Meredith's POV
I'm wandering through the halls of the hospital trying to find someone to let me do something. It's a slow day which usually means something big is going to happen. I can't handle big today but I can't handle doing nothing either.
"Damn Meredith watch it!" I look up to see Alex yelling at me.
"Sorry." I mumble.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He asks after he actually looks at me.
"Nothing, I'm fine." I snap and try to keep walking but he grabs my arm.
"I know you well enough to know you're lying Meredith." I hate that he does but it's true.
"I'm pregnant. Happy now?" Well crap, I wasn't going to tell anyone. Not yet at least.
"Seriously?" He asks and I yell yes seriously!
"Um OK them. Are you happy?" Seriously?
"No I am not happy Alex. Who would be happy because she's a slut?"
"Mer you're not a slut… you just handle things differently than normal people." He trying to be, what is this? Comforting?
"You're worse than I am!" I yell at him.
"I said normal people Mer but whatever. I'm sorry but if you need anything just let me know OK?"
"Um, thanks I guess." I start thinking about everything I need to do in the next probably 8 months. I guess first I need to see a doctor. And who is the head of baby doctors? None other than my asshole ex-boyfriends evil wife. I guess I could go somewhere else but I since I practically live it that doesn't really make sense. Aggh. But the alternative is having her knowing I'm pregnant and most likely going to assume the baby is Derek's. Maybe the baby is Derek's. Maybe the baby is George's. Maybe the baby is one of many men I picked up at the bar and never bothered to learn a name.
I am such a slut!
I need to figure out how far along I am. That will eliminate a few options. I seriously hope it's not Derek's. I can see him and Addison trying to take my baby and raise it as hers. And I seriously hope it's not George. He's barely speaking to me; I don't really want to be like surprise! We are now tied together for the rest of our freaking lives.
I know what I have to do. I'm just not going to tell anyone about this. Well except for Alex since I blurted it out already. And I'm going to pretend the baby just doesn't have a father. Unless Derek or George asks me specifically if the baby is theirs I will pretend there is no chance of that.
It will be just my baby and me.
I find Baily and tell her I'm sick and ask her if I can talk to someone about it and then go home for the day and she looks at me suspiciously but says fine. Interns never ask to go home, you might miss something. Today I don't care.
I go to the OB wing and request a checkup. At least Addison doesn't have to be my actual doctor unless something goes wrong which wouldn't surprise me with my luck.
Once the doctor takes me to a room and introduces herself as Dr. Holly Westmoreland I tell her I'm pregnant and I just want to make sure everything is OK and I would like to know how far along I am.
She asks a bunch of questions then does an ultrasound and I can actually see the baby. It's pretty amazing.
"OK Dr. Grey. You are about 4 months along. You'll need to see me every 2 weeks. Any questions?"
"No, no questions. Except this is just between us right? No telling Dr. Sheppard of the Chief or Baily right?" I ask her nervously.
"Right. I can't tell anyone but Meredith you are going to start showing soon and it's generally a better idea to tell the important people before then. But alright let me get you some prenatal pills and off you go. Don't over work yourself. See you in two weeks." She smiles and I hate how happy she is.
I walk out of the exam room right into Addison.
"Oh Meredith are you OK?" She asks. She's actually very nice to me but I still hate her. I was happy before she came here and then she stayed here.
"Yep I'm fine." I tell her hoping she drops it.
"Are you pregnant?" Seriously?
"Yes. I am pregnant. I would appreciate you not telling anyone, I'm going home now." I tell her and start to walk away.
"Meredith wait, is Derek the father?" She asks and I sigh and turn around.
"I honestly don't know Addison. I hope not but I really just don't know. After the baby is born if he wants to than he can do a paternity test. But until then he will not be a part of this. No doctor's visits, no talking about it."
"Meredith you're having his baby he will leave me for you." She says and I laugh.
"He might leave you and it might even be for me but it would be pointless. He picked you and I don't want him anymore. I'm over that. So over that." I tell him and she looks relieved.
"I need you to lie to him if he asks." She demands and I tell her no, I'm not a liar and I'm also not going to keep a child away from their father if they want to be involved. If he doesn't ask I'm not going to offer anything but I won't lie.
"You'll be sorry Meredith." I think she's threatening me but I find it funny so I laugh and she huffs and storms off.
At least I know George isn't the father.
Once I get home I grab some ice cream and some Oreos and some bottled waters and then I lock myself in my room thinking someone should be home soon and I don't want to deal with anyone. I know I have to go back to the real world tomorrow but for today I'm going to eat crap and watch bad TV and cry and sleep.
A/N OK I went a little bit crazy writing since over Christmas break without internet so I have the start of 4 different stories. I am going to post the first chapter of each and then write and update according to interest.
