Just Us, Nobody Else Chapter 2

"I just… don't know."

I muttered to myself, three days after Zack invited me over to the Soldier First Class Manor, where all of the first classes stayed for the night. They all invited me to become a part of their group, even though I was only an infantrymen and not nearly strong enough to handle them. Truthfully, I was afraid of turning them down, because making any of them upset would ruin my chances of getting promoted. But, at the same time, I couldn't just join without truly wanting to join. It wouldn't be right, for me to ruin the dynamic of the group by not wanting to be there.

There was something holding me back, but I wasn't sure what it was. Was it the fact that my best friend, Zack Fair, invited me to have sex with him and everyone else of his rank? No, it wasn't that. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that there are so many rumors about what the soldier first classes do in the darkness, when they're all alone with each other. The infantry has fan clubs for each of the first classes, and in some of the older issues, they talked about uncovered scandals in the army where Genesis was actually caught having sex with the younger infantrymen, leading to an overall shunning of him as a military and political figure in recent years. Maybe that was what was holding me back, thinking that a pervert like Genesis could so easily touch me all over like a madman, even though I wasn't fully comfortable. Or maybe it was the idea of being around Angeal, the man whose seriousness just polarized me altogether. I don't like to admit it, but I'm a very shy person, and hanging around somebody so silently aggressive like Angela kind of makes me nervous. Or maybe I was just afraid of being around general Sephiroth, my idol, the man who I always saw as a God in comparison to most mortal humans. He was intimidating, just like the other first classes, but there was something buried deep down in my memory, something about Sephiroth, that stuck with me for many years. I looked up to the man, and the mere thought of degrading myself in his presence made me feel nauseous.

"Hey, you alright?"

My roommate asked, entering the room after dinner.

"You haven't left this room all day! C'mon, Cloud, aren't you sick and tired of staring at the ceiling?"

"No," I said, my voice grumpier than usual. He sighed, sitting on his bed across the way from mine, and placed his soldier phone on the charger.

"Oh, Cloud. You've never been this flustered. What's on your mind?"

My heart sped up. I couldn't tell him the truth. We weren't really close, and the last thing I wanted was for him to see me as a slut.

"It's nothing really."

"Don't lie to me. Does it have anything to do with your friend Zack?"

I turned away from him, and folded my hands behind my head.

"Maybe."

"Cloud, whatever's on your mind, you need to consider yourself first. If Zack is pressuring you into doing a mission you don't want to do, don't do it. Seriously."

"It's not that." I replied, knowing very well that what he was saying was basically the concept behind the whole problem. "I just don't feel comfortable leaving my room right now."

"That's stupid. You need to leave eventually."

Suddenly, I realized he was right. This entire time, I was thinking about them, all four of them, and nothing else. Maybe I did want to join, despite all of these mixed feelings that were building up deep within my gut. They were all attractive, and even though I'm a virgin, I still had the same desire as they all did, to seek out potential mates and get close with another person. I had feelings for a woman before, yes, but I also had feelings for a man before. Neither of those desires ended very well.

"Yeah," I nodded, standing up from my bed. "You're right. I need to go."

"Good, get some fresh air. And if you're hungry, I brought back some leftovers."

"Thanks."

Stepping outside, I made sure to slip my phone into my back pant pocket. My blue uniform stood out against the blue sky, which was darker than usual, reflecting the fear that sat heavily within my pounding chest. Taking out the phone, I flipped it open once I got far enough away from the entrance to my room. I pounded Zack's phone number and pressed dial, and immediately, after the second ring, he picked up.

"Cloud?"

"Hi, Zack." I said, nervously.

"I'm so sorry if we scared you. I really didn't mean to make you uncomfortable-"

"It's ok," the clouds up above me danced as I stared off in the distance, past the streets of Midgar and over the plate of the city. "Actually, I have an answer. I would like to join."

"Wait, what? I thought…. I thought you weren't going to ever talk to me again! I thought this entire setup was a huge mistake! And now you actually want to join? I got the impression you were considering the opposite!"

"I'm serious. I would like to join."

