight at me and smiled,i believed him..i believed every word that came out of his mouth! Then I found the locket and I realized Danielle was telling the truth..that the whole time he was lying about everything. Danielle was my Amy my baby and I went to find her to try and stop her from leaving..and..i did" Ronnie nodded whilst she spoke.

Ronnie rubbed her thumb against the tissue she was holding,she felt like any moment she was going to burst into tears. Doctor Lake was silent waiting for her to continue,he cleared his throat and laid his hands in front of him. "I found her,i wanted her to know that I believed her..and then she smiled at me" Ronnie spoke slowly,in her mind she was reliving this nightmare all over again. "Then she ran towards me,everything was going to be ok I know it was everything was going to be alright! The car just hit her,she fell to the floor and I remember thinking this was it..my chance had gone" Ronnie furrowed her eyebrows and stood up,she could no longer sit and let the feeling swarm all over her. Stretching her legs she walked over to the small window turning her back on the doctor. "I held her,she knew I believed her..i thought she was going to die,that I would never have a chance to be her mother I..im lucky" Ronnie looked down at the random people huddling together waiting for a bus. "Even now things are still so,i dunno not right. She looks at me sometimes and I know a part of her hates me,the things I said" Ronnie stopped,she couldn't talk about it any longer,all she wanted to do was get back home.

"I think thats enough,we have gone over the hour but I feel its been good. You are making fantastic progress,im really pleased" he smiled. He stood up and walked over to the door,"I'll call you,let you know when the next session is" he watched as she picked up her bag and coat and walked out of the door.

Ronnie sighed with relief that it was over,she saw Danielle quickly stand as the door closed behind her. A rush of love surged through Ronnie as Danielle beamed at her,"How did it go?" Danielle asked,she hoped that the sessions were helping Ronnie,that it could make their relationship easier. Ronnie smiled and wrapped a protective arm around her daughter,"C'mon lets go home" she kissed Danielle's head feeling nothing but pride,she had a second chance to be a mother,nothing was going to destroy them.

Im back after a very very long break! Im so thankful for all the reviews on my other fics,i have tried to continue writing them but I feel its time for something different. I feel my writing has improved loads so hopefully you will enjoy! Any suggestions about where I could go with this fic would be really helpful because I haven't planned alot lol. Would like to thank AdiaRose for messaging me and getting me back on here!