Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious, Dan does, there happy? no? well neither am I!
Notes: This chapter is by far one of the darkest things I ever written in any Victorious story or the FFN site as a whole, it involves several subjects that are sadly normal in our society, so be warned if you dont like dark stuff, then it's probably best you leave now.
But if you CAN handle it then go ahead and continue reading at your own risk.
"This is sick."
Jade had seen many things in her life, twisted things she loved but this was not something she ever expected.
In big red letters were the words, "I HATE TRINA VEGA" carved into an old dead oak tree. Jade wished the letters weren't real blood, though she suspected they were.
She had seen fake blood before due to her desire to use it in many of her plays and this wasn't fake.
It was very real, she walked closer to the bloodied oak tree and her fears were confirmed when a closer inspection showed how tick the words were.
"Shit."
She stepped away in slight fear when a very disturbing thought came to mind.
"This better not be Trina's blood... Because if it is..."
Crack- crack
"What was that sound?"
Crack- crack
"There it is again."
Crack- crack
Jade slowly walked around the backyard, whatever that sound was it was very hard to make out, when she walked towards the trees, the sound disappeared, when she got closer to the house she could barely hear it, she went in different directions, it was like a clock, you could hear its tick but you had to wait to hear its tock, Jade was appalled, it was like she was getting patronized.
"Ok, what the hell are you?"
As she made it to a very old, very tall wooden fence that divided the property from the wilderness Jade let out a frustrated sigh.
Crack- crack
Jade knew right then and there she had to get over to the other side; she broke an old rotting wooden fence with her boots and hands, "ugh, this is disgusting and not the good kind" Jade muttered in disdain.
Once she made the hole big enough for her to get through, she looked behind her, almost as if expecting someone to be watching her, once Jade was satisfied she made a double take of the house.
"What the fuck?!"
Again in big bold letter she saw a wall on the wall of the house with the words "No one likes you, Trina"
To her relief, this time the words weren't made in blood but in spray paint.
However that did little to ease her since the sentence struck a nerve with Jade, after all it was that same thing she told the older Vega numerous times.
Crack- crack
Jade just knew she was making a mistake by going over to the other side of the fence, so in her mind she had two options she could suck up her slight fear and walk deep in the forest, her other more rational side chided her to leave now, call the police and let them figure out what was on the other side of this deranged mystery.
Now to see if she could find Trina was okay. However she hadn't been quite aware of how incredibly stupid the idea was, that is until she actually saw what became of her former safe haven. It didn't hit home until she stepped into a darkened backyard, and found herself in the most disturbing of scenarios.
Jade decided to suck her fear and she went to the forest.
Only to be met with silence for minutes to come and eventually was met with a sight she wished never to have witnessed.
"Holy shit."
She slowly and silently tip toed, getting closer to her destination.
"This can't be fucking real."
It was Trina, very much alive.
The shock of seeing her was momentary, Jade got a bigger shock because the older girl was naked as the day she was born, on all fours, digging with her own bare hands, and she also saw that Trina's hair was disheveled; she also couldn't help but notice just how hairy the girl's legs had become and if she had to guess she figured her arm pits were in no better state, Jade frowned in disgust when she got a bit closer, she had to cover her nose because of a terrible stench, it was a mix between a dead rat and rotten eggs if she had to make an educated guess, she just knew the smell had to come from Trina, from her appearance it was clear she hadn't bathed in days possibly since she went missing.
All in all Trina looked like she was going feral.
The Goth could also see the dirt all over her body alongside blood in her arms, hands and legs.
To her horror she saw that Trina wasn't covered in scars but cuts.
"What the hell have you been doing Trina?" Jade thought scared out of her wits.
"Almost done" She heard her say "I'm close Tori, so very close baby sister."
"Close to what?" Jade wondered.
She silently observed the nude girl continue with her work, whatever it was, it was sickening to watch her dig, dig and dig, almost like she wanted the hole to be deep enough, but for what exactly?
