I have a secret. I feel terrible about it, but I can't help what I feel. It started back a couple of years ago, or maybe it's always been there. Somewhere deep within it lay, and as I grew so did it. But now, one thing's for sure, it's there, I don't know if I can keep it in. As a matter of fact, I think something may go down today.
It hasn't always been like this. Like back when Mufasa ruled the land. I loved Mufasa. He was the father figure in my life. When he died I was crushed. And when we thought Simba was dead, I was torn up inside as well. He was my best friend, him and Nala. We had many great, though dangerous times together.
When Scar took over I hated him, and with a passion, as I'm sure the others did, but no one said anything, we weren't allowed to. I wanted to be the one to save us. Don't get me wrong, I'm glad that we're out of the Scar era and at the time I just wanted out, it's not like I had to be the one to end it, I just wanted it over. But, I thought it'd never happen. I would dream about taking Scar out, along with the hyenas. And then I could be the lion king. Although technically I'd be the lion queen. But we don't need a male to live, no, we just need me!
I'm not saying I would have been better than Mufasa or even Simba. One thing I can guarantee though, is that I'd be better than Scar. Not that that's saying a lot.
But back to today, today we're having a ceremony. We're presenting our newest lioness, the one that Nala and Simba brought into the world. If she's anything like them, individually or as a couple, I could very well see us being in trouble.
Now I know what you must be thinking. I'm jealous of Nala and Simba. They used to be my best friends. If things had worked out differently, if I had been the one out hunting that day then maybe, just maybe, I would be the queen. I would be Simba's wife, mother of his child, Kiara. I would be the most powerful lioness in our pack. Yes, I'll admit, it sounds like jealousy, but here's the thing, I don't just want the queen's power, I want the king's power. Which means one thing, I need Simba's destruction. But now, now it's getting complicated. It's not just Simba's destruction, now it's Nala's destruction because she's ahead of me, then it's Kiara's destruction because she's ahead of me. Yes, a cub is ahead of me.
But I can't do anything. I have no one on my side, I have no army. I believe that one-on-one I could take Simba and then Nala. But we all have jobs. And unfortunately Simba and Nala's jobs don't cross paths with mine. Getting away with murder would be impossible. And I can't take out 3 lives on my own, then I'd have a hostile pack, they wouldn't be on my side, there too far on Simba's side to ever be on mine.
So, as Simba comes out, Nala, Timon, Pumbaa, and Rafiki by his side and Kiara eventually held up for us to see, I plot. And I see it, Simba struggling to climb up the side of the rock, needing Scar to pull him up, his life literally in the palm of Scar's hands. Scar grab his paws, lets them go, ending it for Simba like he ended it for Mufasa. And then I see a close up shot of Scar, the different emotions running together in his face until Scar's face, turns into mine. I'm scared, I realize it now. My dad, he's Scar. I am of Simba's rule but Scar's blood. Just like Mufasa is in Simba, Scar is in me.
All this runs through my mind as physically I bow down to Simba, Mufasa, but mentally, I'm bowing down to Scar.
