Again the SEXYNESS of Edward does not belong to me. Just the plot bunnies! PLEASE PEOPLE REVIEW!! They are like my own brand of herion and I would love to have lots of them!! (and just a side not the Twilight movie is AWESOME!!!!!!!)

Chapter 2: Falling deeper

Bella's POV

Like everyday for the last two years I started my day by getting my fix and then going to school but today Charlie was driving me in the cruiser.

"I will work on getting you a car" he noted to me when he noticed my face after he told me how I was getting to school that day.

"Thanks" I waved and stepped on to the sidewalk. I turned around and took a deep breath "I can do this" one step at a time I made it thought my morning classes, I had made a few friends and only needed to leave once to make myself presentable again. Sitting with my new friends I looked over and saw the most beautiful group of people I had ever seen.

"Hey Jess I think Bella is getting an eye full of the Cullen's" a boy who I didn't know the name of, laughed at my stare. As the bell for sixth hour rang the auburn haired boy looked up at me. Quickly I looked away embarrassed, before getting up and heading for class. I turned around to look at him again but all I found was an empty table.

"Stupid" I muttered to my self as the bell for sixth hour rang. Dragging my feet to class I attracted more unwanted attention as I walked in late.

"Ah Miss Swan, Thank you for showing up. Now please take a seat next to Mister Cullen" the teacher singled me out and I just knew that I would hate this class for the whole year.

'Wait…' my mind stopped for a moment 'Cullen' I stood dumb founded till the teacher's voice rang again

"Today Miss Swan"

I rushed to my seat keeping my head down. I only paused for a moment to look at my partner, and then found a second was not nearly long enough…an entirety would be more like it. His eyes were the most delicate shade of gold I had ever seen. He caught my eyes and his face scrunched up as if he had smelled something unpleasant.

"Would you two please pay attention?" Mr. Banner called to me again. I looked forward trying to pay attention but I couldn't get my body to sit still and I knew just why. I waited and waited and the shaking got worse.

"Are you alright?" his voice like an angels whispered in my ear

"I am fine" my teeth were clinched and my voice strained.

"No you are not" he insisted as I rose my shaking my arm to ask to go to the nurse. Mr. Banner nodded and I bolted out of the room with my things. Running to the nearest bathroom I pulled out everything I needed. As the bell to end sixth hour I walked out of the bathroom.

"Are you ok?" the boy who sat next to me was standing next to the door with his arms crossed and leaning on the wall.

"I said I was. I just had to get out of there. You don't even know me, why do you care?" I walked away as fast as I could but he kept up to me.

"I am Edward Cullen. Now you know me. Who are you?"

"Bella Swan" I said not looking at him.

"Now will you tell me how you went from that mess you were to the calm person you are know" Edward stood in my path blocking the door to the gym where my next fate awaited me.

"I did nothing. Now move…please" I didn't want to be rude to someone who could make angels self confidences go down.

He slid to the side letting me pass but from the coroner of my eye I swore I saw him sniff me. I shook it off as a strange feeling and proceeded to my gym day hell.

I debated it and I choose to walk home in the rain rather then call Charlie at work to pick me up. At least that was my plan before I ran in to Edward again. Why in hells fire would someone who knows nothing about me care that I got a little shaky and moody in science? If I could I would find every way possible to avoid him but he just wouldn't go away.

"Do you have a ride?" He asked after gym.

"Why? Are you offering?" I snapped back at him heading for the closet bathroom again.

"No, but it is going to rain" still he followed me to the restroom door.

"So, it tends to do that a lot here. Now excuse me" I talked to the door knowing full well that if I looked at him I would not be able to be this rude.

"I will figure you out" his beautiful voice hissed near my ear sending shivers down my spine and then he was gone again

Just as he said…It was raining, pouring really but I refused to call Charlie. By the time I walked threw the door I looked like a drowned cat and had the temper of one as well.

"What happened bells?" Charlie asked from his chair. I glared at him and stocked to my room to change. It had taken me two hours to get home and the rain had just gotten heaver. I should have just called Charlie…

After I had eaten I grabbed an umbrella and headed for the door.

"I am going for a walk. I will be back later" I called to Charlie

"Be safe" he called back.