Then a scary thought came to her already terrified mind "Or who?"
Jade then remember a very crucial fact, in Trina's car she saw unused bullets but no gun "Does she have the weapon?"
Her questioned was answered when she saw the older teen crawling to a nearby bush and got out Mr. Vega's revolver.
"Holy shit."
Trina began loading the gun.
"One bullet is good enough" She muttered wickedly. "One bang and I'll be free."
Jade had seen enough; she was not going to continue to just stand there and do nothing.
She got out of her hiding place which wasn't a very good idea since a bullet flew by her almost killing her.
"I'm full of blunders tonight"
"Whoever you are!" Trina shouted angrily "Get out I'm not going to let anyone see me!"
Jade frowned "Trina, put the gun down."
She heard a gasp, rather than saw it. A muffled "What?" reached her ears, and then… nothing else for a few seconds.
Jade?" She questioned thickly as she stared at the Goth in utter amazement. Her hands dropped, the gun falling harmlessly towards the ground. Then her eyes narrowed. "How did you find me?"
She shrugged. "By accident."
"By accident!?" Trina screeched incredulously. "Are you for real?!"
Jade gave the older girl an appraising look. "What is going on here?, don't you realize everyone is looking for you?!."
The Vega girl laughs darkly "Do you think I'm stupid, we both know that's not true!"
Jade gaped "Of course it's true! Why would you think otherwise?!"
"Oh I don't know" She sneered "Maybe because no one likes me?"
"You… you can't believe that."
Trina gave her a wide-eyed look. "Why not?" She questioned, sounding incredulous "You told me that numerous times and we all know the great Jade West is never wrong!"
Jade stared dumfounded, Trina stared back hatefully, it was crystal clear that some words struck hard on the older half-Latina.
"Am I responsible for her cuts?"
Trina then very deliberately pasted an innocent look on her dirty face, almost as if she was mocking her "visitor".
She was never a good actress and it showed when she couldn't even attempt to look remotely innocent, not that there was any real reason to even try now after what was going on.
Jade felt pity for the girl, it was her lack of talent that drove her desire for attention and that in itself killed Tori.
"Congratulations Jade, you found me" Trina said darkly "Now that we're done playing hide and seek you can leave now and tell everyone I'm fine."
Jade was not amused, anyone with half a brain could see that Trina was anything but fine. She was either lying or in her unstable mind was deluding herself into thinking there was no problem but Jade was in no mood for this. She was going to get Trina out of here and to her parents' house if it was the last thing she did.
She was going to help her.
"Damn it Trina!" She kicked a log nearby. "Don't give me that bullcrap!" She shouted angrily. "I know you aren't ok for god's sake look at you!"
The older girl did in fact looked at herself down "oh" she said it as if she was just noticing she wasn't wearing any clothes she was saying it as is her current state was normal.
Trina crawled towards the hole looking at it with teary eyes "I'm gonna have to start over."
"The fuck…?"
"It was a perfect hole too" Trina muttered. "So deep and cozy."
Sweat was beading down her brow. "Trina we gotta get you home."
Deranged brown eyes gazed at the Goth "But I am home!" she said in a childlike tone.
"Bullshit Trina!." She snapped back, ever so slowly she made her way closer to the older girl. Sharp squinted eyes inspected her. "You're a mess." Jade stated. "You're skinny as a skeleton, filthy as a dog and why the hell are you crawling around like an animal?!." her brow beading with sudden concentration. "No scratch that, why the hell are you naked?!"
When Trina didn't answer her, it made the situation all the more terrifying, she walked fully intending to get a closer look.
The older brunette eyes narrowed as Jade approached. "Don't get any closer!" she yelled at her as she grabbed the gun.
Jade noticed it was difficult to do since she could see just how much of an effort it was for Trina to even hold it let alone press the trigger.
She could also see this close up how pale Trina had become, had the situation not been dire Jade think deeply of how much like a Zombie she looked like.
