Here I am again my dear readers!
So, I had a wonderful weekend with my family and such amazing experience at the carnival being afraid if I'll make it out alive riding a roller coaster and the round up plate. So far I'm alive and here I am feeling refresh and so much alive that I feel like writing an update.
Just a piece of advice:
If you are going to ride the roller coaster for the first time, don't ever choose the front seat! It almost gave me a heart attack!
How can I change the world,
Cause I sure can't change your mind,
Where's the miracle I need now,
got to get to you somehow,
Cause I can't change the world,
I can't change the world,
No, I can't change the world,
I can't change the world...
Confused, Gray looked around him but aside from the blinding light in the place where he stood alone made it hard for him to see anything. Where am I? He thought to himself. He's very much sure he'd been in that place before. The powdery white substance in his feet looked so damn familiar to him. He could hear the creepy howling of the wind but he can't see anything. And he can't feel anything, he can hear the wind but he can't feel it touching his skin though it seemed to pass him.
Slowly, the light faded until there was just enough to let him see where he is. For a moment he was clueless but as the snow around him continues to fall and the planes and slope of the mountain became clearer he realized the he's in mountains up north where he grew up and that substance on his feet was snow.
"What am I doing here?" he asked to no one in particular since he's all alone. His voice just echoed in the place though he was sure he just almost whispered. "Weird."
"Gray..."
He whirled around to see who's calling him but there's no one there.
"Gray..." the voice called out again.
"Who are you?" he was frantically moving around but there's really no one in there with him. The voice kept on calling him and as it goes on it seems to fade like its drifting away or much likely being carried around by the wind he can't even feel. It's creepy. Yeah, he's creeping him out but he's more frustrated to know where it's coming from because it sounds so familiar too just like the place.
"Ur!" he shouted out of frustration but just like before, it just echoed around him like he's inside some kind of glass dome and all what he's seeing were just projection of the place he used to know. "Where are you?"
"Gray..."
"Mom?"
The hell is going on? Why was he hearing voices of dead people? Where are they and why can't he see them?
"Mom, Ur. Where are you?" he asked again hoping that maybe they'll answer.
Following the direction where the voices came from, Gray walked on the snowy path. That place giving him all the emotions that he really don't want to feel again. In these very mountains he lost too much. When he was just a kid, his mother died trying to save him from the snow storm the he didn't knew was coming that day. His dad died too trying to save them both.
"Gray."
Gray went stiff when the next voice came right behind him. When he turned around, his eyes almost rival the size of a saucer. "D-Dad," he stuttered. Standing in front of him was the ghostly figure of his father. He was pretty sure he could see right through him. "W-why are you here?"
His father smiled and instead of calming his nerves like it used to do when he was a small child, that smile made him feel so awful and scared. "We'll take her now Gray."
"What? Take who? Oi old man, answer me!"
But his father just smiled again and to his horror, the wind picked him up and took him away. Then he saw them. His mother, Mika and his adoptive mother, Ur. But who's the girl standing next to them? Gray tried to see her face and he felt panic eat him up. "Juvia!"
Juvia looked at him with her beautiful eyes and he was so terrified to see them staring at him blankly. There's no life in her captivating eyes. "Juvia, why are you here? Mom, Ur. What's the meaning of this?"
"We'll take her now Gray," his mother replied with that kind smile of her but he's not even a bit pleased with it. How could he be pleased when she's saying such stupid thing? "You don't need her anymore, Gray." Ur added and there's nothing else he wanted to do but shake her back to sanity cause he seriously think that they all gone insane. Juvia's still alive so how could take her with them?
"You killed her with what you called love Gray," his father's voice said shrilly. "Just like what your love did to us."
"No!" This can't be happening. They can't take her away. "Juvia," he called her name again. "Come back to me. We'll go back now." He offered her his hand as he took few steps closer to them but every steps he made they seemed to move away. "Juvia."
He sprinted forward to reach her but the wind blew hard and carried them away. "Juvia, no! Juvia." Gray kept on running after them and calling Juvia's name as they keep on drifting and fading away...
"Juvia!"
Covered in cold sweat and breathing heavily, Gray sat up from his bed. His hand in the air reaching for something that's not even there. "Fuck!" he harshly buried his face in hands as his heart kept on thudding like it wants to jump out of his chest.
Dreams like that had been constantly visiting his sleep and its starting to wear him off. He knew that the bags under his eyes were growing incredibly big but he can't do anything about it. He missed Juvia so bad that it's starting to drive him insane. He no longer knew how to deal with the longing in his heart since she walked away.
During the first week of their initial break up after their heated fight, he could remember that he was somehow proud of how he made her cry until he realized what he really did. For few days he'd been to egocentric to admit what he did but after all his anger was gone he felt like a complete asshole and ended up drowning himself in alcohol like it would solve his problems. In a month without her in his life, he was like a bomb ticking to explode at any moment. He'd been irritable and grumpy as his friend kept on telling him to give Juvia some time to get herself back together because everyone deserves it after such a horrible fight with the one they love. Right now he's most likely on his limit. Three months without her had been hell and just thinking of another day without seeing her is killing him inside.
