Please Dont love me...
Disclaimer: yeah... not sure why we need disclaimers really, I pretty sure everyone realizes that I dont own any of the FMA characters. Oh well... i sure wish I did though
Authors note: Yup... more edited versions again. I'm not sure... I cant remember how different this one is. I guess the only way to find out is to read it so... if you want to... read it. I swear I edited them way better. Things are definitely better. Words never said
Lieutenant Hawkeye stared at the obvious uncomfortable colonel sitting at his desk. The scared look on his face completely new.
"Why do you look like I'm about to kill you?" She asked with a 'you hiding something?' kind of look. He didn't know how to answer.
He looked like he thought that she was going to kill him? That wasn't how he felt… well kind of. He wondered how she would react if he went and told her the truth.
'hey, guess what? Fullmetal and I have been secretly making out every night we get the chance. Yep, congratulations for almost catching us in action!!' yeah right… as if it would actually go that smoothly.
Even saying that… being as blunt as possible… would probably kill him. Actually he would probably have a worse death if he did go and be blunt like that.
He was thinking about answering but didn't trust himself to speak. What if the truth came out… what if the blunt truth came out? That would be death for everyone.
He just stared at her with a dumbstruck look, "I was just thinking that… you were here to say that I have even more work and I'm not allowed to go home yet" She shook her head and started walking towards him.
She only then noticed the papers all over the ground.
However, she didn't feel like saying anything about the random out of place paper all over the ground yet. She raised an eye brow at the whole scene and how it stunk of something, "actually… no sir, I was planning on leaving but… I saw that you hadn't left yet." she looked at him strangely if that was even possible, "are you ok? Your face is red…" She started walking even closer to examine the look on his face even more.
He looked back at her, his eyes never losing hers. He plastered the not caring and serious grin on his face, "um… yeah…I'm fine" He said in a strange voice that made him wince as it came out of his mouth.
She looked confused, "are you sick"
"no"
"are you sure? Your face is red and your all sweaty." He stood up quickly. He was scared that if anything else was said he would find himself cornered. He wasn't really good at coming up with good covers up right now. He cleared his throat "its just hot it here is all"
"no its not"
"yes it is!!" He said in a demanding voice kind of peeved that she would tell him otherwise.
She flinched as he walked from behind the desk, "why is your coat "
"its hot!" She nodded, "ok I get it, its hot. Wait what are you doing?!" He grabbed her arm and led her to the door. He opened it forcefully and pushed her out, "I'm perfectly fine, now go home and get some sleep"
"but… you're the one who looks li-" He slammed the door in her face hoping that would make her go away.
He leaned up against the wall and ran his hand down his face in a tired way. He clenched his teeth, "damn…" He looked at his desk waiting for the boy to come out and yell at him. There was a bump and the desk moved a little and a long string of rude words came from it.
the young boy crawled out from under the desk, "I thought you made sure that everyone was gone!! Why the hell was she.. Oh forget it..." Ed said angrily at first but then managed to collapse on the floor out of breath and a tad bit exhausted. Roy was just leaning up against the wall breathing heavily again.
He opened his eyes and stared at the fan on the ceiling, "that was-" he looked down at his feet with a scared look on his face waiting for Ed to continue his train of thought. Ed did, like he usually did "-very scary…" They both nodded in agreement but still didn't look at him.
They stood there for around five minutes until Roy made his way over to the tired Ed. He bent down next to him and smiled, "you wanna... maybe sit in a chair?" Ed slowly lifted his head, "as long as your sitting right there with me" He said in a sly low voice. All Roy could do was smile as a reply.
He grabbed Ed's thin wrist and pulled him up into his arms and Ed's arms wrapped around his waist and a childish giggle escaped his lips.
'does he possibly know just how cute that was?' Roy thought and then was shocked from the words that came from his mouth. Ed was cute… definitely cute… but he was hot… sexy- oh my god. He seemed to be everything.