She shook her head. "Now is not the time"
"I don't think so Trina." She spat "I'm not leaving you here to do whatever you are planning; much less leaving without any answers " She paused looking into the tired eyes of her would be attacker. "I'm taking you home, your parents are worried sick, they already lost Tori they are not ready to lose you too." She added and with that she strode towards the brunette with quick purposeful strides.
Trina's hand swung forwards again with a sudden click. Jade stopped dead in her tracks. She stared down at her chest where a would be gun wound would have been had the revolver actually been loaded, looking back at the nude woman, her eyes wide with shock.
"Don't come any closer," Trina instructed her voice low and deadly "I still have bullets and I can load them faster than you can reach me so if you want to live another day I suggest you leave me alone"
"She almost killed me"
Jade frowned, and continued slowly making her way towards Trina "Almost being the keyword".
She now knew Trina wasn't technically bluffing, but she also knew that she could barely hold the damn firearm; she saw just how must effort she put into even lifting both her arms she doubted she could even put more bullets in the revolver and hold true to her threat.
As Jade got closer Trina began to panic "I said not to come any closer!" She practically squeaked with rage. "I mean it!"
Jade 's eyebrow quirked. She suddenly had had an epiphany, if Trina hadn't attempted to muster the strength to load the gun already, she probably wasn't going to.
... Okay, so she was taking a bit of a risk. But then, who didn't take a couple of those over the course of their short life?
"Put the gun down Trina" She ordered gently, keeping her eyes focused on her "friend", for a lack of better word, refusing to break eye contact for fear it could cause another violent act. "You might think you want me gone but it's not what you want and more importantly it's not what you need."
For a fleeting moment she saw a mixture of doubt in Trina's eyes, well doubt and rage to be exact.
"And how the hell do you know what I need?!"
Jade shook her head very slightly continued walking. "I don't… I don't even think I could guess what is going on in that head of yours right now but what I can tell you is that Tori wouldn't want this" She said calmly. She was nearly there. Only a few more steps...
Trina was beginning to look desperate her hands shaking it would be from the cold or her rage, Jade didn't know and at the moment she didn't care, all she cared about was reaching her target and taking the gun away from her hands, for both their safety.
"You don't know what Tori would have wanted!" She snarled. "I killed her and I almost killed you remember?!"
"But you didn't," Jade pointed out, preferring to ignore the part where Trina admitted to killing her younger sibling, she knew it was not directly but wasn't going to point it out, not when she needed to make sure no more lives were lost.
After several seconds, minutes, hours? Jade couldn't tell but it didn't matter because she was finally in front of Trina.
"I made it."
"I'm dangerous Jade."
"You're just hurting Trina." The Goth said, reaching out, calmly taking the weapon out of the other girl's trembling grasp. 'People do a lot of things when that happens, but tell me this... Do you think blaming yourself for what happened is gonna solve anything?'
The older brunette blinked but said nothing, not that Jade expected a reply as she crouched down in front of the nude girl. She stared back into her wide brown eyes; she gently grabbed both of Trina's arms, wanting to see the damaged she put herself through.
Trina jerked away from the Goth quickly, and instead of lashing out, like Jade half expected her to do so; she curled in on herself, clenching her arm to her bare chest.
Jade gazed at Trina's back, worried to say the least, she however realized the gun was still within reach of the unstable teen's reach and without a second thought grabbed the damn thing and threw it as far as way as she could, she wasn't about to take any changes.
After that, she sat down next to Trina and uncertainly puts her hand on her shoulder as a gesture of peace but before she got the chance, the older brunette began to shake again It was only when a strained sound reached her ears that she realized that Trina was... crying?
Something wrenched at a heart, it was no surprised to herself that during the time she dated Tori, Jade saw a lot of Trina and in a way she developed a soft spot for the untalented diva. "Trina..." She began, sure to keep her voice soft and unthreatening. She patted her in the back then began to rub it very. very gently. "Talk to me"..." She coaxed.
