A/N: Right in the beginning of this chapter, I address some of the stereotypes and things that bisexual people have to deal with. You might not see the connection, so I'm going to list them in order: biphobia (which is NOT the same as homophobia), having your sexuality invalidated, being accused of being a slut or the idea that because you are attracted to both males and females (and possibly more, like bigendered or gender-neutral people) means that you are attracted to everyone, the reduction of your sexuality to nothing more than a fetish for someone else's enjoyment, and again the invalidation of your sexuality. There are actually large numbers of bi- and trans*phobic people within the LGBT community, and I hope this raises (a little) awareness.
His Name is Beloved
He kept his mouth shut when Dave tried to provoke him again. Sam missed Kurt – not that the two were very good friends, but when Kurt was around, Sam felt like he didn't have to be flamboyant to feel secure in his bisexuality. When he'd found out that Karofsky was bullying Kurt, he was pissed. He didn't even care about his black eye, but he was ashamed that he didn't tell everyone why he'd been so fierce in the fight. Now, Sam felt like it was his fault that Kurt left. If only he'd had the guts to say something... but he hadn't. He was dating Quinn, and he was scared what she would say.
"That's disgusting."
"Pick a gender."
"So you're basically a sex-crazed slut?"
"Can I watch you make out with another guy?"
"Bisexuality isn't real."
He shook his head and stepped into the showers... which brought him to the other problem with coming out as bisexual. Sam hated the idea of "coming out." To him, it didn't matter that much – or it wasn't supposed to. Since he'd changed schools, Sam suddenly cared about what other people thought. Sam didn't look at other guys in the shower (like he could with the stalls), but he was scared people would start to think he was looking.
Sam took the shower on the end so no one could look at his junk. Even if he was sure no one on the football team would be looking, he was a tad insecure about that area of his body, which was part of why Sam had never actually had sex with a dude. He'd almost given one of his exes head before, but then his parents came home, and the two scrambled to get to Sam's Xbox (Sam was out to his parents, but who wants their parents walking in on them with their boyfriend's hand down their pants?).
Sam thought about Kurt again. Sam had only known him for a few months, but until Karofsky got to him, Kurt wasn't insecure at all. He was more than just proud of who he was, he flaunted it. Sam wished he could do that – he thought about coming out to his friends, but then Kurt left. Sam had no support at school. He could only imagine what the guys on the football team would do if they found out Sam liked dudes because he was sure that if he came out, Karofsky wouldn't be the only one coming after him.
Part of him was mad at Kurt for insisting Sam was gay that first week of Glee; it made him the target of Karofsky's rage now that Kurt was gone. Part of Sam didn't care; he wanted a reason to lash out at the bully who'd taken his safety bar away. Still, he surprised himself when he challenged Karofsky.
"What is your problem with me, Karofsky?" Sam yelled.
"You sad that your boyfriend's gone, Evans?" Karofsky sneered.
"No, but I bet you are."
"Excuse me, homo?"
"The way you were always after him, always pushing him and teasing him," Sam taunted, "and you know what little girls say on the playground: if a boy's mean to you, that means he likes you."
"Fuck you, Queerio!"
"And now you're after me, meat-head, am I your new crush after your victim dumped you?"
Dave looked to shocked to say anything.
"Oh my god, it's true." Sam's hands fell to his sides. "You're -"
"Don't say it!" Karofsky shouted. His voice was shaking. "Look, that fag -"
"Don't you dare call him a fag!" Sam snarled.
"He kissed me!"
"Oh, yeah, because he was so into you! You're full of shit, Karofsky!"
"If you fucking tell anyone -"
"I won't tell anyone, Dave, because unlike you, I'm not cruel."
Sam left as quickly as he could. How could he have missed it? The last couple of weeks Kurt was still at McKinley, he was much more scared – and hadn't Finn said that Karofsky had threatened to kill Kurt? Why hadn't Sam wondered why? Why hadn't he noticed how suspicious it was that Karofsky was suddenly more aggressive with Kurt?
"God damn it!" Sam grit his teeth.
Dave was going to target him, and Sam wanted to make it up to Kurt. There was only one way to fix both. Sam needed to help Karofsky.
