The Monitor
I think about it more and more as of late. The day my life changed. I don't think I could ever completely forget about it's impossible to forget. My family never realized how bad I took it. Hearing my mother may die was my worst nightmare being six and near my birthday. My father didn't even try to comfort me he never really has tried to. He figures I'm a big girl I don't need comforting. What he didn't know was that for almost a year I cried myself to sleep. I even cried the first time I went to see her in the hospital. She didn't die and I still thank whoever kept her with me time and time again but I don't think I could ever forgive her.
My mother doesn't like to admit it but the truth is she was driving drunk when the train hit her. It's her fault she's paralyzed, but I don't tell her that for fear of hurting her. I know she tries to be a good mother and she is but sometimes she just feels so sorry for herself it is disgusting.
My life is complicated in my eyes yet simple. My father is verbally abusive and has been since before I could remember. I practically raised my younger brother Souta because his mother is a drunk. My older brother has been living with his father for two years now and I didn't get to say good-bye to him. My mother has a boyfriend that lives with us but has put her through so much that he shouldn't be aloud in our house. I have a crush on our class jock but he is such a jerk no one even suspects that I even remotely like him.
You see there are three types of people in my school. There are some who are openly badass where everyone knows what they do and how they do it. Preppy bad asses that sneak out smoke drink and do drugs with out everybody knowing it. Then there are the monitors. These are the ones who have friends on both sides. They make sure nothing goes to far. They keep everything in line I guess. I, Kagome Higurashi, fall into this Category.
Two of my best friends also fall into this Category. Sango and Ayame are the other two monitors and we are really the only ones here. My other best friends are always there for me most of them getting into trouble and having me bale them out, but I would rather them call me then their boyfriends who normally are the ones who get them in trouble in the first place. My friend that knows everything about me is one of the biggest bad asses around and I know that she is but I still love and support her like my sister, which she practically is. We all grew up together Sango, Ayame, Neko, and I. Along with Sesshomaru.
Though it may not seem like it to other people, Sesshomaru and I are on the same level financially and mentally. We are both honor students and despite the fact that I live a mediocre life style I am wealthy I just plan on saving my money for my future and the necessities. It may seem like I'm cheap but I'm really not. The necessities are the best quality and I don't live in complete filth, I don't wish to. Sesshomaru and his family are the richest family in town but he is the only one that seems to flaunt it.
Though I could kill his younger brother sometimes, he is still one of my best friends in the world. Inu Yasha may be rude and obnoxious, but my whole family is that way so it is nothing new. He is always there, and we even tried going out for a night but it seemed as though he wanted it more than I did. In my opinion he was a little too touchy feely. What was really weird that night though is how Sesshomaru seemed to always be staring at us while his whore of a girlfriend was hanging off of him trying to pry his attention on to her. This is where my story will begin.
