The raven sighs as he pulls out a piece of paper, on it a poem he had written the night before.

"Once again my depression is back holding me down so I can't get free.

Such sweet bliss has once again flowed right through my fingers, never again will I see that glee,

That happiness that I thrive for, seeming to be the only thing missing in my life.

But what is life without that joy, I'd say misery is much worse than what is caused by the knife.

The pain inside can only be dulled by that sweet sensation of release caused by that shinning metal.

Skin, my flesh seeming to be so fragile under that cold silver, much so as a single petal.

That of a rose matching in that crimson color while small water droplets rest upon the surface of the petals.

Just as that red liquid within now pools a top my skin as I feel that rush reminding me of a boiling kettle.

Only a few bubbles appear at first much like how my depression started.
But soon pooling over in which only turning off the fire will cease it, or in this case my life needing to be parted.

Me and the world never got along, it being so cruel to such fragile beings, overwhelming them in a deep darkness.

My heart has been torn, ripped to no repair, where no one can stitch these open wounds that had been ripped open by heartless despair.

It's not me holding the blade but those around me, holding it to my neck pressing harder and harder now, gliding it across my pale-ish skin.

In the end I guess I knew this wasn't a fair fight, in this battle I knew only one could win.

That being my depression inside, though because of that loss it felt as if I were already dead.

Not eating, sleeping just laying in bed.

Point is that I have given up on trying to find something I will never have.

So tell my depression he won and to have a good laugh."

It wasn't a suicide note, but it was really all he had. How does one say good bye? Besides, it wasn't like anyone was going to miss him….He hated humans, himself, and to say the least, life; it that over powered what little bit of hope he had. He sighs, taking a deep breath as he sat at the edge of the building."1...2...3~"He pushes forward as he falls down off the building closing his eyes as pain was the only thing he could think of before he passed out from the intensity. Then again, no one said it would be easy.
-Time skip-

Roppi groans upon waking. No. He failed...This was a hospital...and he was still here. Why was it so hard? Still not far enough to die but enough to sprain a wrist, earn a few bruises, and get scratched up. Great...Though guessing by the red wrist band and the fact he seemed to be on camera they must of found the ...well that wasn't important. What was, was what they would tell his parents and if they did...where was he going?

And soon he got an answer as his parents and one of the nurses came in.

"Good you're awake~. It's time to go now. I promise you shall be happier here." She hums as his parents nod.

"I really thought more of you. I am highly disappointed..." his mother murmured, looking down and shaking her head lightly as she grabbed her husband's hand, clinging to his arm.

Well, there was his answer, but, where was he going?

"But where-" He was interrupted by two men wheeling over a stretcher. No. No no no no! He was not going in no loony bin! He wasn't crazy! He sits up shaking his head."I'm not going you can't make me!" those were his last words before he was hauled off on the stretcher and forced to go.

-Time skip-

Soon he was shown around the ward as several kids peeked their heads out of their rooms to get a look at the new comer. So why was he here? Were they here for the same reason? Drugs, drinking, sex addiction, abuse, killing, seeing things-the list went on and on. Though if it was the last thing he did he would fake is way out. No one's help, just him. No one knew what it was like; no one.

-Time skip-

The next morning the raven was woken up bright and early as his nurse smiles all to brightly.
"Hello, you must be Hachimenroppi~. I am your nurse today, so if you have any questions or concerns be sure to let me know! Right now is hygiene time, so as soon as your roommate is out you must shower." She soon left, leaving Roppi alone as he sighs sitting on the edge of his bed as a blonde walked out of the bathroom.

He mumbles as he paid no attention once his roommate walked out not even bothering to look at him as he heads to the bathroom, slowly slipping off his clothes as he presses the button, turning the shower on. Really? He couldn't even pick the temperature. Great. He scoffs getting in and hissing at the cold water as he hurried to wash and get out.

Once finishing he dried off slipping on a pair of red scrubs they had given him just until his parents brought him his clothes. He takes his towels, setting them in the clothes basket as he sat back down on his bed.

-Time skip-

Roppi covers his ears walking out of the day room, "I don't need your therapy, I'm not sick!" He yells refusing to go back as one of the nurses takes his hand.

"Shhh it's all right to be upset but you need help, that's the whole reason you're here." He said softly, attempting to coax the boy back to the group.