I needed to get away from the house for what I wanted to do, the smell is to strong. I looked around for a route of escape and then headed for the forest. After walking for ten minutes I stopped and found a nice semi-dry place to sit. I pulled out a small bag, a small pipe and a black lighter. I filled the pipe with the grass from the bag, putting it to my lips and lighting it. This was not as good as the coke but it was easier to find and cheaper. I knew that I would not be able to find anything here with out Charlie finding out as well.

I finished the bowl and stashed it all back in my coat. Only when I am like this I think about my mother and how she died.

Flashback

Two weeks before Bella's birthday Renee was out looking for gifts with her daughter.

"Oh mom, I would LOVE this" Bella pointed to a laptop computer on display.

"I know dear, I will try" looking down at her 13 year old girl she couldn't be more proud of her. She was smart and beautiful in her own way and didn't let anyone tell her different.

"I know you will mom" then Bella went and ran ahead to look at something else.

"Five more minutes Bella then we are going home"

Bella ran in the door careless and happy as a 13 year old should be. She plopped on the couch and turned to her favorite channel.

"I am going to start dinner in a few, would you like to help me" Renee walked in behind her closing the door.

"Sure" Bella loved to help her mother cook. She hoped that one day she would be making the same meal for her kids some day. "What are we making tonight?" she asked turning off the TV and skipping in to the kitchen.

"I don't know…what do you want?" Renee asked stretching to put away the food they had bought.

"Enchiladas" Bella hopped up and down. "They are my favorite!"

"Well if that is what you want then that is what you will have." She opened the fridge and stared for a moment. "I am going to have to go back to the store; we need some things for dinner."

"Ok. Can I stay here? I am 13 now after all!" the young girl begged her mother.

"I guess you can but hold on to the phone and lock all the door behind me." Renee grabbed her keys and headed for the door.

"Thank you thank you mommy" Bella ran and hugger her mother "I will"

"I will only be gone a few minutes"

Bella locked the door and sat back on the couch. 20 minutes later Bella started to get worry when she mom was not home yet. She went to the door and looked outside. At that moment a car with lights on top pulled in to her mothers spot and Bella knew something was wrong.

"Are you Isabella?" the man in a blue suite asked.

"Yes. Is something wrong?" she was clutching the phone so tightly that her knuckles were white.

"Can I come inside?"

"No. Can you just tell me why you are here?" Bella was getting more worried by the moment.

"You mother was in a car crash" he started slowly

Bella fell to the porch in pure shock, the tears wouldn't come

"I want to see her"

"I don't think that would be a good idea" The officer kneeled next to her.

"I want to see her now" she said again her voice filled with sadness and shock

"Come on then" the officer closed the house door and ushered her to his car. The drive to the hospital was not long but it was long enough to drive Bella mad.

"Stay here and I will go check on your mother." The cop left her in the waiting room and went to find a doctor. 15 minutes later the cop and a doctor came to her.

"Are you Bella?" The doctor asked sitting next to her.

Bella nodded not wanting to speak

"I am going to take you to see your mom now but she won't be able to talk to you because she has a tube down her throat to help her breathe." They all stood and walked down the crowned hallway. In a small room in the back of the hallway her mother lay on a gurney bed, tubes in her arms and a tube hooked up to a machine to help her breathe.

"Mommy!" Bella ran to her mom but was afraid to touch her. She had cuts and burses forming on every part of her body. "Mom, I'm here. It's me Bella. I'm here" her mothers hand reached for hers and Renee opened her eyes. "I love you mom. Don't leave me…please" Bella kissed her mom's hand and then the heart monitor went flat. There was a rush of movement and Bella was pushed away from the bed. The tears flowed freely, hot and salty over her cheeks. Sobs broke her body as the doctors shocked her mother's body trying to bring her back to life.

"Call it." A doctor said as he took off his gloves and went to Bella's side.

"20:34"

"I am so sorry Bella. Do you have someone I can call for you?" he asked her.

"M-m-my dad" Bella spluttered out rocking back and forth on the floor

"How about you come with the nurse and she will take you somewhere else"

"I need to stay with her" Bella stood and walked to the body of her mother. "Until my dad gets here"

End flashback

She sat in the forest under the shadow of the tree when the rain started again. The drugs were numbing her as they always did. She didn't want to feel the pain that she did that day and all those that followed. Slowly she rose from her hide out and headed back to the house. She would make that meal that she missed so much the one her mother died for.

Ok so how was it?? I took a long time to write this chapter but I really love it! Please tell me how you like it!!