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We were sitting on our spot on the beach, the September sun grazing the underbelly of the soft clouds floating away into the distance, rendering them a heavenly tint of pink, waves gently lapping on the shore. I feel compelled to say something, yet no words come. I cannot help but feel an anger burning in the pit of my stomach, engorging at the sound of her words. I should be happy. Her quiet apology and even quieter revelation left me speechless and livid. She told me she needed me and then she went and hurt me. My heart told me to tell her it was ok, that she was forgiven and that we could give it a go but unfortunately I found my brain controlling my functions.

"Its too late to apologise, Calleigh." I said, jumping up, preparing to make a hasty retreat off the beach.

"I'm sorry, Eric! I never meant to hurt you. I didn't think you'd turn around." She cried, tears pouring from her eyes, flooding my heart, now begging me to hold her close and tell her it was ok. But I didn't. Instead, I left her there, running away from her, from my feelings like a coward, too proud to accept her apology, replaying that awful, heart breaking scene in my mind again and again and again.


I watched her slowly walk towards the elevator. She glances back at me; shooting me the smile only I receive. I knew from the moment I met her that she was 'The One', the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I'd die for her. I need her like a heart needs a beat, like a river needs water, like breathing needs air. I wish I could tell her how much I care, but I know I need to convince myself fully of that first. As the elevator doors slide open, I know my chance has just flown out of the window. Jake waltzes onto the marble floor, covered in cuts and bruises. I think it's going to be ok, that she is going to see him for the bastard he is, but no. My heart stop's as their lips touch, as he pulls her nearer and nearer. My heart breaks as she responds, leaning into the kiss. And then it's all over and she's walking towards the elevator with him, leaving me broken and alone, my heart scattered in pieces along the floor. I suddenly found it amazing how one could go from being on top of the world to being below rock bottom in a matter of seconds, an experience I had endured. She turns. She sees. See's me. See's the hurt. See's the pain she's inflicted. But she stays with him, turning away from my gaze, preferring to ignore the pain she's caused than own up to it. At that moment, I'm not sure if I can ever forgive her.
She was still sat in the same position when I returned two hours later, despite the rising tide. I hated myself for saying what I did, for acting the way I did. I wished I could take it all back, to snatch the words from the past and bury them in the sand. But I cannot.

"I'm sorry for what I said." I whisper, putting my arm around her shoulder. I am shocked to find she doesn't try to resist or run away, traits I have come to associate with Calleigh.

"No. You were right to say what you did," She said, fresh tears falling into her lap, "I'm the one who should be sorry… Have you thought about what I said?"

"Yes, and I can't be in a relationship with you right now," I paused as she turned away from me, and I knew, even if she wasn't showing it on the outside, she was crying a river inside, "Are you going to be ok, Angel?"

She turned back towards me at the use of her pet name, but I can see from her eyes she was not.

"The thing is," She whispered, getting up off the sand, "Heavens not the same without you."

And with that, it was her turn to amble away, leaving a shell of a person behind. And it hurt.


It'll get happier! I promise! Kudos to anyone who can find the blatant song reference.

Drommie

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