Trina didn't turn back to look at her, but when she spoke; her voice was low and strained. "What did I almost do?"
"I can't really say" Jade answered honestly "But if I had to guess I think you wanted a way out of the anguish."
Trina closed her eyes, tears running to the ground "I want Tori."
"I know" She soothed "I know, I do too"
"Jade?"
"Yeah?"
"What just happened?"
"I saved your life" The younger teen answered without skipping a beat, all the while still rubbing Trina's back, It seemed like the appropriate thing to do, for all she knew, her companion probably craved comfort.
Another soft sobbing sound came from her. "I wanted to die," she continued, her voice full of loathing.
"I know you did."
Trina turned over abruptly, wincing in the process; her weary eyes squinted at her. "You saved me," The girl stated. "Why? I thought you hated me"
Jade looked down at her with an unreadable face. "I don't hate you Trina" She answered sincerely.
Trina scoffed.
"I don't!" Jade said again "You make me angry, furious actually, to the point where I want to open up your guts and use your intestines as a rope!"
"That sounds disgusting and horrifying on so many levels Jade."
"But not once have I developed any reason to actually hate you."
The weak girl looked at her uncertainly "And yet you have no qualms about killing me, terribly graphically I might add."
"I threatened to use my scissors several times Trina and not once have I followed through, it's just the kind of things to say as as spur of the moment to make people leave me alone but that's not important what's important is that you have to know I don't hate you."
"Even after I killed Tori?"
"You didn't kill her" Jade snapped back "You didn't know what was going to happen."
"That no excuse!" Trina rasped, curling further into herself "I should have taken her to your house! She was my baby sister I was supposed to take care of her and instead I send her out to die!"
Trina lifted her head from the dirt and locked eyes with her unexpected rescuer "You gotta believe me when I tell you that I loved my baby sister, please believe me!"
Jade's eyes softened "I never said you didn't."
"Everyone else thinks otherwise" She mumbled, after a moment she looked away again and continued. "When the news got out everyone at school thought I got her killed out of jealousy and started to avoid me like the plague, at first I didn't believe it. I refused to believe it was my fault. Even when people told me it was my hatred towards Tori that ended her life! I just pushed it away, you saw Jade, you were there!"
Jade closed her eyes and nodded, indeed she remembered the verbal abuse Trina went thought at school, the older Vega didn't get any sympathy from anyone in fact she got severely hurt emotionally and now Jade knew she also must have gone through deep psychological abuse.
"But I never hated Tori!" Trina continued vehemently, "yes I envied her because she always got everything handed to her in a silver plate but I never hated her, is it too hard for people to believe that?! To believe I loved my only sister?!"
"I don't doubt you but the thing is… you never showed you loved her" Jade pointed out "All you cared about was seeking attention, even you got to admit that doesn't exactly give a good impression."
Trina lowered her head in shame, which simply made her feel even worse; she looks up at the thespian with nothing but despair in her eyes.
"Jade… can… can you do something for me?"
The Goth looked suspiciously at her "Unless you are asking me to take you home or the hospital I'm not doing anything."
"But it's important!" Trina pleaded desperately "I promise it's the first and last time you will ever do anything for me."
"I highly doubt that but fine, tell me if you must but I make no promises"
"End me right here, right now"
Blue eyes widened in shock " SAY WHAT?!"
"I want you too…"
"No Nononononononono don't you fucking dare to say it again!" Jade yelled angrily "I am NOT going to do that!"
"Why not?!"
"Why not?!" The younger girl snarled "Why not?!"
"I'm a bitch Jade!" She cried "No one loves me, no one is going to miss me so please put me out of my misery!, do it do it do it do it do."
Jade slapped her hard on the cheek.
Trina touched her burning face, feeling the sting of the fresh slap.