Zack paused, and for a second, only air came through from the other line. I was worried something happened to him.

"Zack?"

"Oh, sorry." He recomposed himself and quickly replied to my request. "Well, if you really want to do this, we will be meeting tonight in the manor at 6:00, in Sephiroth's room. It's the room right next to the bathroom, on the opposite side of the kitchen. I'll let the others know you're coming."

"Ok." I said, staring down at my bare feet, which were feeling cold from the wind. "Thanks Zack."

"No problem. See you then."

He hung up first. Swinging my phone into my back pocket, I turned away from the balcony of the main hallway and walked towards my room, making sure to take my precious time. The last thing I wanted to do was get into a deep conversation with my roommate, and I needed to compose myself before I gave anything away. I could just feel myself blushing at the thought of being with these soldier first classes, knowing how strong and popular they were. I was afraid, but I was also excited. So excited that I thought my heart would burst, and my chest would fill up with the anxiety of being not good enough.

I entered my room about a half an hour later, after pacing in the hallway. My roommate looked up from his phone screen, his blonde hair matted from his infantry helmet and spread out across his bare white pillows.

"Cloud, are you sure you're ok?"

"Yeah," I nodded, making sure that he heard me before he fell asleep. It was early, but he was used to taking a midday nap before his training after lunch.

"I'm going to take a nap too." I said, knowing very well that I would probably be exhausted by the end of tonight.

"Ok, have a good nap."

He replied, half listening. When I realized what he was looking at on his phone- an article of SOLDIER HEROES- I immediately turned away, hands over my mouth, unsure of whether this was the right decision or not. If things leaked, this would be a huge scandal, probably bigger than the one that Genesis was involved in. Sighing, I closed my eyes and placed my phone on the night table next to the bed. I just hoped that things would work out, and that I would enjoy this new life I picked out of a hat for myself.

"Are you ready?"

Zack asked me, after everyone finally gathered in Sephiroth's room. I nodded, unable to look into his eyes.

"Yes."

"Ok." Zack said, placing his hand over the light switch and dimming the lights slowly. Genesis walked over to Angeal, and began kissing his neck. Genesis egged him on, stroking his hair up and down as the buff man made his way down to his collar bone, and began biting hard. Zack joined in, pressing the bottom of his abs against Genesis' back and feeling him up from behind. Sephiroth walked over to me, and I swallowed hard. Lifting me up, he placed me next to Genesis, and began kissing my neck.

Blushing, I finally came to realize what was happening once Genesis, Zack and Angeal surrounded me, their hands all touching me in weird places. These men wanted me. All of them. And for some reason, it felt good. I liked it. I wasn't sure why.

"Cloud," Genesis moaned, biting on my ear. I cried out as Zack began to feel my cock, stroking it up and down in a calm, slow motion. Shaking a little bit, I blushed a bright red when Sephiroth kissed me on the lips, my second kiss ever in my life. Then, as he molded his face into mine, Angeal took one of my hands and put it on his lower member, and moved it up and down.

"Shall I take it off?" Zack asked me. "Yes." I replied, arching my back from Sephiroth's cold hands floating up my shirt. Zack ripped off my shirt, and immediately, the other soldiers began to take off each other's, sending my hormones raging. I just wanted them all, all at once. I needed it.

"Take me." I moaned as Genesis kissed my lips next, and Angeal felt my nipples, and Zack kissed my back, and Sephiroth… unbuttoned my pants. The whole world was spinning, and the dim lights just made the whole experience feel more surreal. Not to mention, the whiteness of the room made their faces stand out like sore thumbs. It felt strange, but good.

"Wow," Genesis noted, after sticking a finger in my behind. "You're really tight. Have you ever done this before?"

Moaning against his touch, I shook my head. The four soldiers stared at one another, realizing that it wouldn't be right if I couldn't choose my first time partner. Their eyes were suddenly softer, more concerned, and instantly, the dilemma caused Zack to open his mouth.

"Cloud," he asked, "who do you want to have sex with first? Who do you want your first time to be with?"

