I love you the words echoed in Jace s mind. Those three words where the biggest words you could ever say to anyone and once they were out in the open you couldn t take them back. But Jace was sure 100% that he didn t want to take them back. He couldn t for if he did it would only hurt the one he really cared about, Alec. Jace twirled his fingers through the soft coal black hair on the base of Alec s neck. Their noses were still pressed together arms wrapped around each other. It seemed like all that happened in Jace s life didn t matter until this moment. In this moment he found that he didn t have to be alone anymore that life didn t have to be as hard as it was for him, he could start over and start new, be free. Alec ,Jace realized was his key to a new begging. All of this realization was hitting Jace so hard that it was hard for him to really think of anything, he Jace the badass shadow hunter who looked death in the eye and laughed didn t know what to think. He was just so over whelmed by all these different feelings pounding in his brain and in his heart. This warm sensation was tingling his numb fingers and toes and all this love was melting away the ice that had covered his heart for so long. His metal wall was falling away slowly brick by stone cold brick. Everything he had known was changing for him in ways he couldn t control. But maybe he didn t want to have control any more maybe he just wanted to let the chips fall in their places and see what happened after. Jace s face was sticky with the dried tears, his eyes felt dry, he was still wondering how long it took for anyone to notice that he wasn t around and went looking for him. Had it been seconds, minutes, hours? Jace was becoming so emotionally drained.
He closed his eyes letting his body lean more on Alec s shoulder. For right now a hundred different things were racing around in his mind. Some things he couldn t even explain to himself. Had he always had feelings for Alec? He didn t know because Clary had gotten in the way. How was Alec going to break up with Mangus to tell him that Jace had been the one to steal his heart away? What would Isabella think? Would she think that this was all a joke? How could Jace be a shadow hunter without worrying about Alec getting hurt or even worse dying? What was his life going to become now that he hadn t pushed someone away and let them in instead? How had he managed to cope all his life without not being able to express himself or share his feelings with someone else that he cared about? Jace s mind was a complete blur again all of these thoughts were making everything in his life seem so stressful. Jace could feel the tears weld up in his eyes again, how had things become so hard? He coughed back a sob. He didn t want to cry again. He wanted to be strong like shadow hunters should be.
Alec s tender fingers now cupped his face, Alec s eyes were probably open, Jace felt smooth thumbs caress his cheeks. A soft nose rubbed against his, Alec s warm minty breath filled his lungs. Gentle lips touched his in a soft kiss. Pulling away Jace heard Alec murmur against his cheek Everything is going to be okay, I promise. We are going to get through this together Deep down Jace believed those words for they were all he had left to hold on to. Jace took a deep breath for now all the things in his mind settled down if all he had in life was Alec then that s all he needed and wanted. He opened his eyes and met Alec s blue ones, they were filled with love and that s what he needed right now for someone to love him no matter what. Jace plastered what he hoped look like a reassuring smile on his face, I m feeling better He said. He wanted to say more tell Alec everything but he didn t know how to go about do that. He also didn t want to scare Alec away.
Good Alec said kissing him again lightly pulling him away he let his arms drop from Jace and Jace did the same. Only now he felt cold and thrown out into the world, scared. Jace didn t like being scared for he had never had been scared of anything before in his whole life. If only Alec could hold on to him forever to keep him in one piece instead of trying to put back the many pieces later. Alec stood up. Jace did the same; the two boys looked at each other not sure where to go from there. Alec ran a hand through his hair like always. Jace looked at his shoes. After a second it was Jace that broke the silence. Soo where do we go on from here? His heart was beating way too fast and there was already a sinking feeling in his stomach, like jumping or falling from a high place. Jace twisted his shoe in the old wood floor.
Well what do u want? Alec asked tentatively. Jace could tell that Alec was letting him decide. It was all up to him. Jace wanted ...Jace wanted to be with Alec of course but there was also Mangus Alec would have to deal with later if Alec decided that he wanted to be with him. Well what about Mangus? Jace asked putting his hands sullenly into his pants pockets.
It shouldn t matter about Mangus right now, all that should matter is us and what we want to do, this is none of his business anyway wow Alec was pushing his boyfriend away for him, to be with him.
I want to be with you for I fear I have no one else Jace said eyes glued to the floor. He had to keep strong no more tears. The metal wall stopped falling. Shadow hunters weren t born to cry.
Alec took a step closer to Jace and wrapped his arms around his strong body. Pulling him closer Alec whispered you are not alone I won t let you be this I promise you, I ve loved you forever I won t let you fall, I promise you never will you hurt for I ll take all your pain away, I ll hold you right where you belong with me forever I won t let you go this I promise you , I give you my promise I give you my heart every word I say is true this I promise you don t have to keep fighting cuz I ll fight for you I ll give you my strength I ll be your hope close your eyes till my life is through I promise you I ll take you in my arms and hold you where you belong cuz I won t ever stop loving you this is a promise made for you Jace didn t know what to say to that, it was so deep. The deepest thing he had ever heard Alec say to anyone. He put his arms around Alec s neck. His body was on such fire that it was burning him from the inside out. There was nothing he could say to describe the way he felt just from those words. Those few simple words now meant so much to Jace, those words were gluing him back together bit by bit. Jace slowly understood what loving someone was like it was moments like these that made working for a relationship worth it. He took a deep breath letting go of Alec he took his hand and held it in his own. The sensation of someone else fingers intertwined with his was just thrilling to him. Jace and Alec stood there for a moment looking at each other. For the first time Jace was seeing Alec through a new light, through different eyes. Alec meant so much more to him now and he didn t want to lose that feeling ever.
Jace new know that he didn t have to long for Alec anymore that Alec could be his with no strings attached. This new feeling was making him forget everything that happened to him today, in the darkness they shared one last kiss and headed for the stairs hand in hand. Jace new know that he was loved, and it felt good he didn t want to push Alec away. Alec would always be the one to hold up Jace keep him strong. Jace was great full that Alec had been the one to come and find him cuz if it was anyone else he would have throne them away. It was different between Alec and him now, their relationship had changed so much that if something went bad that it could never go back to the way it had been before and Jace knew that but deep down he promised himself that he would never let this relationship fail like he had with all the other relationships in his life. This one was special to him and he wanted to keep it that way, for his sake and Alec s. I love you Alec this I promise you Jace thought as they took the stairs down two at a time. Deep down Jace was going to do his best to keep that promise even if it meant for the rest of his life he was okay with that. I love you this I promise you.

Hey guys, this is an update to the Jace and Alec one shot I wrote way back. But I felt like I just couldn t leave it hanging so I added another chapter to it. If you read carefully there is a flash of 90 s music by a popular boy band that is in a part of the story and I hope some of you who read this can it pick out cuz I don t want to give it away. But if you know who that boy band is send me a message on my page with the answer and I ll tell you if you got it right. Well I hope you enjoy this chapter as much as you did the first chapter. Also I want to give this story a special dedication to animefangirl55 or aka Bre-chan. Thanks for your support. Another chapter is coming to viewers near you.