Sheldon watched as Penny stared at him blankly, as if she was really confused by his statement, and as it turns out; she was. "Huh?" She said, as her upper lip curled up ever so slightly.
"I guess it would be better to explain a tad more, alright then. Penny you see, all of this that you see are my thoughts, on you none the less, and how they have changed, how certain things you have done made me feel, how little things I've done for you affected me, and vice versa, what you have done for me." Penny looked around the room, walking to each and every board, seeing dates, times, numbers, events, and more importantly her name was on every board. As she walked and read what Sheldon had wrote in his fast and messy hand writing, he hovered slowly behind her at a reasonable distance. Once she was done with reading every little thing he had wrote she turned to him, with mixed feelings on her face, that surprised Sheldon, even worried him.
"Sweetie.. I.. I don t know what to say, I don't even understand all of this. Some yeah, but the rest, well not so much." Sheldon took two long steps closer to her, he had planed for her to not fully understand, so he was prepared to open up and let her know.
"Penny, I'm going to put this as simple and plain as I possibly can, I-"
There was a thudding sound from Leonard's room, making Sheldon now remember that his roommate had in fact came home, he would have to take note later that when he is near Penny he has short term memory lost.
"Could we perhaps take this talk out into the hallway? I quite frankly would not want Leonard to listen in on us."
"Oh, sure thing, um lead the way." Sheldon nodded his head and made his way to the door, half way there something had stopped him, he looked down at his hand, then at Penny's and back to his, out of impulse he took Penny's hand in his own. His large hand completely engulfed Penny's, Sheldon had realized that her hand was soft and warm beneath his, just like the rest of her skin; he would have to note that later as well.
Once in the hallway Sheldon closed the door behind him and kept his back to it, blocking the peephole in case Leonard were to, well, peep.
"Alright, Penny, as I was saying, my feelings for you have changed, I'm not sure how or why but they have."
"Changed how?" Penny was shocked and worried that Sheldon might actually hate her now, she didn't want that to be the case at all, but from what she saw and could understand that isn't it, but how was she to really know?
"First, I just saw you as a new neighbor that I would not get involved with, but upon interacting with you I soon came to the conclusion that you weren't at all what I thought you were going to be-"
"And what was that?" Penny cocked a brow.
"That's besides that point, once I became comfortable around, you continued to show me such great kindness, you even sang me soft kitty, and still do. So coming from that prospective I was starting to see you more as a motherly type, of course you and Leonard did date, broke-up and then what might have been dating again, I'm still not to sure about that, I mean you did come over and-"
"Sweetie, please don't, just stop there and get to the point you're trying to make, you are starting to ramble."
"I am? How odd, I tend to keep my thoughts all in order, hum?" Sheldon made a mental note to add that to the other notes he will be adding.
"Yeah, you kind of are."
"Well now we can't have that, alright, getting to the point. Penny, I think that I might have feelings of desire for you."
Again Penny looked at him with that look as if a deer was caught in the headlights, "Desire? Like as in you.. Like me?"
"Why yes, usually when someone says that to other human it does tend to be that way."
"When did this happen?"
"That's what I'm trying to find out, that's why all my best white boards were out, I'm working on a theory of why and how. Penny up until a few weeks ago I only liked you as one would like his mother, but now I like you as one would, well how you say 'fallen' for other."
"A few weeks?" Penny was dumbfounded that he had felt this way for more then a few minutes.
"Yes, and I will tell you it is very frustrating to work when you have one person on the brain, my whole work is now delayed because I was filled with thoughts of you, which I would normally over look or simply not bother with, but now, well you are all I can seem to think about."
"Oh, well I'm sorry, if it makes you feel any better I didn't know I did this to you."
"You should be sorry, now fix it." Sheldon crossed his arms over his chest and Penny broke out into a soft giggle, this made Sheldon go a light shade of pink.
"Sweetie, it's not that easy, you can't just fix liking someone, you don't pick who you fall for." Sheldon humphed at her; disapproving of her answer, Penny gave a light shake of her head.
"Then what do you pose I do? I have eight white boards cover with one theory, and even with all that information that I have, it doesn't seem to be enough to be rid of these feelings."
Penny's face dropped it's smile and hurt took over every feature of hers; she could not believe that Sheldon could be this big of a jerk, to actually tell her that he might love her, then say he doesn't what to love her. As if telling her that he can't and won't like someone like her.
"Why would you not want to like me?" Penny chocked out, anger and pain was caught in her voice.
"Don't get me wrong, as nice as it is to feel this way, I can't have it, for one Leonard is still madly infatuated with you, and two I have have seen the damage it can do to a friendship, and Penny, it would pain me to lose you."
Her breathing stopped, heart skipped a beat, and relief washed right over her, she regained her calming feeling.
"Honey, you won't lose me, I promises, and if you want, I will help you with your little theory thing."
Sheldon's eyes went slightly wide, "Really, you would?"
"Of course, if it's important to you, then I want to help."
"Oh, Penny, I think you may have confused yourself." Sheldon unfolded his arms and stood at his tallest, "My theory isn't what's important, it's you, the theory is here to just help me, to look at this in a scientific way."
Again, her heart fluttered in her chest and her face became a light cheery pink, when did Sheldon become so sweet?
"Well, maybe that's why you aren't understanding it, you can't look at love in a scientific way, it doesn't work that way."
Sheldon rolled his eyes, "Then how should I go about it?"
"With your heart, not you brain."
Penny smiled sweetly at him, hoping he would understand what she was telling him, and to every one's surprise; he did. Sheldon knew what Penny meant, and slowly gears turned in his head, and he was able to feel something new, something new for Penny, an urge.
"Penny?"
"Yes, Sheldon?"
"Could I try something? I think it would greatly help my theory."
Penny sighed deeply at that word, but she agreed to whatever it may be that he wants to try, she knew he wasn't thinking along the lines of sex. Sheldon got really close to Penny, bodies almost touching, he placed two shaking hands on her shoulders, and leaned in low, whispered in her ear, "Please don't move." With that, he looked at her, she had startled looking face, then his eyes followed down to her pink lips, where he soon touched them softly with his own.
AN: Well here you go! I know it took me a few days to get it done but I hope you all like it, I had fun with this chapter. I might not be able to get the next chapter up till next week.
Thank you all who read the first chapter! It's such great motivation, please keep up with the reviews I am loving it. With that I will see you all next week, maybe sooner.
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