The pressure was on. Genesis was probably a rough lover, romantic in his kisses but not in his movements, and Angeal was probably delicate to the point of it being almost ridiculous. Zack, on the other hand, was probably kinky but not outwardly aggressive, and he would definitely stop if I was uncomfortable in any position. Sephiroth, on the other hand, I was completely unable to decipher. I never even pictured him in a sexualized situation, so it was difficult to analyze what it would be like to do it with him.

Immediately, I made my decision.

"Sephiroth," I moaned, hands spreading across his upper body. "Will you?"

Zack's expression was nothing but shocked. I bet he seriously thought I would choose him. But the other two didn't seem at all surprised, even a bit indifferent, at my choice. Genesis nodded, and Angeal closed his eyes, allowing Genesis and Zack to kiss his sexy body as Sephiroth moved in closer to me.

"Have fun, Sephiroth." Angeal teased as he fingered Zack and Genesis at the same time, causing both of their bodies to dance in pleasure. Sephiroth nodded as he kissed my neck, sending my body into an inferno of desire. He didn't respond to Angeal, but instead, focused all of his energy on me as he prepared me for the events to come.

"Sephiroth," I moaned as he wetted my lower body with his tongue, sending bursts of ecstasy through my spine. I had desired to do this for so long, but was unable to fathom what it would be like. In this moment, I was happy. I didn't feel out of place, for some reason, even though these men were all a bit older than me and much more experienced. For some odd reason, I felt complete.

"Sephiroth," I nearly yelled as he then moved his index and middle fingers inside of me, moving quickly as to make me looser. I shook and held his arm for support, enjoying the feeling but most of all, the view of him standing next to me, naked, staring down at my body with desire. For some odd reason, my heart skipped a beat. Something was happening to me.

When he put it in, I couldn't help but yell. Genesis laughed, but Angeal hit him hard as to shut him up, reminding him of what it was like his first time. "Hahaha!" He continued, even after Angeal gave him a bruise on the arm. "That's what you get for choosing to doing it with Sephiroth, Cloud! The man is huge down there! It'll be hard for you to keep up, being a first timer!"

"Shut up, don't make him feel guilty." Zack said, watching from the other side of the large bed. "He wanted to do it with Sephiroth, so just let him have a good time."

"And I'll get a turn next?" Genesis asked, turning his head from Zack and then to Angeal, who was completely hypnotized at the sight of Sephiroth making love to me. His expression was dark, almost unworldly, and when I made eye contact with him, he looked away, awkwardly shutting his eyes and removing his hands from Genesis' and Zack's lower backs.

"What, what's wrong?" Genesis whispered into Angeal's ear. He sighed, cupping his hand to whisper to both Zack and Genesis.

"It's nothing. It's just that…" he continued, staring blindly at Sephiroth orgasming into my lower body, causing my mid drift to rise in pleasure and my voice to fly high into the sky. When he saw Sephiroth kiss my lips gently, his eyes closed, his hands cupping my poofy blonde hair and stroking it lovingly, he thought he felt a pang of jealousy. It was something he missed from Sephiroth, something that seemed to fade from the groupie overtime. It was a feeling of possessing a true connection with a partner, deep feelings for a partner, a connection that could be easily created or lost overtime. It was something he felt like he was losing with the rest of the groupie, and something he longed to get back.

"It's just that Sephiroth seems to be enjoying himself a lot. Maybe a little bit too much, if you ask me."

"OH, ANGEAL!" Genesis replied, laughing up a storm as Sephiroth continued to make out with me. "You're ridiculous! After Sephiroth, we'll all get a turn with Cloud's sweet body, don't you worry!"

"That's not what I mean…"

"Then what do you mean?"

"I don't know…" the man replied, holding Zack's hand and leaning against his shoulder, longing for nothing but an arm around his side, which Zack was quick to give. Genesis leaned up against Angeal's other side, and, stroking his arm lovingly, continued to stare off at the moment Sephiroth and I were sharing in the distance, on top of the white sheets of Sephiroth's recently made bed. "I just don't know."