Arizona, are you OK in there?. Callie woke up at midnight and noticed that Arizona was in the bathroom.
"Yes, fine, go to sleep, it's just stomach upset". She was sitting on the floor, holding her head in hands, her breathing was labored and the crying was worsening the situation, she didn't want that Callie could see her in that condition. "I'm almost done here". She stood up, washed her face and left the bathroom. Callie was sitting on the edge of the bed waiting for her.
"Sorry, I wanted wake you". Arizona said nearly look at Callie.
"Don't worry about that, I thought I told you if you were sick should wake me... isn't it?
"Calliope, I'm not sick, you don't need to know every time I'm unwell", Arizona was trying to minimize her symptoms, but for Callie was impossible not to see when she winced in pain.
"So, what was that?. Callie asked concerned
"Look, OK. I don't feel so good, I have nausea and backache, that's all, it's no big deal..." Callie was watching every single move to Arizona. "Really baby, I'm fine, please, came back to bed with me."
"Arizona, I can enumerate many diseases that begin with those symptoms... I'm worried about you". Arizona gave her a kiss on her lips.
"Please shut up, I know you are worried but please, don't be. I'm a doctor too, I know all that... "
Callie interrupted her. "But you never want to go to the doctor"
"And that is because I don't need a doctor Callie... just need rest. Now please... Can we sleep?". Said almost pleading.
Callie sighed and she got to the bed next to Arizona. She knew that her wife was exhausted and didn't wanted press a lot.
"At less let me give you a massage to your back, you spent many hours standing". She was still worried, but will try to convince Arizona to go the doctor tomorrow.
"That would be great". Arizona smiled at her. "You know that I love you right?"
"Of course I do, I love you too, I love you so much". She kissed Arizona's back."
"Know?, Sometimes I'm fearing haven't time enough to tell you or the kids I love you as many times like I would like
"How many times would be necessary according to you? Callie asked intrigued
"Infinite times". At that moment a wave sadness overcame Callie, she perfectly knew to her wife meant and didn't. "Good night Calliope, I love you"
"Goodnight, sleep well. I love you too". Callie answered in a faltering voice.
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The morning was passing like usual. Callie had left to Sofia and Timothy at the school early, and had warned Sofia about a conversation they would hold at night.
Callie was really mad with her and still didn't know about the awful things Sofia had said Arizona.
At breakfast none of them talked to the other, Arizona was feeling hurt and didn't want cause another broadside of Sofia in front of Callie, she knew that Sofia was stubborn just like her mum, and would not apologize easily, but she was waiting the moment to talk to her and know why Sofia was feeling like that about her, because that was killing her inside.
Arizona needed to hear to Sofia say that nothing she told her was true, that she didn't feel those things and didn't hate her, that words were the only product of anger, which Arizona didn't know the origin, but she wished to know... However Arizona had feared to confront her because one of worst fear could become true... What if Sofia doesn't love her like her mom? And if she really hates her? Arizona could hardly breath thinking about that, she was scared to lose her little girl...
Arizona was sitting in the break room of the Hospital, was absorbed in her thoughts and never noticed the Callie had stayed standing next to her and watching her about 5 minutes.
"Honey?". Callie decided to break the silence
"Hey!, I didn't hear you come in". Arizona stretched her arms to embrace Callie who was squeezing Arizona's shoulder.
"I see..., Arizona I know I asked about a thousand times in the last weeks, but please and I meant please tell me... Are you OK?. Callie was desperate looking an answer in the Arizona's eyes.
After a few seconds answered with a sad smile. " I'm fine, I can remember have answered that question for you about a thousand times..., is just I'm concerned about Sofia, she is acting strangely... we have fought, and now is mad with me and I hate it..."
"Babe, she is a teenager, will be angry with us a lot of times during the next years..." Callie laughed.
"Yes... I guess..." Arizona looked dubious.
"Seriously, we'll talk with her, everything will be fine, but now I'm concerned about you..." Arizona knew that and she hates it.
"I know you are worried, and I really really sorry, because I don't like when you are concerned about me, I hate when you see me with those eyes..." said showing the sad look to Callie. "So, I promise I'll go the doctor, OK?
Callie gives to her a big smile. "When?"
"Soon, I promise, but don't push...By the way, look your happy smile... I told you I would go to the doctor, not that we'll go on the cruise". Said Arizona laughing
"Now I prefer you to go to the doctor..." said Callie lovingly, touching the Arizona's heart.
"Callie... I love you, don't forget it" Callie was going to answer when Cristina interrupted them.
"Dr. Robbins, you paged me, I was in surgery, you need a consult still ?" Cristina asked to Arizona.
"Yes please, come on". Arizona y Cristina were walked to the doors when Arizona turned towards Callie. "Callie, about the cruise... we will"
"That will be fantastic!, I love you!".
