Kate was starring out of the window of Castle's car. Her mind kept going back and forth between Rick and Josh. She had been with Josh for a while, she really did like him. He made her smile and he was always there when she asked him to be. But with Rick, she had these deep hidden feelings for Rick. He made her laugh until her stomach hurt. She didn't have to ask him for anything, nor did she have to tell him that she needed someone there for her. He already knew her inside and out. He knew all her emotions and facial expressions. Sometimes all that scared the hell out of her. She was afraid of being another conquest. She was afraid to fall in love knowing they could be gone any second. She had experienced what that feels like and she didn't ever want to feel that again.
When she noticed that they were just a couple of minutes away from her apartment she pushed her feelings aside and looked at him. A smile formed on her face and she looked to the side. She thought it had gone unnoticed, but she realized it hadn't when he spoke up.
"Day dreaming about me Detective Beckett?"
"You wish, Castle."
He gave her a grin and she bit her lip trying not to smile but she ended up smiling anyway.
They soon pulled up to her apartment building. Josh was working all night and was planning on staying at his place tonight. She kept thinking about asking Castle up to her apartment, but she didn't want anything to get out of hand and do something that she would regret.
Castle interrupted her thoughts. "I'll walk you to the door. Come'on."
Kate smiled and got out of the car. They walked to the front of the apartment building in silence. It wasn't an awkward silence, more of a comfortable silence. As they got to the door Castle smiled at her and kissed her on the cheek. "Until tomorrow."
She smiled and as he was turning she blurted out "Wait!"
He turned toward her and smiled. "Yes?"
She had to bite her lip again to try not to smile. "Would you like to come in? For a drink maybe?"
He gave her a wide smile and said "I'd love to."
She tried to figure out how that came out of her mouth so easily. She wanted him here but not while she was still in a relationship with Josh. She brushed it off thinking they'll just have one glass of wine and then Castle would leave.
As she shut the door behind her and turned around Castle was right in front of her. He was so close and all she wanted was to close the distance between them but instead she backed away.
"Where's motorcycle boy?"
"He's working all night tonight."
Castle made a grin and Kate replied with her usual eye roll. She walked to the kitchen to get two wine glasses.
She walked over to Castle and gave his glass to him and set hers on the table. "I'll be right back, I'm going to change." Castle smiled at her and nodded his head. "and don't touch anything, I still have my gun." he raised his eyebrow and she smiled and walked into her room. Before closing the door she made sure he was sitting on the couch. She stood there for a moment just looking at him. By that time Josh had completely left her mind. She didn't think of him once since they first came in, but as she walked into her bedroom and shut the door, she found a note.
She read in a quite voice to herself:
"Dear Kate,
Sorry I have to work tonight. I promise I'll make it up to you. Tomorrow morning breakfast?"
She put the note down and sat on her bed and sighed. She knew Josh would be upset with her for having Castle over. He always said Castle was such a flirt. She knew he was, but they were partners and he sure as hell was around a lot more then Josh was. She looked down at her mothers ring around her neck. She wished she was here because she would always give her the best of advice.
She got up knowing Castle was still in the living room, and that's all she could do right now. She hurried and found some yoga pants and a tank top. She walked out in the living room and didn't see Castle. As she walked out Castle appeared in front of her with wine.
"Here you go, m'lady."
Kate rolled her eyes at him and took the glass. "Why do you always do that?"
"Do what?"
"Sneak up on me. you shouldn't sneak up on someone who has a gun."
His smile turned into a grin and he sat on the couch. Kate went and sat one seat away on the couch from him.
Kate found herself looking at the clock. She was shocked. Two hours had passed like it was nothing. She smiled because he was still talking about some crazy thing he did one night when he was drunk. After he was done he looked over at the clock. He took the last sip of the third glass of wine he had had that night and suggested he should get going.
Kate smiled and nodded in agreement. They walked over to her door and as he adjusted his coat he walked closer. She fought the urge to kiss him, but she didn't have to because he kissed her. It wasn't just a peck, it was a deep, passionate kiss. She didn't want to back away, but she did.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have-"
She put her finger to his mouth. "You should go." She said quietly. She didn't want him to go, but she knew she had to break things off with Josh before she could do anything with Castle.
"Yeah." He didn't even try to hide his disappointment. He opened the door and was half way out until Kate grabbed his arm and turned him. She was had so many emotions in her head and she didn't really know what she was doing. She pulled him down and she was on her tippy toes. She kissed him softly on his lips and then let him go. He looked at her shocked and their eyes were locked.
Castle wanted nothing more but to pick her up and take her to her bedroom, but he knew he couldn't. Josh kept popping up in his head. "What about Josh?"confused.
"I'll worry about him tomorrow. I'm going to breakfast with him tomorrow morning." She knew it was wrong to end things with Josh like this, but she couldn't help these feelings. "In the meantime, go home. I will call you tomorrow."
Rick smiled and rested his hand on the back of her head and kissed her forehead. She smiled back at him and didn't try to hide it from him either. He walked toward the elevator and got in. He smiled at her as the doors where closing and when they did she closed the door and bit her lip. She went and poured herself another glass of wine to think about how tomorrow would go. She laid down on her couch and eventually drifted off to sleep.
Okay you guys! Here is chapter two! (: I tried to make it longer, so tell me what you think. I'd also like to thank all of you for the reviews and this is where you help me! I need to know if you think I'm moving to quick putting them together! Please review and tell me what you think. I'll take everything everyone says into consideration. After I get enough reviews I'll start chapter three and put it up asap! :)
