I wasn't going to write another chapter but end it there, but then this came into my head about how she lived in that apartment for a long time (I think) and what has happened in there with not only Lewis so thought I would add on an extra chapter
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Looking around her apartment, she had been here for as long as she could remember and by herself, yeah she had her boyfriends but none of them lasted whether for work or what ever reason but Brian Cassidy was different at first she thought it was a bit of fun when she kissed him at the hospital it was such a spontaneous reaction but it felt so right that when he pursued her she gave into him and it lead to where they were today. At first she did wonder if their relationship would last especially after everyone found out but after the ups and downs he was there for her in more ways than one after William Lewis assaulted her, with his help she came through it all she trusted him. For the first time since the academy she was sharing an apartment with someone not just anyone but her boyfriend.
Taking another box she didn't think she had that much stuff but there was more than she thought, sitting the box on the kitchen counter looking up as Brian walked in a smile on his face and hers, she was taken by surprise when he first suggested it but it wasn't long before she realized it was what she wanted she missed him and had enjoyed being with him, it made sense to share an apartment the thought of waking up next to him every morning falling asleep next to him his arms wrapped around her, having him there when ever she needed or wanted him coming home to him each thought put more than a smile on her face.
Walking over to his girlfriend wrapping his arms around her waist kissing on top of her head "what's going through your mind" turning to face him brought out of her thoughts "huh" his hands moving around her stomach "you had this faraway look on your face" turning around to face him "just thinking about stuff" looking down at her, she was so damn gorgeous and she was his "good stuff, us" turning away from him "yeah" moving away from her "you do want to do this Liv, I'm not pushing you into it" walking over to him "Bri I want to do this, I think it is the right time for us to move in together the next step in our relationship, I want to be with you, now I have someone to snuggle up to all the time, no whose place are we going to, or anything it will work out" walking over to her pulling her towards him "I want this too babe, i want to be with you" kissing the top of her head "when Lewis had you I couldn't imagine my life without you in it, I can't imagine anything better to coming home to you every night"
Tilting her face up to his, his lips meeting hers a cheeky smile on her face her lips finding his again the kissing intensifying his voice soft "one for the road" nodding her lips not moving from his "thought you'd never ask" there hands fumbling with each others zip there clothes falling to the floor .
Walking out of her bedroom pulling the zipper on her jeans over to the boxes feeling Brian near by "that was nice, that was incredible" moving away from him "the boxes won't pack themselves Bri" feeling his hands on her waist "what's the hurry" turning around facing him she felt lucky to have him in her life "I have to be back at work tomorrow, you need to get back to the Bronx too" interrupting her "don't remind me, I am so over the shifts there, seriously how long do I have to keep on being punished"
Stopping packing turning to look at her boyfriend she had moved on over the Carissa incident "you know IAB Brian, you did sleep with Carissa" walking over to one of the boxes "I know but I have paid the price now, how many night shifts do they expect me to do, it is enough to drive you crazy" raising her eyes at him "just give it time, have you packed your things?" nodding at Olivia "nearly there, I'll finish it off later now its time to get your stuff in before you change your mind" hitting him gently on the chest "there's not chance of that Bri, I want to do this I think it is what we both need and the right time in our relationship, your place is just too small"
Picking up the box "I'll take the first box down to the car Liv" nodding at him watching him walk out, looking around the apartment boxes in every room a sad smile on her face she really was saying goodbye, despite it all the memories of Lewis still there even though the blood stains the tape everything still gone the memories still remained, she would never forget the "Welcome home Detective Benson" the gun pointing right at her and how she froze maybe finally she would be able to sleep not wake up with Brian soothing her.
