"E-Edward ho-" He cut me off with an annoyed snort.

"Relax Bella, the mutts at the door let me in." He hissed, obviously angered that he'd walked in and caught me kissing the on man he hated more than anythin, just hours after I'd walked away. A growl resounded through the room, followed by a groan of pain.

My hair brushed against Edward's jaw as I spun on my heel and knelt by Jake again.

"Hey, Jake, ssh, you need to sleep. Carlisle's orders." I cooed, brushing hair from his forehead. Jake grumbled and turned his head, closing his eyes and sighing my name. I smiled before turning back to Edward.

"Follow me," I growled, storming past him. "And close Jake's door please!" There was a click. I looked around at the pack, knowing Edward was standing behind me in the doorway.

"Jake's sleeping," I sent pointed glances at and a smile at Quil, Embry, and Paul. "So don't bother him." The three boys chuckled.

I turned back to Edward and placed my hands on my hips.

"You're here to talk with me Edward, about earlier, so speak your mind." I murmured, dropping my hans to my sides. Edward's nose wrinkled.

"Do they have to be here?" He growled. I glanced around and inclined my head toward the trees, 'please' in my eyes. Sam nodded.

"Come on guys, file out!" Everybody groaned. Sam looked at me. "We'll be in the trees Bella, yell if you need us." I smiled.

"Thanks Sam, and relax, I won't be calling." Sam smirked.

"We'll see." I rolled my eyes. They pack dispersed into the trees, and I heard a rip of cloth. I imagined one of them cursing and I smiled.

"Bella, why?" There was heartbreak in his voice. I turned to face him, locking with his gaze.

"I realized that I didn't want to give up everyone I loved for an eternity where I would watch them leave me. Where I would lose my family and my friends Edward! I couldn't do it!" I screeched, losing my cool. Edward stepped closer to me.

"How can you just drop what we had Bella? How could you forget that?" He whispered, rubbing my arms with his cold hands. I closed my eyes and swallowed.

"I haven't forgotten Edward, I never will, but I refuse to grow older while you remain forever seventeen! I want someone who will be able to grow old with me, and Jacob is that someone. I figured out today just how much I love him, and how I can't lose him. Or any of the others for that matter. Please, Edward, accept this and let me live. " I whimpered, glancing back at the trees. There was a soft huff. Edward didn't say anything, but quicker than I could register he pressed his lips to mine and held me there. I knew that it wouldn't help against his iron grip, but I fought him with everything I had.

Warm arms pulled me from Edward's grasp, and a grey wolf stepped up in front of me, blocking me from him.

"I think its time you leave, Edward." Sam snarled, tightening his grip on my shoulders. Edward bared his teeth at Paul and growled, crouching down. Oh shit.

"Edward, no!" I screamed. Edward straightened and his gace went blank.

"Carlisle will be here with that bastard's drip shortly. Boodbye Bella, be happy." Edward in a monotone voice, stiffly turning and walking at a human pace back to the trees.

"At least at the end of the day it'll be that bastard's lips I kiss and not yours!" I yelled, wanting to hurt him any way possible. How dare he! I could clearly see Edward bristling with anger but he kept on walking. I snorted as I heard Jacob call my name.

"Great, Edward woke up Jake." Sam chuckled and I raised and eyebrow at him. "What?"

"You said that you wouldn't need us and looked what happened." He rumbled as Paul's wolf chortled deep in his chest.

"Oh shut up!" I laughed as I smacked his furry shoulder. Jacob called my name again and I scurried inside.

"Whats wrong Jake?" Before he had a chance to reply his body tensed and he cried out like he had in the clearing. Sam appeared out of nowhere beside me and a low growl escaped him. I rushed to Jacob's side and I felt hot tears slide down my face, he was in agonizing pain and there was nothing I could do.

"Where the hell is Doctor Fang?" Embry hissed as he and Quil manifested at my sides, one of their hands on each of my shoulders.

"Right here actually." Carlisle murmured, walking to the still writhing Jake and injecting him with some clear liquid, Jake stilled and went limp.