"First of all Trina" Jade panted "No, you're not a bitch!, secondly I told you before and I'm telling you now, your parents do miss you, they are going crazy without you, thirdly and most importantly do not ever, EVER ask me again to kill you because I am not going to let you end your life this way!"
"Why not?!"
"Because if you are going to die it will be years from now!" She hissed "When you are an old woman at the age of eighty or ninety or whatever, not now and definitely not tonight if I have anything to say about it!"
"Don't patronize me Jade!" Trina said glaring at the ground "Is obvious I'm unlikable, I know it! You know it; everyone in our goddamn school knows it!"
"Everyone at Hollywood Arts is a freaking retard!" Jade snapped back viciously "There were people saying you should have been dead instead of Tori for god's sake!"
"Maybe they had a point" Trina puts her arms around her legs and head in her knees so she could look at Jade.
Said girl gaped "Do you hear yourself talk?!"
"If I was then Tori would still be alive!" Trina cried miserably.
"Well stop thinking that!" The Goth ordered ominously "You can't change the past!"
"I know!" She sniffed "But how I wish I could, I just want to be the responsible big sister I should have been in the first place!"
The older brunette finally rested on the ground, looking at the stars with mild wonder thinking that maybe her sister was looking down at her wanting to reunite with her but maybe that was just what she kept telling herself to feel better.
"I took her for granted Jade."
"Huh?"
"Tori..." Trina clarified "I took her for granted, thinking she was always going to there with me."
"Well..." Jade smacks her lips "Guess I'm guilty of that too, your sister was such a happy go lucky person, no one expected her to be here one day but gone the next.
"It sucks."
"Very."
"There was something in that school," Trina said almost wistfully after moments of silence. "I started out thinking I could be an actress, my head and ego started getting bigger and bigger… it was like poison to the people around me, Tori mostly and… and after that HORRIBLE night… after days.. Weeks of classmates and strangers alike taunting me, tormenting me, calling me names… telling me how much I suck… that I was an accidentI... I started getting weaker.
"Weaker?"
Trina nodded "Yes I stopped eating thinking I didn't even deserve a proper meal if I couldn't even give Tori a ride."
Jade was appalled.
"I tried to starve myself, subconsciously it was my first attempt" The Vega girl said miserably "But at the time I didn't realize it"
"Oh God"
"It wasn't until a few days later that I got the worst blow imaginable."
"What happened?"
"Oh? you want to know what I found out." She sneered right in Jade's face, and the girl calmly backed off a bit. "DO YOU KNOW WHAT I FUCKING DISCOVERED?"
Jade grabbed Trina's hand, seeing the amount of dirt, blood and cuts the half-Latina inflicted on herself, Jade didn't care, she still held it and intertwined their fingers, it was meant to be both an act of sympathy and to calm her hysteria down.
It didn't work.
Trina snatched her hand away from the thespian, not wanting to be touched.
Instead she puts her face in her hands, almost as if she was trying to hide what was to come "I discovered that I reached my limit, I… I just couldn't bear it anymore."
Her lips were trembling "I lost a lot and the constant taunts and hateful names were just the added bonus but the worst thing was getting e-mail after e-mail from family members, I thought oh good they are probably going to try to cheer me up" Trina said sarcastically "Instead I got hate mail from cousins, aunts you name it, saying I was no relative of theirs!"
Jade gasped in shock "That's right down cruel"
"It hurt so much" Trina started weeping "And no matter how many times I tried talking to them, tried begged for forgiveness I received the cold shoulder!"
There was a long unbearable silent pause. Then "That was it, it was the last straw… So I think I went insane."
Jade bit her lower lip, she felt a cutting remark about Trina's sanity almost slipping out but catches herself in time, she was not about to cause Tori's sister any more emotional grief.
Trina turned to glare at her, almost as if she expected a cruel remark from her companion, Jade however merely looked back solemnly. "My decision to leave took less than a second, I wanted out, not just from all the hate around me but from my life! For days I locked myself in my room, I thought of several ways I could go, but several ideas I had required money like the suicide booth or a rope to hang myself, even an overdose went through my mind at some point, then there was the real possibility that I could be saved in time… And I didn't want that... I didn't deserve it."