Walking inside the apartment seeing Olivia standing there in the kitchen "Liv" walking over to her gently tapping her
The tapping on her shoulders tensing up swinging around a scream coming out seeing Brian standing there "Liv, its ok it Brian" he hated seeing her like that the glassy look in her eyes he knew what that meant the flashbacks were still there pulling her towards him "he can't hurt you now babe"
Feeling his arms around her, she felt safe and secure but she couldn't shake it off she still had the court case she had lied about what happened moving away from him "I'm fine" looking at her he knew she wasn't but wasn't going to push it "ok, where do want me to start" pointing to the boxes on the table "tape them up and take them down" looking around at the stuff scattered everywhere "how much stuff does one woman have" narrowing her eyes at him "who's providing most of the stuff here" picking up the boxes "yeah yeah I have to go and pick up the truck to take the furniture soon"
"by the time you come back I should be ready" feeling his lips on top of her head "I can't wait to spend the first night together babe" looking up at him "me neither, get going or its never going to happen"
Watching Brian pick up the boxes taking them down to the car she loved watching the way his muscles ripple carrying them on the last trip that time "I'll drop off my place first before coming back here, will give you a call Liv, when I'm on my way" nodding distractedly at him "I'm nearly done here" then looking up at him "Bri, come back here first" looking up into her eyes nodding "ok, I'll let Fin and Nick know when I'm on my way"
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Looking around the small kitchen and lounge the boxes neatly on the bench was this all she had that fitted in a few boxes, the DVD's no longer there, part of her couldn't wait to move out of here but despite it all it was sad. Walking into the bedroom picking up the final few pieces her clothes already packed, she would come back tomorrow with the rest of it, the bed with the sheets off, Fin and Nick would be here soon to help Cassidy move the furniture lying on the bed a smile on her face it wasn't that long ago that she had an incredible time with Brian here, she had been so self conscious now the burns on her chest and arms nearly healed but each time she looked in the mirror it was a reminder of part of what he did to her, it had taken ages for her to let Brian see her without it being dark she didn't want anyone seeing her burns the small cigarette marks on her. Closing her eyes why is it when he isn't here the flashbacks come, being tied to the bed the moment she saw him take his pants off the moment she hoped that the bed iron was coming off, his lips on her skin opening her eyes getting off the bed she wondered if the flashbacks would ever stop and go away she hated the fact that he was in her head not only that she had lied about what happened and she was keeping it that way she had no idea how to undo it all.
Hearing voices at the door "Liv it's Fin and Nick" opening the door a tired smile on her face "Cassidy isn't back yet" letting them inside "thanks guys for giving up your weekend for this" hearing Fin's voice "you just owe us one Liv, a drink when we get there" smiling at them "think I can manage that"
Walking over to the lounge seeing Nick look around "everything packed up Liv" nodding at him "nearly just a few things to go" unable to sit down walking around seeing Nick looking at him "you sure you're doing the right thing here Liv, moving in with Cassidy" rolling her eyes at Nick "Nick it's none of your business this is something I want to do it feels right" hearing Fin's voice "go for it Liv, if its going to make you happy"
Hearing the front door open watching as Brian walks in "sorry babe took longer than I thought" standing up "Ok we don't have all day, we need the lounge, bed, book shelf stuff"
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Walking inside the apartment it looked huge and homely their new home, it didn't take long for the furniture to be bought up and the boxes put by the door along the wall watching as the last of the stuff is bought in handing them all the beer, opening a bottle of wine hearing Fin's voice "Cassidy and Liv and their new home" raising the glass feeling his arm around her waist looking up at her a smile on her face it was a new adventure for them both feeling his lips on her head.
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Walking inside her apartment it now looked so bare a few remaining boxes for her to take back, going through each room checking it all the carpets to be shampooed. Taking the final boxes down to the car pausing at the door her eyes moving around there were some great memories here but the flashbacks of what happened with Lewis the most painful she had been nearly assaulted previously here burnt the memories she still couldn't open up to Brian as this time she was assaulted nearly raped and tortured taking a deep breath this was the right thing to do moving forward with Brian she had strong feelings it wasn't just about getting out of here, she felt safe with him she had developed strong feelings for him she wanted to be with him.
Closing the door behind her, her new life was about to begin with her boyfriend a new chapter in their relationship one she couldn't wait to start and hope would never finish. She couldn't wait for Brian to finish his shift at the Bronx one day off was all he was allowed, tonight was going to be special their first proper night together, last night they were both exhausted falling asleep with their arms around each other tonight thought was going to be special a night either of them wouldn't forget in a long time.
Hearing her phone beep opening the message short and sweet "only a few more hours babe until I'm all yours can't wait to hold you and make love to you xxx" a huge smile on your face replying quickly "me too xxx"
Walking down the hallway not turning back she was happy and content the happiest she had been in ages even with the demons of Lewis she was fighting she knew she would get through it all with Brian by her side she hadn't felt this way about someone for a long time if ever what started out as something casual was serious she could imagine spending the rest of her life with him and couldn't imagine her life without him in it
