BPOV

Chapter 2

Life Is Cruel

It was weird. I was now what I had used to fear being.

I was old.

Ninety-Eight years old to be precise. I envied the Cullens in a way. Not only were they beautiful, they stayed the same age. They lived forever and stayed frozen in their perfection for the rest of their existence. I also envied Edward. He had his loving family; his parents, his brothers, his sisters and his friends.

I had loneliness.

He had love.

I had nothing.

He took everything I loved eighty years ago. Then Charlie died in a car accident. Then I lost my friends at the hands of a deer- A stupid, stupid deer. Then I remembered what else happened that day.

FLASHBACK

"Bella?" A familiar voice asked.

He was exactly what I needed, but I didn't turn. My best friend had just died in my arms, and I had lost all eight of my other friends as well- All because of a stupid deer.

"Bella. It's Carlisle Cullen"

"Eight, all dead, me, please, help" was I could say. All I could think about was Jake.

"Carlisle?" Another voice asked. Rosalie.

"Eight, all dead, me, please, help" I mumbled again

"She's in deep shock, Rosalie. Get Jasper here"

"Bella?" Rosalie asked

"Eight, all dead, me, please, help"

She gently pulled me away from Jake's body.

A blood-curdling scream filled the air. Rosalie jumped back. Then I realized it was me who'd screamed. I started sobbing hysterically.

"Rose, get her to Jasper. Now!"

She knelt beside me and pulled out her phone. Her eyes locked with mine as she spoke to her brother.

"Jasper. You knew to get down here, now… Yes… Southridge Way…There's a lot of blood… No. Only Bella survived…She just keeps mumbling the same words, over and over…Eight, all dead, me, help, please…no…hurry, Jasper. I'm worried about her"

Did Rosalie just say she was worried about me?

Alice and Jasper were there in an instant. Alice ran up to me and pulled me into a tight hug. I felt waves of calm and peace from Jasper, but it couldn't sway the heartbreak I felt.

"Eight, all dead, me, help, please"

"Bella?" Jasper said, "Bella, listen to me. You need to calm down. Your emotions are running dangerously high. You're on the verge of a breakdown"

I knew that.

"I've missed you all. So much"

Everything went black.

When I woke up, I was in Forks Hospital. They told me that Emmett had carried me in and that the rest of the Cullens, except Edward, had spent the whole night by my side. Then they'd left.

END FLASHBACK

The Cullens had been there that day. The deer had run out onto the road from the forest; like it was being chased- Like it was being hunted.

The Cullens had been hunting there that day, well Carlisle and Rosalie anyway, and the deer must have run out onto the road away from them. That fit, but if they had been hunting the deer, they'd witnessed everything, the crash, Jake, everything. They'd seen everything and not bothered to try and save any of us. They must have known two people were still alive, they'd have heard our heartbeats. If Jacob and I hadn't have crawled out of the wreckage, would they've tried to save us?

I didn't know the answer to that.

Some days I wish they wouldn't have, I could have died with my friends, and I would have been happy.

Some days I wish Jasper had killed me on my eighteenth birthday; I would have been at peace then.

But I still wish for the same thing every day- I wish Edward still loved me.

But alas, life is cruel.