ey guys quick thing than on to Chapter 2 I got a few reads but nobody ism commenting! I would just really appreciate if you could do that please to know if you like it oh and favorite and follow :). One last thing I had to type his on my phone so sorrry for a lot of mistakes i'm like crazy dyslexic.

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Logan's POV:

I looked up from the Comforter at a now very sorry looking James. "I didn't mean it." He mumbled Dropping his head toward the floor. " I know and he knows too." I say walking over to him. I put my hand of boys shoulder as a source of reassurance, A trick I learned from Kendall. Taking my hand off Of his shoulder I had only sat down next to him when blurted out "How do you have sex?" " Is there something I should do to make it feel better for her?" "How long did you last your first time?" "What do I do? I can't tell him the truth I would be mocked for months! But I can't lie what if I'm completely wrong and sex is nothing like that, Then he'll know and be mad I lied." My thoughts were once again interrupted by the scream of James this one though was a cry of desperation not anger. That was it I had to say something to calm him down it was awful seeing him like this, And all of a sudden it just came out. " The first time isn't as bad as people say. The trick to lasting longer is to think anything other than what's happening that way you're not to excited." "Oh and one last thing it's not the size it's the motion of the ocean if you know what I mean. Although by the Looks of that rubber it doesn't look like that even applies to you." I laughed slightly at the look of James blushing cheeks.: Thanks man." James embraced me seconds after my hands landing on the small of his back . His long tan arms wrapped around me perfectly his scent made my toes curl as I could feel the heat radiating off his delicious body through the contact. Then suddenly I could feel the something else the tightening of my jeans. " Did Someone say the K word?" Kendall questioned barging in the already awkward moment. Not wanting to hear Kendall's Rant we both sat there in silence. "Nothing really? Oh I'm sorry I must have missed the sobbing boy soundtrack we added to the inside ot the slide!" Kendall snarled irration radiating. accompanied by one of his oh do famous admit what you fid death glares h learned from Momma Knight. "Alright, it was me I messed up okay? Now will you please help me fix this? James pleaded. " Fine I'll fix every thing again, but you guys need to think about what you say." Kendall sighed exiting the room. " I should probably go help him." I stutter scrambling Out of door not trusting my over active hormones to not strike again. But to no avail James followed right after like a lost puppy. Grabbing at my wrist pulling me back "Kendall can handle it. I have more questions." James said Leading me back to the room Carlos and him shared. We sat down on the bed and I saw those gorgeous hazel eyes looking back at mine. My palms began to sweat, heart began to race and my stomach became home to a thousand emerging butterflies. I habe to get out of here but how? I've got it!b

Kendall's POV:

"Carlos please come out." I plead but it falls on deaf ears. God he can be so stubborn sometimes. There was only one way to get him out brute force. I climb to the top of the slide and heave myself down its yellow curves. Taking Carlos with me along the path. It was only when we landed his body breaking my fall our eyes locking that I could see the hurt his eyes the pain beneath that smiley exterior. Then he mumbled words I don't think I'll ever forget. "Okay you got me what do you want? To tell me that it's okay, To tell me that it gets better? Well it doesn't get better. It will never get better. Four years I've been like this and nothing's getting better I can't even hear her name without falling apart hell I can barely hear Katie's name. But of course all knowing Kendall knows it all well but I'm sorry but you're wrong on this one. Now can you please just leave me be? I watch frustrated and confused as he climbed up the slide. There are very few times in my life where I've been speechless but this was one of them. I don't know what to do but I gotta do something.

Logan's POV:

"James um I'm sorry but I can't talk to you right now I have to go get Camile back. All this talk about love and sex makes me realize how much I want her back. I'm sorry but love cannot wait."I said anxiously heading toward the door in panic. Grabbing my grey sweatshirt from my room. I Put my phone in my back pocket and darted out the front door to the safety of the Palm woods hallway. I didn't want Camile back but I had to say something. Everything is just becoming so strange and confusing lately. I Don't know of any of that meant anything or if its just weird hormones and jealousy happy relationships when failed so miserably. Then maybe I'm gay, maybe that's why Camile and I didn't work. But I couldn't be gay I would know by now I've never been attracted to a guy in my life well now I guess except for James. He is just so pretty masculine the type to take your breath away. Doesn't matter though even if I were to be gay which I'm not. It wouldn't be logical to be in love with my best friend its just too complicated. Logic or not I have to sort out these feelings and I have to be alone to do it.