Jade was disturbed at what she was hearing, it really spoke volumes how much the girl besides her suffered if she was calmly counting the many ways to kill herself without so much as a second though.
"In the end I stole one of my dad's guns" The half-Latina muttered "Thinking it was the quickest way."
Without a warning, Trina launched herself onto her unlikely savior and held onto her as strongly as her body allowed her to, to say Jade was surprised was an understatement, the brunette cried harder, tears running down onto the thespian's chest.
Jade hesitated for a moment but she slowly puts her arms around Trina's nude body, returning the hug and cradling her like she was a baby, using the same technique she once used on Tori whenever she was upset.
"Shh… Shh… Shh... Let it all out Trina."
Said girl lowered her head just a bit, subconsciously stopping on Jade's heart, hearing the rhythmic sound of it pumping, all the while continuing to cry.
If anyone was around they would think that it was quite the weird sight, hell Jade herself could hardly believe it, and here she was comforting an emotionally unstable naked Trina Vega.
After several minutes, Trina finally calmed down, but she still held onto Jade like she was afraid she would leave her like everyone else had.
Which in her already weary mind was be a real possibility
Trina slowly looked up into the blue eyes of the pale girl who at one time gave her the creeps, now she gave her a bit of comfort.
"I tried to end it Jade! I really tried!" Trina wept in despair "But I kept getting interrupted!"
"Thank God for that." Jade thought.
"Every day I held the gun in my hand thinking this is it I'm going to see my baby sister again we can finally be together! but every time I was found by someone so I had to make a run for it"
"Apparently some people were telling the truth to the cops"
"I had nowhere to go" She continued "I practically lived in my car, going from place to place, stealing anything I could find so that people wouldn't recognize me, I didn't want anyone to see me at my final hours I just wanted to die far away from anyone!"
Trina began trembling, The Goth knew something bad had happened to her while on the streets, her stuttering voiced said it all, Jade feared the worst but still had to ask, still had to know.
"What happened Trina?"
"Please don't hate me." She begged. "I can't handle the hate anymore."
"What happened?" Jade questioned again.
Trina hid her face in the girl's chest in shame and guilt.
"Please don't hate me!"
"Trina… you scaring the shit out of me, please tell me what happened to you!"
"I got raped."
Jade's eyes widened in shock, she grabbed the brunette by her bare arms so she could face her "YOU WERE WHAT?!"
The anguish in her puffy red eyes was unmistakable.
"I got raped" Trina repeated hoarsely "I was just getting into my car when some guy grabbed me from behind, I yelled and screamed and tried to punch him, slap him anything!"
"When did this happen?!"
"I don't really know" She admitted "I just remember this guy taking me to an alley. Removed my pants, he took off his pants and… and…"
"Don't say anymore." The Goth requested, feeling as if she was about to feel ill.
Jade hugged Trina without a second thought; she began crying again, while Jade shed silent tears.
After several minutes the older teen spoke tiredly "When it was over I felt like I hit rock bottom, I felt like a cockroach was cleaner than I was... How could I go on living after that?"
"Don't ever think that again" Jade ordered gently "You are not filth ok?"
"I feel like the scum of the Earth."
Jade was furious "Did you see his face?" She inquired with rage, thinking of ways to get even with the asshole that put Trina through such hell.
"Yes"
"Describe him to me." Jade ordered ominously "Tell me so I can fucking cut off his balls!"
"Don't worry" Trina said eerily calm "He's gone."
"HOW IN THE BLUE FUCK AM I NOT GOING TO WORRY?!" The pale girl bellowed madly "There is some guy out there raping people!"
"He won't do it again."
"How do you know?!"
"Because he's dead."
"I'm sorry… Mind repeating that?"
"He's dead" Trina parroted, she then lowers her head in shame "I… I shot him."