"I love you too" Arizona was relieved, she had removed the sadness in the Callie's eyes.
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"OK, Dr. Robbins, what do you need?" Asked Cristina
When they were far off Callie's ears Arizona answered. "I need you to check this chart and tell me your opinion, there is the ECG, MRI, TAC, etc."
"OK, let me see. High blood pressure, abnormal heartbeats, inadequate blood flow, we are talking to angina pectoris or pre-heart attack... symptoms the patient experiment?
"Fatigue, nausea, heartburn, back pain..." Cristina keeps looking analyzes.
"Yep, so it is... I hope that person don't have a stressful life because is a time bomb... wait a minute" Cristina looked seriously at Arizona "You are Arizona Robbins, Peds of Pediatrics, the girl with the wheels"
Arizona look her orthopedic leg and interrupted Cristina "not anymore"
"You know what I'm saying, these studies are not a child, Arizona is yours? Cristina was concerned
"Just need to know your medical opinion, who is the patient doesn't matter" Cristina could see that Arizona was nervous. "Arizona this isn't a joke, this is serious!"
"OK, thank you Dr. Yang", Arizona tried ignoring her. "I only wanted to know your opinion about appropriate treatment but seems that..."
Cristina interrupted. "Dr. Robbins, Arizona! You need treatment right now!, you need rest, we must do further studies, Callie must know that..."
"Wait!, Callie can't know OK?"
"What?, Are you serious? You have a high risk and all conditions to suffer a heart attack and you don't think to tell your wife? Really?, Are you insane?"
"You are my doctor and you can't tell her OK?
"Please Arizona understood, an attack may be imminent, you can't still work just like that..." Cristina almost begged.
"No, OK, I said NO!", In that moment her beeper sounded. "I must go"
Arizona ran down the hall leaving Cristina totally baffled.
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Two hours later the Arizona beeper sounded again, this time was Hunt, he was waiting for her in the office.
Arizona came in and there were Hunt and Cristina, she knew that Cristina had talked, could not be another reason...
"Arizona, please sit down". Owen said pleasantly
"I fine thank you, what happens?" She didn't get out her sight of Cristina.
"We will talk about your leave, I know recently you had to work hard but next week Dr. Karev will return so you could..." She didn't let him finish the sentence.
"I don't need it. That's all?, May I go yet?" She was uncomfortable
"Dr. Robbins, Dr. Yang told me that..." Again Arizona interrupted.
"I guess Dr. Yang knows about the professional secret, does it? Because I think have I said clearly that you could not talk about this, and now is Dr. Hunt offering to me time to rest. Time that I don't need." Arizona was annoyed.
"Excuse me but you really need it, also you told me I couldn't talk to Callie"
"Good Cristina.. You know..."
"I know that you are at risk, that is what I know...and know you don't want to tell your wife"
"I think you should talk with Callie" Owen suggested.
"Sure, tell my wife... " Arizona smiled wearily.?, perhaps any of you saw the way that Callie look at me after the crash ... she has always feared something happen to me. I can't even have flu that she is terrified and you both want to say to her that maybe I could have a heart attack, isn't it?"
"Arizona you nearly had. If you don't take care, this will be the next step and you know that very well, don't be selfish, you have a wife and children, and they need you don't risk your life"
"Really Cristina? You think I selfish? Think that all of this is about me being super hero?, that I don't need my wife's support, that I prefer hide things, that I like not being able to tell her about my troubles with Sofia or when I feel bad ... But this isn't true... I can't anymore... I can't continue seeing her suffer because of me...
And the kids... I heard once when Callie was telling Sofia that she doesn't run when I was there because I would feel bad ... Some many years later, Sofia told to Tim.
Oh, wait! Holidays! That nobody never wants to go to the beach, why? Because of me and my damn leg! They think I'm kind of fragile crystal doll that could be broken, and I don't want it... I don't want to worry Callie more than this... I just want her to be happy and telling this she wouldn't be happy..." Arizona breathed deeply. "So please, I beg of you both, don't tell her anything about this, please, I will be fine."
"But Arizona..." Cristina insisted.
"Please..." Arizona's voice was trembling
"At least take a couple of days off " Owen knew that would be the maximum he could get
"OK, I promise". Arizona smile
"But since right now" Owen said firmly
"OK. I also told Callie that I would fetch the kids to school, so I go..."
"Arizona take care, no stress, no physical exercise, not smoking or eating fatty ... and if any of the symptoms, come back to see me immediately, don't joke"
"I will try"
"Arizona!"
"OK, I'll do it" Arizona was aware she should follow the directions, but at least one of them would be difficult to carry it out.
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Arizona was quiet, couldn't stop to think about all talk with Owen and Cristina, doesn't wanted hide things to Callie, but neither bring more complications in her life. Yes, that was the right things... She just needed to rest and all would return to normal, Callie didn't need to know about this matter... probably all stress accumulated in the last weeks, all tiredness and her argument with Sofia are playing a dirty trick on her, but all will better...