Roy could help but kiss the top of his head and chuckled a little, "your just too perfect, Ed." He said bluntly, Ed nodded as if to say he already knew what Roy just said.
A Few seconds later they were sitting on the couch, Ed on Roy's lap with a tired look on his face. Ed sighed and stroked Roy's hand that was laying lazily on his own lap. Roy smiled and licked Ed's ear, "you lose your spark so soon?" Ed chuckled and looked up at Roy, giving him a slight touch from his lips to his.
Roy hugged Ed tighter but their kiss was cut short by a yawn from the little blond alchemist on Roy's lap.
There was silence after Ed cuddled even deeper into Roy's chest and Roy started wondering why. The boy was quiet… why was he tired? He was never tired when someone wanted him to be so why was he suddenly so… quiet?
He looked at Ed's face and frowned. The damn boy was asleep.
'What now?' He thought with a disappointed sigh. So Roy decided to poke him, "hey… HEY!! You can't fall asleep!! Its late, your brother will be waiting for you right?" Ed moaned and cuddled closer to him.
It was just so cute that Roy almost hugged him tight right then and there. The boy was so childish it was hard to know that he was actually fifteen. His golden hair that was all messy on the top of his head, The braid over his shoulder and his hands up next to his face as he had his face buried in the mans chest.
Ed had on a peaceful look on his face that made Roy suddenly melt. He could wake that boy up… that would have been mean. He stared at Ed for a few seconds, "mean?" he sounded appalled that he even said that.
He wasn't ever nice!! So why the hell was he acting like being mean to Ed was something he never did before?
He then stood up, with Ed in his arms, turned towards the couch and dropped him on it with hardly any gentleness.
He nudged Ed in the side with his foot, there was no response. Roy's eye twitched "fine, don't get up…" He walked to his desk and started picking up his papers realizing he was supposed to get them finished. Good thing Riza didn't see what the papers were. Then she would have made him finish them.
He sighed as he heard a little bit of shuffling in the background.
He turned to see Ed twitching a little but still laying on his stomach sleeping, "darn it…" He mumbled to himself. He put the papers on the desk, "I guess I'll do them tomorrow… again" Everything always tomorrow, he thought with an annoyed look on his face.
He grabbed his military coat and his normal black coat. He put both on and then, making sure that all the papers and stuff were picked up, went over to Ed who was sleeping like a slob… as usual.
It was time to go home… the mood was ruined the, the night was done… it was time to go home. He bent down next to Ed and pinched his cheek, "wake up damn it…" He then lightly tapped Ed's cheek.
He did not stir, which was annoying Roy, so he decided to cover Ed's mouth and plug his nose… just to see how long it would take for Ed to realize he wasn't breathing… that and just because he wanted too.
It didn't take long until Ed started to squirm… then his eyes shot open and he started hitting Roy on the head violently, making him let go. He rubbed his head as Ed gasped for breath, "what the hell?!" Ed said, which was a little hard when he couldn't breath that well.
Roy was rubbing his head some more, "did you have to hit me?" They looked at each other with an annoyed look on his face. Then they just both smiled and chuckled a little.
It was strange… strange that they always acted like this when they were around others but this time it seemed kind of sad. They were happy and laughing instead of trying to kill each other with flying knifes and such.
They couldn't act like normal friends when they were around other people. They weren't entirely friends I guess.. They still fought and hated each other but they also found them selves being able to talk like normal people and being able to touch each other… well touching each other besides having the angry hands around each others necks.
It hurt that when tomorrow comes it would become sir's and yes's every time they saw each other… all formal. They both sighed and stood up, that was the end.
At the doors they paused. They knew something was supposed to be said, however, they didn't know what… even if they did know what… how could they.
They both nodded towards each other and made their ways to their homes. One empty, one with a brother, but both without the other. Maybe next time, they both thought.
Maybe next time the words they wanted to say to each other would finally come out.
'I love you.'
Ending note: Do I even need to ask? Oh well... I will... REVIEW DAMNIT!!! Thankies!!