Jade's eyes widened "You murdered someone?"
Trina looks into Jade's fearful eyes "I just snapped, two days after I got raped I saw him again, the bastard had the galls to come up to me and smirk telling me I was a nice fuck, it was as if someone else was in control of my body I don't know what came over me, I grabbed the gun I took with me and shot him, twice in the balls, the pain the asshole felt was minimal to the pain I felt, I wanted him to pay for what he put me through so I just shot him again and again and again, first in the balls, then his knees and finally I wanted to wipe that little arrogant smile off his face so I shot him like a million times there, when… when I was done his face was unrecognizable."
Jade opened and closed her mouth, unable to comprehend what she the girl was admitting to.
Trina was trembling again, this time in utter rage "After I realized what I did I run ran and didn't look back, it was another thing on the long list I had I hated about myself I mean I had just killed a man in my blind rage, a sick bastard but a person nonetheless, so after that I kept thinking what would Tori think of me if she saw what I had become?"
"What… what did you do then?"
Trina sighs in defeat "All I had were the clothes in my back, my car and the gun, I thought enough was enough so I came here, I waited long enough it all ends today. I been digging that hole over there so it could be my grave, I took off my shirt, my pants, everything I wore… I kept feeling him… kept hearing his cruel delight because he didn't just degrade me… He took my virginity too!"
Jade gasped, putting her hands over her mouth "No"
Tears ran down Trina's cheeks "I had assured myself that if I would be joined by anyone it would be my sister in the afterlife, I was looking forward to seeing her again I wanted to tell her how sorry I am, spending eternity with her gave me the illusion of happiness, I craved being the older sister I should have been to her since the start!"
"I think it's a nice way to spend the afterlife Trina, but it's not your time yet."
"I should be with Tori right now" Trina whispered miserably "But instead I got... you." She looked at the pale girl as if seeing her for the first time. "You Jade." She stared at her. "I never thought you of all people would find me"
The Goth patted her in the back. "You and me both"
"I wanted to die." Trina said, sounding more than a bit put out.
"But you didn't." Jade replied "And I don't think you really wanted to, I think you wanted to be saved"
"You really think so?"
"Everyone needs saving" Jade said firmly "Your sister saved me at one point from being a miserable lonely gank, after every time I drove her away she kept coming back, the last part Trina could hear the fondness in her "friend's" usually dark voice "Not once did Tori gave up on me and you have no idea how thankful I am that she fought for our friendship"
For the first time in weeks the older brunette smile "Maybe you're right"
"Here's the million dollar question Trina, Do you still want to?"
"I... I…" Trina faltered. Jade raised her pierced eyebrow as she watched her companion with such intensity and worry, not knowing what she might hear. It looked like the older teenager was visibly struggling with her question.
"I… I don't really know..." She finally admitted, so softly that she could barely hear her.
Jade was silent for several more seconds. Then decided on a course of action, first she took of her jacket and puts it on Trina, said girl looked at the jacket then at the Goth.
"Thank you" Trina said meekly.
It was the first act of kindness she had received in a long time.
"Yeah well," Jade said abruptly. "Come on." Reaching out she grabbed Trina, lifting her bridal style.
"What..?" The semi-naked girl asked "What are you doing?", uncertain as what to make of this new change of events. "Where are we going?"
Jade looked down at her "I'm taking care of you."
"You are?"
"Trina, you can't be alone" Jade turned and gave her a harsh appraising look "I'm taking you to my house, you will take a shower, after that you are going to take a pregnancy test and finally I'm taking you to your parents"
Trina almost seemed to wilt under her scrutiny. She hides her face in Jade's shirt "I don't want to see them"
"Why not?"
"They hate me."
"They don't hate you Trina" Jade said with a sad smile "They are going to be so happy to see you"
"But I'm pregnant!"
Jade stopped in her tracks, slowly looking down at the girl hiding her face in the confines of her clothing "You… you are?"