She was so lost in thought that didn't hear that Tim was talking to her...
"Mom!, did you hear me?
Arizona quickly focused on him. "What?, yes, sure... sorry baby... So now you and Sebastian is best friends eh?" She asked showing interest
"Yes, he told me that next week I can go his house to play with the Xbox, Can I mom?"
"Yes, he told me that next week I can go his house to play with the Xbox, Can I mom?"
"Sure baby but let me talk with his mother first... and... What think about by going to the movies today you two?" Arizona smile. She knew Callie would not be very agree because Sofia had to be punished, but Arizona needed time with her family...
" Yes! I choose the film" Tim was excited
"I think you chose the last time, now is Sofia's turn..."
Tim looked to her, but Sofia was testing and uninterested. "Sofia?" called her Arizona
"What?, What do you want?" asking without looking
"Movies, you must choose the movie" replied Tim waiting hear the title of the movie that Sofia would choose
"I don't care, don't want to go."
"But Sofia, it's movie night... You like it, You always are waiting to go the movie" Arizona felt frustrated
"So? Not anymore... I don't want to go, OK?"
Arizona was trying to keep patience. "I think would be great for all of us spend time together, lately you are angry and really I can't understand why... but we could forget all about the things you told me yesterday... That doesn't mean that you will not punish because you lie to mum and me but..." Sofia interrupted
"I'm not interested, if you want to punish me, OK, but I don't ask forgive me"
"You really think that?, You really feel that way Sofia?, Do you hate me?" Arizona was broken inside
"That I said, isn't it?" Sofia ducked her head
"I want to go with you and mum..." Tim tried to cheer up Arizona
"Thank you baby" That was the only she could say.
The only thing could think Arizona was return at home... she was upset, hurt, she needed cry, she needed unburden, but not in the car with their children there...
And that pain again... she was trying to ignore it but couldn't, it was there...increasing, she could feel her heartbeat increased...
"Awww" she was in pain, she was trying to make herself comfortable in her seat.
"Mom?" Tim looked at her scared
"It's OK Tim, I'm fine, don't worry..." Arizona knew needed stop the car. "We will stop and I'll call mum Ok?" She was pretending that all was fine.
"What?, No!, I'm hungry, don't want to stop me" Sofia was ignoring all.
"Mom said she needed to stop the car Sofia!" Tim knew something was wrong
"I don't care what she said"
"Sofia enough! I don't feel good, OK? I need to stop dammit! Arizona yelled
Sofia was scared now, she never had heard her mom tell she doesn't feel good, but don't say nothing.
Suddenly, Arizona saw a truck the rushed over them, the driver was honking, it was obvious that he had no brakes, but was too late, he was almost over them.
In a second Arizona got out her seat belt, turned toward the children "Please, you both cover your heads, all be alright" She still was pressing the brake but knew that impact would be inevitable. With her arms she protected her sons like she could. Just a few seconds had passed and seemed hours.
She could not help but remember the accident years ago, but this time she was able to protect their children. The glasses were everywhere, his body began to feel the consequences of the impact ... his vision was blurry, but she could hear that Tim was talking, which meant that he was well ... She needed check out to Sofia before vanishing ... she tried to speak. "Tim, Sofia are you alright?"
Tim was crying "yes... mom, you are bleeding, we need mum to healing you"
"Don't worry about that. Sofia, are you fine?" Arizona was losing her strength
"I'm fine... , You are... You..." Sofia was in shock.
Arizona smile "I'm fine... Sofia, I need a favor, please, you take care your mum and Tim, OK?"
"No, I don't want Sofia take care of me, I want to you do it!" Tim was trying to hug her.
"Baby, you and your sister must leave got out the car, Can you do it for mom?"
Tim nodded crying, but he don't want upset his mom.
"Sofia please, get out"
"But mom... you"
"Hey!, you called me mom again" Arizona was happy, she could hear her daughter calling her mom again... "Sofia, I love you". That was her last words, she never could hear answer Sofia.
Outside the car, the people we're helping Tim and trying take out to Sofia, but she didn't want. Her mom was there... unconscious, and the last thing Sofia tell her was that she hated, but wasn't true... and her mom didn't know it, she couldn't let Arizona thinks that the words were true because isn't it, but now, Arizona couldn't hear her.
"Mom, please... mom!, I'm sorry!" Sofia was crying inconsolably, she felt guilty, she was regretted.
The paramedics arrived at the scene, Sofia had to let go Arizona's hand because they were pushing to her out.
"Mom!". She should take care of Tim and call her mum, Arizona had asked her to do it and that was she would do.
Sofia held her brother's hand while the doctors were checking on them and asked to call her mum...
