Rachel
I have to admit, the only person I've actually told of my decreased appetite is Kurt. And he understands.
The way I told him was really casually, a couple of months ago. And I'm glad he doesn't see it as a big deal, unlike everybody else.
He told me he too often indulges in cheesecake when Blaine isn't around. Thing is, Kurt doesn't gain weight the way I do. In fact, he doesn't really gain weight at all.
I may have uttered a word or two to Quinn and Tina, but neither of them heard, but they've been suspecting something.
And it annoys me.
Suspecting me of what?
Not like I cut myself, or plot my own death. Not even like I'm on a diet.
Because a diet is constantly portion-controlled meals, three times a day, with no snacks. I have never done that before.
My dads are especially annoying about it.
If I see that I have too much rice on my plate for dinner, I put some back, in case I can't finish it all (I wouldn't want to waste all that food!). And then, Papa (LeRoy) has to make a scene out of it! Look, I love my dads to the furthest, most fabulous star and back, but sometimes I just can't deal with how they freak at some things that I do. And then Daddy (Hiram) starts recalling every day that I ever cut down on rice or any other food.
I just want it to stop!
I'm a girl. And more importantly and more than anything, I'm a star. It's perfectly acceptable to watch what I'm eating.
Although, with all the information everyone has; Finn telling Kurt how much I eat when I'm over, my friends throwing parties involving feasts (which apparently I don't touch the food at), me constantly telling Finn I spent the day eating whenever we're apart, and cutting down on rice every night…well, it does seem like something's up.
But you'd only think something is going on if you knew everything about this.
And none of my friends are worried enough to go asking my dads about how much I eat. Also, Finn is too oblivious to notice that me constantly saying that I ate, sounds as if I am trying to cover the fact that I apparently don't eat, but luckily, he doesn't think this information is anything of value.
This is the sort of coincidental situation I'm in. I didn't plan to appear as if I don't eat much, it just happened.
And I do eat a lot. I don't really eat at school because the food is horrid (which you can understand), but once I'm home, I pig out and eat tuna, crackers, yoghurt and maybe even chocolate.
Hold on.
Most of the stuff I pig out on are healthy.
Oh my god.
Maybe I'm subconsciously anorexic.
But, as a star, I know how to be proud of my body. I know how to stay perfect.
There is no reason for me to be anorexic.
…Is there?