Trina nodded; eyes shut "I'm not a slut… please don't hate me"
Jade narrowed her eyes "So let me get this straight" She snarled "You knew you were expecting and you still planned to go through with your little plan?!"
She broke down "I'm a horrible person!"
Jade sighs "No, you're not, you just… suffered a lot Trina, you need help, what you need is to be with friends and family you know? People who love you, what you need is to be happy again"
"I don't know if I could to that"
"You can"
"But I don't have any friends" Trina cried miserably, Jade's anger left her, instead feeling great pity towards the girl in her arms, she held her a little tighter.
"You have me"
Trina slowly looked up at her unlikely rescuer and with a childlike tone she asked "I do?"
Jade nodded.
"Can we really be friends?" Trina questioned uncertainly "After everything I done?"
"We can." She assured "But there are a few conditions."
Trina was sick of being alone, of feeling like the scum of the Earth, she wanted redemption in the eyes of her family and the people around her, but mostly she wanted forgiveness from Jade, the scary girl who had done more for her in the last hour than anyone else in her entire life.
"Name them"
"First, you are going to seek help, ok? That's nonnegotiable" Jade ordered with a commanding tone "You can't get better if you don't admit you have a problem, you are going to stop thinking about committing suicide and if you even think about it then you will have to talk to someone about it!"
"Can it be you?" Trina asked innocently.
Jade sighed "If it makes you heal faster, then yes, you can talk to me about it."
"Thank you"
"You're welcome"
"Ok um what else?"
"You ARE going to see your parents, you will tell them you are pregnant and tell them about the rape, they need to know"
"What about…"
"You weren't in your right state of mind" She said firmly "But I think the bastard's death should be kept between us, you don't need the added drama"
"But I…"
"Trina" Jade huffed tiredly "You did the right thing, if you hadn't kill the asshole then he would still be around doing to others what he did to you"
The brunette knew Jade had a point but still felt guilty about it, she had never directly ended a life and it felt like it would haunt her forever. "Anything else?"
"Forgive yourself Trina" Jade said soothingly "Forgive yourself so you can start being happy"
"Can I… can I ask you something?"
"Shoot"
Trina winced and Jade wanted to kick herself "Sorry, poor choice of words"
"It's ok... umm my question is… Did you saved me because of Tori or because you thought I was worth saving?"
"Trina, Tori saw something in you that no one else saw" Jade started "I'm not sure what exactly but I want to think that if you are still here even after all your hardships then there is a path in life you need to take"
"That doesn't necessarily answers my question."
"Truth be told, if I didn't think you were worth it then I wouldn't be here right now."
Trina rested her head on Jade's chest, once again hearing the beats of her heart "Thank you"
Jade gently squeezed her; slowly putting Trina down so she could walk by herself, said girl however held fearfully onto her savior "No!"
The Goth oddly looks at her, Trina simply blushed "I… I can't walk… my feet hurt"
Jade bought that as a reasonable excuse and picked her up again bridal style, taking them both back to where she parked her car.
Trina once again puts her head on Jade's chest, she liked hearing her heart, it was listening to the sea in her opinion it soothes her.
She didn't know what to expect now but it gave her comfort knowing that she no longer had to bear with her troubles alone and for one simple reason.
"For the first time in forever... I have a friend."
I always liked fics where Jade showed she had a good heart despite her cold exterior and ultimately that was one of the reasons why I decided to do a story like this but also this fics had several topics that needed to be addressed, like if you have problems, talk to someone, never hold everything because no one is ever truely alone as long as you have people that care.
The suicide booth is in fact from Futurama, those who don't know, they have been around since 2008 in the serie's universe, I thought it would be something that could be put just so people know the severity of suicide now adays.
Well this is the end of the fic but not the saga, there will be a final part that takes on the friendship between Jade and Trina, so look up for that, it will be posted soon enough.
Constructive reviews accepted as always.
Invader Johnny Signing Off.