He yanked his hand away, "Fuck you! You don't know me and you never will!" He yells again as a few of the kids peek out, a few laughing.

"Well….if you don't calm down w-" She was about to set a hand on his shoulder but she was pushed away.

"You can't do shit just go back to your group an-"But he was cut off by one of the other nurses.

"If you don't calm down we will have to sedate you."

He scoffs, "I'd like to see you try!" He pushes them both away as he heads to his room as two men blocked his way.

"I'm really sorry it came to this…."

Eventually after a major struggle the two men had him pinned as one of the nurses took a needle as stuck it in him pushing the liquid inside as he soon stopped moving his body becoming limp as his eyes shut.

All the other kids watched as one of the men carried him off to the safety room.

-Time skip-

He groaned once he woke up a few hours later. Dear God he hurt. He slowly sat up still, sore as one of the nurses walked in.

"Are you feeling safe enough to go back to your room?..." She says quietly, staying close to the door.

He nodded this time. There was no point in trying to fight if he wasn't going to get very far…He tried to stand falling right back down. "fuck…."He groaned as she smiles halfheartedly as she helped him to his feet.

One of the men from before helped him up walking him to his room, helping him to his bed and leaving.

He closes his eyes soon drifting back to sleep till early the next morning.

"Rise and shine everyone, breakfast time!~ Get up now or you get none!" She yells peeking in each room to get a head count on who was going soon making it to Roppi's door, "Tsukishima, HachimenRoppi, get up, it's time to eat~" She gave a soft smile to the both of them before heading on to the other rooms.

Roppi sat up looking around. Tsukishima?...That's right, had a roommate...He had been here for a day going on two and he hardly even noticed him…..Well it was his fault for being so damn quiet. He sat up slowly stretching feeling much better now that he had a nights rest. He shuffles through the tiny hall lining up against the wall where all the other kids where lined up. He yawned as a magenta eyed blonde had walked up to him, Roppi not even noticing him until he felt his hand taken and brought to the blondes lips as the boy had placed a light kiss atop it.

"Why hello there sleeping beauty, Names Delic and may I just say you have quite the ass~" He hummed pulling the raven forward and giving his ass a squeeze or two, "Quite an ass indeed~"

Roppi's eyebrow twitched as he did the first thing he could think of. He kneed him where it hurt most before kicking him in the stomach causing him to curl up in a ball."Don't you EVER, EVER pull a stunt like that again."He growls in an aggravated tone. Delic only whimpered nodding slowly as the nurse only shook her head.

"Delic, What have I told you about your boundaries….Though it's also not okay to…..Hurt the other people around you….Point is stay away from each other." She helps Delic up, moving him to the front of the line.

Soon the kids were all lead to the cafeteria where they were seated at two different tables one with boys the other with girls though Roppi sat on the far side away from the others not liking all the stairs he got. Once getting his food he sat back down only to be a companied by a blonde with red colored eyes, Tsukishima to be exact; his roommate.

"M-may I…Sit….?" Was all he said saying it so quietly he had hardly heard him though all the other kids seemed to as they all stared in surprise as even the nurse had looked over.

Delic had stood being the first to break the silence as he laughs."His first words!~I'm so proud of you!~"He shouted hugging Tsukishima tightly."It's a miracle! Praise the lord!~"

The nurse sighed, "Delic! Boundaries! How many times do I have to tell you?!"

Delic let go only shrugging as he took a seat again Tsukishima seeming to be unfazed by the hug.

Roppi only shrugged to his question as the blonde took a seat as they ate in silence.

-Time skip-

Once back at the unit they were sent back to their rooms for hygiene and then room time. Tsukishima showered first as Roppi had just finished plopping on his bed. Though he said he hadn't planned on talking to anyone else he couldn't help but be curious as to why it was such a big deal that Tsukishima had talked. He looked over to the blonde tilting his head to the side."Why was it so big that you talked?'He questioned as he only got silence in response."Hello?...So now you're going to ignore me huh?...I didn't want to talk to you any ways…."He mumbled as he turned away.

"I….Have n-never been able to t-talk to anyone before….." He said almost in a whisper.

Roppi looked at him over his shoulder."So you're mute…..well were mute….."He sighs."Well what about your parents?..."

The blonde shrugs."Nope…."

"Well then….why me?"He tilted his head again.

"Y-you—" He stopped in mid sentence once he saw one of the nurses standing in the door way.

"So…you can talk~"

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