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"Naruto" Talking
'Naruto' Thinking
'Naruto' Kyuubi talking
'Naruto' "The Voice"
WARNING: Self-Abuse
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto...sad but true...
Naruto ran as fast as he could not knowing where he would go. All he did was run, run like he never ran before. He could feel the emotions he dreaded coming to him again, and he didn't like it. He couldn't take it, but he knew what to do already. No one is going to keep him from releasing his pain, not even Iruka-sensei. No one. When he got tired from all the meaningless running he headed back to his apartment to find his good "friend".
While he headed back his stomach suddenly growled. Of course he was hungry he had been running and didn't eat anything today. So he turned away from the direction he was going and headed for Ichiraku's. He just hoped that no one he knew was there especially Sakura or Sasuke.
'I doubt Sasuke-teme would be there, but im not sure about Sakura.' he started to wonder.
If she wasn't there it would be a perfect meal. Being asked questions about what had happened earlier would be so troublesome.
'Oh great! Now I sound like Shikamaru! I'll just eat one bowl of Ramen since im not that hungry, besides, the stupid ass villagers might some give me a fucking beating again.'
After a few more steps he would be at Ichiraku's but then he heard familiar voices. As he got closer he could hear what they were talking about. Then he realized who they were.
'Shit! This is bad! I have to hide, and quick.' he mentally cursed as he hid somewhere, still close to 'the familiar voices' so he can hear their conversation.
"Ok, so your saying that Naruto wasn't himself and when you grabbed his arm their was blood on your hands, correct?" one of the voices said.
"Yes...all correct" the other said.
"Fine, i'll go talk to him to see if anything is wrong, so don't worry about it, ok?" the first person reassured.
"Ok Iruka-sensei" the other person said, which happend to be Sakura.
At this Naruto couldn't believe it. Sakura was going to ruin his only chance of getting rid of his pain. This couldn't happed, and he wouldn't allow it. All he has to do is act happy and cheerful everytime he is around people. Oh how he hated that mask. He didn't want to act something he's not, but since they are getting suspicious he will have to bare with it.
Then Iruka and Sakura went outside the Ramen shop while Naruto was still hiding. The both bowed and headed for their houses except Iruka. He was going to head another way, which happend to be the way that Naruto's apartment was.
'Shit!' he meantally cursed again.
He ran the other direction hoping it would get to his apartent faster. He dashed through the crowd and made it to a dark alley. Walking slowly he went in and found a fence which let somewhere near his apartment. Only one problem. The fence was too high for him! How on earth is he going to jump over that?! No matter what he had to think of a way to jump over the extermely high fence.
Few minutes have passed and he was almost there, but he slipped and fell down, head first. He put his hands over his head and rubbed the bump that appeared. He looked up and tried to find a way to climb it. Then he got an idea. Why didn't he think of this sooner?! He stood from the cold floor and concertrated on applying chakra on his feet so he would easily jump over.
After some more concentrating he opened his cerulean eyes and looked up to meet the fence. He postition himself just right and jumped. It had worked. Finally, he saw his apartment and ran towards it. He couldn't see Iruka anywhere, which was a good sign.
He desperatly searched for his keys for what seemed like hours, but was only a minute. He finally felt the keys and shoved it out of his pocket. He pushed into the doorknob and turned. The turn seemed so slow for Naruto. When it opened he ran inside and shut the door.
Naruto ran to his bedroom and went to his dresser. He tried to lok for some clothes that said 'LOOK IM SO HAPPY, HAHAHAHAHA!', or at least something like that. Finally he found the stupid orange jumpsuit, which he know hates. Sighing he took it and changed quickly.
He walked over to his mirror in his bathroom and looked at his reflection with disgust. Nobody wants to see the demon child, not even him. His thoughts were suddenly broken off when he heard knocking. He looked at the mirror one last time and foced a believable smile.
When he made it to the doorway and opened the door it was non-other than Iruka-sensei! Of course he would come and check his favorite student. Probably he's not his favorite, but maybe just an ordinary student of his. Why would someone favor him.
'SAY "HI" SO HE CAN LEAVE ALREADY!', his Inner-self told him. Who knew he had an inner-self.
"Long time no see, Iruak-sensei!" greeted Naruto with a fake smile. It seemed that Iruka didn't norice anything. 'Good.'
"Hey Naruto, it's good to see you!" he greeted back with a real smile.
"So, what ya doing here?" Naruto asked "happily".
"Oh, I just wanted to make sure your ok. Are you ok?" he asked consered.
"YEP! IM IM PERFECTLY FINE! C'mon Iruka-sensei if I was sad or something I would always come to you." He lied. Lied. That's what everybody did to him so why not do it to them. It's the same thing, right?
"Thank goodness"
"Huh?"
"Oh nothing. Oh and Naruto can I ask you a favor?"
"Yeah Sure!"
"Can I see your arm?"
Naruto stood in shock. How was he suppose to show his arm?! He didn't want Kyuubi to heal them but if he doesn't then they won't let him get rid of his pain. The pain that was caused by everyone in this village. What would happend if they knew? They would probably say that he is weak. Maybe they wouldn't let him take the pain away. He was not going to let that happen.
'Hey Fox heal my scars.' Naruto told Kyuubi inside his mind.
