Chapter 1 – goodbye forever

When reading listen to sad songs about people leaving

E.g. bleeding love by Leona Lewis

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None of these characters are mine … sob

Chapter 1 – goodbye forever

"Bella………. I don't………..love you anymore" Edward stuttered.

He couldn't mean that? Could he?

All this time I had been kidding myself that an amazing, extraordinary, beautiful person…vampire, would love an ordinary, simple human like me.

I was frozen to the spot, just outside of the wood; I forced myself to look up at the breathtaking face.

It was torn trying to register my shocked expression. His golden eyes didn't match the word coming out of his mouth

"You don't mean that" my voice cracked as I felt the tears well up. I searched his eyes for remorse, but I only saw guilt and sadness.

A single raindrop landed on my check, opening the havens for many more.

They beat down on my shoulders, as I slowly became drenched, my eyes never left his.

"I am sorry I have brought all of this on you" his velvety voice only above a whisper.

What was he talking about? My heart thumped as the seriousness of his words dawned on me.

I broke my gaze from his, choking back the tears, as warped my arms around myself.

I couldn't let him leave, not know, not with so many questions I had for him.

I brought my glazed eyes back to his, I new that he loved me.

"I can't do this anymore Bella" with that he turned, panic began to set in, my heart jumped irregularly and my breathing become more erratic

"no………..no you can't leave, you don't mean any of this" my voice growing hysterical, tears spilling over.

I ran around to face him placing my hands on his perfectly formed chest,

"Bella let me leave, one day you will forget me and then move on with your life, have children, grow old. Be …. Bella" he took hold of my hands and spun me around, so his path to his car wasn't blocked anymore, my wet hair stuck to my face and my salty tears were being washed away, but I didn't care. Edward was leaving and he was breaking my heart

"I am sorry Bella, one day I hope you will forgive me" his voice was a low whisper, staining to keep the words he really wanted to say inside.

He lowered his head resting it at the hollow of my neck, breathing in my scent one last time, his cold breath sent shivers all through my body.

My head began to spin and my eyes become cloudy as he released his grasp, with that he walked away.

He yanked the door of his silver Volvo, and gracefully slid in.

I shock my head trying to clear it from the fog that was clouding my judgement. My legs thought faster then my stunned mind. I flung myself in front of the Volvo, the bright lights blinding me, however I could still stare into his liquid molten eyes, pain flitted across his face witch was quickly replaced with the cold mask, he so often used.

Reversing backwards he turned in the street and drove away, leaving me broken. The rain pounded around me, as I stood there frozen; trying to hold back the inevitable tears.

EPOV

Even through the rain splattered window, my Bella still looked broken and hurt; and it was my entire fault.

I was using all my will power not to jump out of the car and beg her to take me back; instead I pushed harder on the accelerator 120…130…140…150.

If I get far enough away, to another state or continent, then I could stop.

My heart was aching at every mile I wound up further from my love, my angel.

It was the right thing to do, I repeated as the images of a broken, distort Bella, invaded my mind.

What would she be thinking of me? I new what I was I am a monster in ever contemplating on mixing such a vulnerable, amazing woman in a life she will never be able to follow.

The steering wheel groaned as I griped it, taking out the hatred I had for my self on it.

A wide span of open road winded in front of me. I pushed harder on the accelerator, as every inch of my body yarned me to turn back.

200………210 if I dive faster enough then maybe the feeling I have for Bella will get left behind, giving her a chance to lead a normal life.

As I never will as an angle has touched my ice stone heart

BPOV

I watched as the Volvo drove of consumed by the darkness.

I was stunned I couldn't move, just the ache of my heart consuming me.

Tears burned at my eyes, as my legs gave way from under me. I let the rain drench me, and the pain consume me.

Tears ran down my check but no sound passed my lips. I concentrated on the steady intake of breath, trying not to be overcome by the darkness.

I knelt there staring at the spot in which my true love had disappeared from.

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I held my knees crying as I comforterted myself, in the middle of the drive, as the rain poured around me.

I couldn't get the words out of my mind, he did't love anymore, was it all a lie a chared for my blood.

I looked back at the memories of us togeter, to me every thing seemed inocent, didn't it.

I put my head in my hands as I chocked back even more tears, at the thought of how nive I was to believe that we ever could be a couple, that we could have had a life together.

Anger boiled up in me as I saw his cruel bueatiful face laughing at me. I was ready to give up my whole life to be with him, I gave myself to him.

I pulled my self up from the spot I had collapesed in and stumbled to the door.

It was on the hinge, I pushed it falling in, the tears bluring my vision.

I pulled my self up, walking over to the kitchen table. A white piece of paper folded 3 times lay in the middle, Bella was written on top with perfectly cillgarpyed writing.

I wiped the thears for my eyes, with the back of my hand, comsposing myself before I picked up the perfectly wirten letter.

I outstreched my hand and picked it up, the white paper trembled as I slowly lifted the sides. I held my breath as I began to read,

If you are reading this letter then I have obvisoly done something I never thought I would never do. I hope oneday you will be able to forgive me, please accept this as my apolorgy, due to me being such as wimp and not being able to say this to your face. I hope that you will forgive me for invading your life and your heart. Remember that human memories fade and in time you will forget me. In time you will heal.

Edward

Anger shot through my veins pumping around my body.

Tears stained the paper making the blank ink run.

How could he think that I would or could forget him, I loved him. I throw the letter across the table as sobs escaped my chest.

I hated him; I hated him for hurting me: for sucking me in to his life, when he knew that one day he might leave me.

I looked around the room searching frantically for an escape route from this nightmare; however everything I laid eyes on remained me of him.

My heart ached as if it was breaking a million times.

I ran up to my room the tears flowing from my red eyes; I searched frantically displacing everything and anything.

I was searching for my photo album in which held all the photos I had taken during that blissful summer I had with Edward. The thought made my heart plunge as I still raided my room.

I stuck my hand under my bed until my hand hit something hard I yanked it out, as the tears ran down my cheeks.

I flicked through the pages until I came face to face with the one person I new I could never live with out. It was a face on picture of Edward with my favourite crooked pasted on his face.

I remembered that day clearly, we were lounging in our field just being a couple.

Hatred, jealously and hurt shot through my body. I pulled it out of the plastic wallet and began to rip it, in half become into quarters and so on until it wouldn't rip anymore.

I let the pain consume me as I fell on to my bed curling up to a ball, crying until I fell asleep.

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