Hello, once again! This is jaarXofXcandyz, coming to you live with the next chapter of I'm afraid to say! I just can't express how happy your reviews make me, so keep em coming! (teehee. I said 'come...')
DISCLAIMER: Okay. I forgot to include this last chapter, so, I do not own Pokemon. If I did, TRUST ME. You'd know. Gary and Ash would have already confessed their love, and with the magical power of celebi, have had several mpreg babies :3 SO YEAH! BEWARE THE MAN-SEX! IT WILL HOOK YOU, AND NEVER LET YOU OUT OF IT'S GRASP! (well, it's not like you'll want it to...) And, there's nothing graphic. I promise :)
Previously on I'm Afraid to Say:
"I love you Gary Oak."
The rest of what happened, well, I wouldn't repeat in polite company. I will say this though: it was perfect. Everything I'd ever dreamed about, only more. His skin on mine, with nothing between us but sweat and love. It wasn't a competition, we weren't trying to surpass each other. This was just about being equal, giving our everything to one another, expressing how much we love. I wouldn't, nor couldn't, as for anything more than to hear him tell me-
"I love you Ash Ketchum."
I'm Afraid
When I woke up the next morning, all I could see was his face, smiling down on me with such warmth I may as well have been burning. A good kind of burning, though. The sun's light surrounded him with a halo, and in my half-dazed state, I wondered if I was looking at an angel.
Within a few minutes, the truth of what happened kicked me in the face. Gary, Gary Oak, and I, Ash Ketchum, were lying down, stripped of all clothes, behind my mom's prized rose bushes. Alright, a thick wall of thorny flowers was blocking us from possible wandering eyes, but the basic idea petrified me.
"Mmmm... Morning sleepyhead." He gently brushed some hair out of my eyes, "I wanted to wake you up, but you looked so tired. Of course, anyone would be after three rounds..."
My eyes widened, "Did we, err... actually, ya know, do 'it'?" And to my surprise, he laughed. A loud, happy laugh.
"Yup, Ashy-boy. Don't tell me that was your first time?" A smirk graced his beautiful face, "Because you weren't bad at all." He obviously could see my discomfort, yet chose to ignore it. "Actually, I believe it. You're so young and naive, you probably wouldn't have even noticed how I felt about you if it weren't for last night."
If it were possible to die of embarrassment, I think I would have. Or, at least, dropped into a coma-like fetal position. Gary leaned over and kissed my forehead softly, before placing his lips over mine.
"I care for you so much, Ash."
So, I hadn't imagined it? I hadn't dreamed the whole night? The sex? Our confessions? What would my mom say, or worse yet, my friends? How would Pikachu look at me if he knew that his owner had sex with a man?
"Damn you, Gary!" I shoved him away. "We're only fifteen years old! Does it not bother you that you just had sex, with me, a guy, in my mother's garden?!"
"Nope." He smiled at me. How the HELL can he smile at a time like this? Does he not know how people act towards homosexuals? The prejudice he'd have to face if we stayed together? Gary would have to kiss his research career good-bye, and the same with my dream of being the Pokemon master. What kind of mother would let their child look up to Ash Ketchum, the homo Pokemon trainer?
He grabbed my wrist when I tried to stand, glanced casually down, and then back up to my eyes. Oh. Right. I'm naked. I blushed profusely and searched vigorously for the abandoned clothes. Gary seemed to read my mind, and handed my the wrinkled pile.
I mumbled a quick thanks before pulling on my jeans. They were really dirty, but I didn't have any extras. As I pushed my way out of the bushes, I heard him sigh loudly.
"I'll wait for you."
Dashing inside, I silently prayed everyone would still be asleep. No such luck, eh? Each and everyone of my friends sat, crowded in my mother's tiny kitchen, wolfing down her infamous chocolate chip pancakes. Of course, my luck provoked them to stop their eating for just a minute to take a good look at me.
I bet I'm quite a sight to behold. Tangled, unbrushed hair and rumpled, cum-stained clothes. I just averted my eyes and climbed the stairs as quickly as I could, ignoring the pain coming from my ass. No sir, I did not want to have to explain to my mother and friends why I looked like I'd just had sex in the rosebushes. Because I HAD just had sex in the rosebushes, and something told me that wouldn't go over very well.
Now that I think about it, I should have thanked him for that much. Gary had lifted and carried me so we'd be out of public eye. A blush made it's way across my face as I pulled fresh clothes out of the bureau. Reluctantly, I removed my old shirt, but not before holding it close to my face. Mmmm, it smelled just like him...
"Ash?" Damn. I forgot about my friends for a second. Here I was, sitting in my room, sniffing a dirty t-shirt. I bet I looked like a retard.
"Mhm?"
"Ready to go? We have a long trip ahead of us." I nodded, and pulled on the clean white shirt that I'd taken out.
"Yea, I'm coming." Yes. My perfect chance to get out of here. I don't think I can face him again after what I said. What I did...
Why was he acting so cool? Can't my friends put two and two together? I disappear. Gary disappears. I show up the next morning looking like I'd had sex all night. Either they are the retarded ones, or I just have a really, really guilty conscience.
Ten minutes later, we were all climbing into Tracey's truck. Misty got to sit up front with him, because apparently his girlfriend ranks higher than his friends, and the rest of us were forced into the bed. Before closing the door, I glanced quickly at my mother's garden. Sure enough, a clothed Gary sat under her favorite cherry tree, waiting for me to come back. Damn, guilt doesn't begin to describe how I felt when he looked up.
"Ash?" Hurt flashed in his green eyes, and I turned away. I wish I could explain, I wish I could stay, I wish I could tell him that I wasn't afraid. But that would be lying.
So, after more than a month of waiting time, chapter two! I'm sorry if it sucks majorly, but I just wanted to post it.
Yes, I received a few... concerned comments about why they were having sex in the middle of the yard. I hope I explained it well enough here ^__^
OMG! Is that... hinted het? Why yes, it is. I do support het-couples as well, and don't like to think EVERYONE is gay. That is just unrealistic. tracyXmisty is cute :3
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