James's POV:

That was weird of Logan to just run out like that. I wonder if this whole break up with Camille is bothering him more than he's showing. I wish you talk to me more I mean I am bi more sensitive than your average dude. Logan's not that kind of guy though. He's a swallow your feelings and move on type always has been. Everyone sees him as this nerdy little smart guy, but there's another side to him one very few people get to see his smooth side. When he's in the zone ready to rush the net and I'm not talking just about hockey. Truth is I've had a crush on Logan since I was 12 years old nothing worse than crushing on a straight guy tell you that much. I'm movin on though I have an amazing girlfriend I'm about to have an amazing night still there's something in the back of my mind and deep inside my heart that reminds me just how much I care every time I see his beautiful brown eyes and dark Raven hair. But he's straight and words can never describe that pain. It crushes you makes it hard to breathe at times. Knowing you will never have the privilege to act upon your feelings, That I will never get to receive that love in return It kills me. It's easier to be straight to love a woman no one judges you by who you love , tells you whether or not you can get married. Or tells you you lose half your fan base if they ever found out. I don't know if I trulyl love Lucy but I know I have to try.

Logan's POV:

I don't know where to go, I never expected to be so confused. This is wrong I'm straight . I climb a tree in the the Palmwoods Park trying to clear my head. When I see her fire truck red hair framing her lovely face, Black dress clinging perfectly to her shape. She looks amazing. She can't look amazing no not now, I need more time to understand and no way James will resist. I have to do something even heres goes nothing.

Kendall's POV:

I can't get Carlos's words out of my head. He acts like I'm the villain, I know he doesn't mean it. I want him to have with Jo and I have, I want to be happy. But he'll never be happy until he gets over her. I know what I have to do I have to take a chance even if it means he'll never for

give me. I pick up my phone and look up the number, this is it I press call slowly bringing the phone to my ear. "Hello is Kate there?"

Logan's POV:

Dropping down from the tree I take a deep breath . I'm not proud of what I'm about to do but I just don't see any other way. "Lucy". I call approaching from behind." Oh hey Logan what's up?" " Well you see there's been a little change of plans I am here to escort you to your lovely date at Rocque Records". I propose trying not to let her see through my facade. " are you sure thought we were just hanging out at my place , James and I just texted like 15 minutes ago she questioned. I can feel the sweat dripping down my forehead I take a deep breath and smile. " I know he wanted it to be a surprise. Right this way beautiful. I lead her to the car and open the door this is so wrong maybe I should just come clean now, no I can't not now. I get in the car and drive. The car ride was far silent. Lucy curiously asking questions of the night events. Every question adding to my ever pounding heart, brick walls become my Savior as I see the studio in sight. I can do this I know they'll forgive me well I hope. Getting a car I hand a blind fold to Lucy tieing it tightly around her head. I lead her to the back hallway of studio. The one we use to escape from Paparazzi it's sound proof and almost complete impossible to detect if someones inside. I take her in and remove the blindfold and run, I mutter I'm sorry and lock the door. I collapse against the metal door and brick wall. I can feel my lungs tightening making it almost impossible to breathe. My throat tenses and my eyes swell my tears begin to free fall. I scream slamming my head against the wall. What's happening to me this isn't me I'm so sorry. I take a deep breath and choke back tears this is gonna be along night.

James's POV:

I'm at Lucys door I btought flowers and soft music I want tonight to be perfect. I'm I'm anxious but ready I knocked on the door but there's no response. Lucy I call but once again nothing, she must be late no way she ditched me.

(HOUR LATER)

She's not coming, she ditched me I'm such an idiot. Just a bisexual loser I like both sexes I still can't find someone to love me . What's wrong with me? Am I that unappealing. I start to walk back to the apartment I don't want to face the boys, show my shame I just want to go to bed. when I open the door much to my appreciation none of them are anywhere to be found . I strip down to my boxers crawl into bed beneath the covers I lay my head in the pillow I want to sleep forever.

Hey guys I'm sorry my Internet is being weird and sorry if that's a little dark ive been watching too much teenwolf. I hope you guys like it I will hopefully hsve Chapter up tomorrow please tell me what you thought. Oh and I promise the next Chapter will be better I had to right this one quick while I had Internet.