'Why do you want me to heal your wounds, Kit? Didn't you want them there?' The fox answered.
'Yeah but Iruka-sensei is going to check it out!'
'So'
'So? So they might cause me MORE pain or maybe they won't let me take my pain away.'
Kyuubi sighed and he started to heal his wounds in tremendous speed. In a matter of seconds his wouds had healed and he was ready to act.
"Sure Iruka-sensei!" Naruto excaplimed as he took off his jacket showing his arm to his sensei.
Iruka took his arm and examined it. Looking more closely he notice some red, but then it was gone. Did he imagined it, or was it real? Something was very suspicious with Naruto. He slowly ran his finger tips on his arm to feel any wounds but nothing.
"Ok just checking! Well, I have to go and you have to go to sleep. Bye Naruto!" Iruka said as he walked outside.
"Bye Iruka-sensei!" Naruto excalimed. Then, Naruto notice it was already dark outside. Who knew they talk that long. Well Naruto didn't know, but Iruka did.
He closed the door and frowned. There already getting suspicious! Why? Then, Naruto had an answer for that question.
"Me. Its because im not good enough to hide it without the stupid fox's help. Im weak! I can't even hide simple scars! That's how stupid I am. Stupid Iruka. Stupid Sakura. Stupid Sasuke-teme. STUPID FOX! STUPID NARUTO!" he yelled. Yes, he blamed himself. "I have to blame myself. It is my fault. Just for being the stupid demon. For Being born."
He let out a sad sigh and went to his bedroom. He closed the door once he got there and headed for his dresser. He opened the drawer and look for "something". After searching for a few seconds he finally found it. His friend. His friend that takes his pain away.
He sat on his bed and look at the shiny kunai. That was his special kunai. Yes, it looked like some normal one, but not to him. He lowered the kunai to his arm. He pressed it hard. The kunai slowly and easily ripped his soft skin. Slowly the blood flowed out of his arm, as if his arm was crying with crimson tears. He smiled as he felt all his pain rush out. Nobody would take this away. He loved the feeling. He pushed the kunai again and he thought of Sakura.
'Like she cares. All she cares is about the stupid Sasuke-teme! Iruka prbably hates me since im causing trouble. Again. Sasuke sure doesn't give a crap about me. Kakashi is busy with the teme to notice me. Nobody cares about me.' he thought.
He pressed the Kunai harder on his skin watching the blood flow with his emotions. After awhile he cleaned his "friend" and placed it back in his dresser. He bandage his arm since he told Kyuubi not to heal them, only when he needed too. He slowly made his way to his bed. When he got there he pulled the covers and slipped inside.
It was difficult to sleep since he was still hungry. Why wasn't he going to eat? Well, he almost got caught by Iruka-sensei, so this is his punishment.
'This is punishment! You almost got caught. You are weak. But, you don't have to be weak. Everytime you do something wrong you will be punished, or else you will be evertything the villagers say. Weak. Demon. Remember? You dont want to be called that, now do you? Just dont get caught! Don't worry i'll guide you.', his Inner-self said.
Naruto always listened to his Inner-Self, since the day he first talked. He would tell him what's right and what's wrong, and the event with Iruka was wrong. So, that called for a punishment. Now, Naruto was sleepy, forgetting he was hungry in the first place, he closed his eyes and relaxed and he quickly fell asleep.
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Meanwhile...
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Iruka was making his way to the Hokage's office since he was worried about Naruto. Seeing that that Tsunade cared Naruto as a brother he should tell her about him. After he had left he couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. Like somthing terrible was going to happend, but he decided to push it away. What of that feeling had something to do with Naruto?
He made it the Hokage's office in not-time since he was fast-walking. Lifting his arm, he knocked on the door. Nothing. He knocked once again. Still nothing. He opened the door slowly making the door squeak. And there she was, SLEEPING! She always dozed off on her work. Sigh.
"Tsunade-sama." he called, loud enough to awake her.
"Huh? What? Who?" she answered and she bolted her head up.
"Uhhh..."
"Oh it's just you. What do you want?"
"Well, i'm a bit worried about Naruto." After hearing this Tsunade got serious, seeing it involved her "little brother."
"What about Naruto? Is something wrong?"
"Well, today Sakura came to me asking if I could see if Naruto was ok."
"Why?"
"Well, it's because when she was with him earlier she had grabbed his arm, but when she looked at her hand it was stained with blood. So, Naruto's arm was bleeding but he ran before Sakura can ask anything."
"WHAT?!
"..." Iruka waited for her to continue, which she did.
"Very well, I'm going to tell Team 7, except Naruto, to check if he is acting strangely."
"Hai. Then I will be leaving now. Have a good day..well night.." he said.
"Yeah, yeah..." she answered as he left.
Once Iruka left, she put her thoughts into Naruto.
'Why would he be acting strangely? Is something wrong? Well, I will ask them tomorrow.'
With that, the lazy Hokage fell asleep, her head meeting the desk, making a loud THUMP!
Daisy: Yay I finsihed! Sorry everyone to keep you waiting, but I haven't been to Miriam's house in awhile (FirexDemon)...I hope you liked this chapter!
FD: Hey! You forgot to tell them I helped!
Daisy: Oh yeah, hehe, she help me with this. You know? Getting idead and stuff.
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