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Our Dirty Little Secret
I felt something heavy on me...crushing me. I opened my eyes and met amber ones I was trapped in his gaze and shook my head. I tried to sit up but he was holding my hands above my head and him sitting on me. I was stunned how the hell did he get in here. I looked to the window and once again in his eyes. "Get off." I whispered. He didn't move. "Why are you here?" I asked. Still no answer. "What the hell is your problem?" I yelled in a whisper. This angered him because his grip on my hands tightened.
"My problem? You're my problem!" His voice was gruff and I could feel his breath on my lips.
"How am I your problem?" I asked calming myself down.
"You think you and your boyfriend can calm your shows down." He held so much hostility in his voice.
"Our what?"
"That little make out session you had."
"Why would I?" I held the same amount of hostility as he did.
"Because." I waited for him to continue. "Because it bothers me." He let go of my arms and I pushed against his chest.
"Could you get off of me." I asked. He complied and sat up, I sat up beside him.
"Sango I don't think you get it. I still love you and I still want to be with you." His voice was soft.
"It didn't look that way this morning." I snorted. He laughed.
"Oh that. I can't believe it worked." He snorted.
"What worked?"
"I smelt you and Miroku coming so I tried to make you jealous."
"I wasn't jealous. It just hurt my feelings."
"I'm sorry." He held my hand in his. "I hate sneaking around. Can't we just be together."
"Inuyasha its not that simple anymore."
"What does that even mean?" He asked annoyed.
"I mean that Miroku and I are finally in a good place and I'm not ready to let it go."
"But you have a whole year Sango."
"Still...I don't know if its enough time."
"How is it not enough time?"
"He's really important to me Inuyasha."
"And your important to me." He stood up.
"Its not fair to him." He looked away annoyed. "I'm sorry but it has to end now Inuyasha." I turned my back to him.
"You can't do that." He practically yelled.
"Its not just us anymore its them too and they have a right to our faithfulness."
"I'm not saying to have sex with random people but I have a right to you by the end of the school year."
"But what if you and Kagome work out really good and me and Miroku are doing great."
"No ifs. You're mine by the end of the school year and that boyfriend of yours better not touch you." He sounded dangerous and it caused my heart rate to increase in pleasure, I was really messed up.
"My 'boyfriend' is your best friend remember?"
"I didn't come here to fight. I came here to tell you that I still love you and I don't want things to change just because we're having a break." And with that he was gone. He didn't give me a chance to respond to him. I sat there feeling stupid. He did love me and I still loved him but I also love Miroku. I plopped back and closed my eyes.
The whole night I spent tossing and turning. I felt so bad. The morning came to quickly. I got no sleep from the prior night. I heard a tap on my door and saw my mother pop her head in. "Can I come in dear?" I nodded and she came to sit by me. I looked at the clock and saw that I should be leaving by this time. "You're not going to school today." It was a mere statement.
"No. Not today." I said sitting up.
"What's wrong?" She asked rubbing my hair.
"Remember my problem?" She nodded yes. "Well its getting worse. I keep trying to make it better but I can't." My voice was nearing hysteria.
"What is this problem that's so big?" I looked around the room wondering what I should do. I stood up and went to lean on my closet. Finally I met her eyes.
"I fell in love..." She looked at me confused. "...With some one else." I went to sit by her. She wasn't saying anything. I hated her silence.
"Its Inuyasha. Isn't it?" I was surprised that she even knew.
"How'd you know?" I asked confused. She smiled.
"I see the way you two sneak glances at each other. The way he talks to you, your response." She stood next to me.
"I just love him so much, but I don't want to give up Miroku, I'm not ready to."
"That's selfish. Its not fair that you continue to be with him and you love someone else." Her voice remained calm.
"I know. But I can't break up with him and then get with his best friend within a day or so, and Kagome she's my best friend." I felt like crying. "Especially not after what he told me."
"I'm not saying to break up with him just...distance yourself a little. Wean him from you."
"Thanks mom." I said giving her a hug. I'm so thankful that my mom is always there for me. She's so understanding.
"You can stay home but tomorrow you have to go."
"Yes mom." I said smiling.
"I'll tell Miroku you're not going."
"Thanks again."
"Mhm." She said leaving. I lied back down on my bed and closed my eyes smiling. I would be truly alone today. No parents, no Kohaku, no Miroku, no Kagome and most of all no Inuyasha. An hour past before I got up to go take a shower. This was good I wouldn't have to rush my shower, I got out after a half hour and walked to my room in just my under ware. I opened my door and gasped as I saw him sitting there on my bed, his eyes closed and one leg up to his chest with the other dangling down to the floor. His eyes fluttered open and looked at me.
"You can't be here." I said shocked. He smirked and stood up.
"Why not?" He asked walking towards me.
"Because." I said embarrassed that I wasn't dressed.
"Because what?"
"Because I said so." I said covering my chest.
"I've already seen you naked Sango. I don't know what you think your hiding." He was still smirking.
"Shouldn't you be in school or something?" I asked diverting the topic.
"Sango just accept that we're meant to be." He stopped in front of me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I wanted to be in his arms so badly but I couldn't not while I was with Miroku.
"Just leave." I said quietly as I pushed him away. I walked towards my closet and started to pick up clothes from the floor to put on but I was grabbed up by my wrist and slammed to the wall behind me. My breath caught in my throat.
A/N: It's kind of a cliff note so stick around until next time. Thank you for reading. Please review if you have time.