"What the fuck did you give him?" Paul roared, and then I noticed that the whole pack had crammed into Jake's tiny bedroom.

"It was a seditive, so the pain stopped. Once he starts spasming not even morphine will numb those waves of pain, its almost as bad a being turned, fire and pain wracks your body inside and out, your muscles clench and your heart rate increases. Spasms like that could've killed him." Carlisle said softly, hooking up Jacob's morphine drip and setting a bottle of the seditive and the needle on his bedside. I let a sob slip and Embry knelt beside me, and I held him tightly and sobbed into his chest. though his hold was strong and secure, not to mention warm, it wasn't the hold my body and soul craved and everyone else knew that, I needed Jake.

"How long will it take him to heal?" Sam asked, addressing the elephant in the room, and something I needed to know.

"For his bones I give him one too two weeks, but after that, about a month of laying low. Which means no phasing, patrols, or physical exersise." Carlisle answered with a heavy voice. Embry rubbed my back as my breathing turned back to normal and the shakes stopped. My cell phone rang out in the kitchen, playing the chorus of Better Than Drugs by Skillet. It had been the song on the radio that first day in the garage all those months ago. It had become 'Our Song' instantly. Hearing the familiar words brought a smile to my face and I let it righ just to hear the song.

"How can I tell you just all that you are

What you do to me

You're better than drugs

your love is like wine

Feel you comin' on so fast

Feel you comin' to get me high

You're better than drugs

Addicted for life

Feel you comin' on so fast

Feel you comin' on to get me high."

I sang with the song, memories flooded my brain. I realized the whole room had gone silent and all breathing had stopped. My face flushed and I cleared my throat.

"I should go check who called. Thanks Embry." I muttered, rushing out the door and imeadiantly feeling a tug at my heart. One missed call: Charlie. Ah, shit!

"Sam! Mayday! Charlie!" I yelled, panicing. I heard Sam chuckle.

"Relax Bella! Charlie knows, we had to tell him. Billy called him after you had told us your desision." I freaked out even more. I went to tell him off but someone else beat me to it.

"So 'ol Charlie knows huh?" I knew that voice, I loved that voice, albeit weak.

"Jake!" I yelled, rushing back into the room, previous discussion all but forgotten. Jacob chuckled but I cut it short by pressing my lips to his, my hair falling like a curtain to cover our faces. I noticed that Carlisle had left, I hadn't heard him leave. Figures. There were whoops from a few of the guys, mainly Seth, Embry, Quil and Paul. I broke the kiss and spun on Sam.

"What the hell!" I yelled, fighting a smile. Sam held up his hands.

"We had to tell him Bella, I mean his daughter chose a werewolf over a vampire for God's sake! Not to mention Jake will be fully healed in two weeks, where it should take him months!" Sam fought back his own smile and I just about fainted.

"You could've given him a heart attack! Jesus Christ on a cracker Sam!" I giggled, unable to fight it anymore.

"Actually he took it pretty well. Speaking of which, everybody but Bella to the living room." Sam ordered. "Give her some time with Jake." All the guys flocked to the living room, but not before raiding the refrigerater. I walked back over to Jake and knelt by his bed again. He looked so tired and weak, he was even pale, pale!

"I love you." I whispered, running my fingers from his temple to his jaw and watching him shudder in pleasure.

"I love you too Bells, and I'm so sorry that I can't even fucking hug you." He growled, shaking slightly.

"Hey! This was not your fault, you didn't ask for this!" I was pissed now. How could he think that!

"Bella, I'm sorry, I made you mad." He groaned. My hands ghosted over his body.

"What hurts Jake?" I whimpered, so tortured by the sight before me, he was so broken.

"If I said everything, would that give you anything to work with?" He chuckled. I shook my head and he muttered a curse under his breath as outside a car door slammed.

Whew! Finally done! Its 10:05 pm and I'm about to start the third chapter. I'm up late so you guys get your story, its what I do, I put others before myself. Enjoy you guys! You all rock my socks off!

Do not own anything only plot. All else belongs to Stephanie Meyer! Whoo!

*slips my hand into Jake's back pocket* Now! Off to bed with Jake! YES!