Every day was torture for him. Sometimes he'll go out with the gang and would try to have some fun, it was somehow effective. For once he was thankful that Natsu's such an idiot that his antics and banters could take his mind away from Juvia's memory. But it's during the night when he would be alone once again that the pain comes back in double. He would usually dream about their moments together or when he's awake he'll find himself staring at nothing reminiscing about their past. He had finally given up pretending to be happy around his friends after few attempts. What's the point when at the end of the day he would still be all alone? And lately the dreams became nasty. He'll see her in his dream but she's always too far. Even in his dream he couldn't touch her. It feels like she's a forbidden fruit he can't have.
"You okay?"
If a look could kill, Loke must have been dead on the spot when Gray looked at him after falling off of his bed. "The hell are you doing here?" he asked his friend that was casually leaning on his door frame.
Loke chuckled and gave him a fake hurt look. "The last time I checked, Gray, my friend, I'm stilling paying my share on the rent. Technically, I still live here," he said. "And what kind of greeting was that? We didn't see each other the whole summer and you'll ask me what am I doing here. Tsk." Loke straightened up, took the chair nearby his bedroom door and brought it right in front of him. Settling down on the chair he asked, "Is that the side effect of no-loving-girlfriend-flu?"
"I seriously have no time for this, Loke. What do you want?"
"You sound so bitter," he chuckled again. "Now I know for a fact that you're not doing well like what the others told me." It was very rare to see his friend Loke to be serious, phenomenally that moment was one of those rare times and Gray wonders what he got to say with that look on his face. "We've known each other for a long time now, Gray. You know how I deal with thing especially when it comes to girls."
And there he thought he was serious. Seemed like he's just going to get a stupid advice on how to forget a girl by means of looking for some hot chicks to bed. "Look, Loke. I do-"
"Let me finish Gray," Loke cut him off not so gently. "If Juvia happened to be any other girl, I'll tell you to just let it go and find someone else who'll fuck you to oblivion till you can no longer remember about your ex. But your Juvia was no ordinary girl. She's one of those girls that one would wait at the end of the sacred aisle. I wasn't there, but they told me what you did to her and I know for a fact how you'd been treating her before the break up. I hate to say it to you because you are actually my best friend but Gray, you're such a jerk and you deserve to lose her so stop acting like it was her who hurt you. Course you're hurting and all, I know that and you know that I can actually relate to you. All I'm saying is, Juvia's trying to fix her life. Why don't you try to do the same? Stop sulking here all day, you're in your final year and the school already started but you haven't attended any of your class yet. Don't you think that it would be much better when one day if she comes back; she'll see you as a man who is capable enough and not the same boy she left. It's okay to forget, I haven't. But you need to still have a life."
"Do you?" he asked. "Do you still hope Aries will one comes back even after all those years that passed?"
Loke smiled weakly. "It sounds lame, but yes. I'm still waiting for her. It's been three years and I'm still waiting and I will keep on waiting even if it takes a lifetime and more. But don't ever do it like me, Gray. I know your parents raised you up properly so don't you ever go around womanizing."
"Like I will ever do that!" he screeched.
"Just saying. Anyway, good job in turning your room into a shrine of your former relationship. One would think Juvia never left and just moved in here." Loke teased looking aroud his room. "I got to go now, heard there's this girl from Margaret. Someone told me he saw Aries there so maybe that girl could tell me something." after that being said, Loke left like nothing had been said between the two of them.
Gray looked around his room, too. And truthfully his room now looks like what Juvia's room in Fairy Hills used to look with all the stuff he brought home after she decided she no longer need them and just left it out on the street for the garbage truck to take. It pained him when he saw her putting out the reminders of their relationship. He's not at all sentimental like Juvia, but the memories he shared with her were precious and not easy to let go. He only then understands how much he broke her. Throwing away everything just like that is no easy task for someone like her who treasures everything.
That day he was about to ask for her forgiveness but after seeing her so determined to move on he lost all his courage like he was a school boy afraid to be scolded for the wrong thing he did. But what scared him the most was the coldness in her eyes like the one in his dream. It's haunting him...
Supposedly, this chapter was longer but I decided to change the pattern of how it goes from the first part "The Story of Us" so please bear with this one and let me know what you think of it. You may have noticed the hints of LoRies so if anyone's going to ask me what will happen to them, sad to say I don't know too so let's just leave them on their own devices.
I am tryingmy best to keep Gray's character but it's so hard. To tell you guys the truth he's an enigma to me. I know that in the Manga and anime he's already opening up but still, it's hard to put myself in his shoes. I'm much better on writing Juvia's part.
Anyway to anyone interested and active user of Facebook, I am looking for admins for my pages dedicated to my Fav. Characters: Gray and Juvia. For more info just pm me or just leave a review or you can visit the page. Links on my profile.
That's all for now.
I love you and thank you for waiting for my update.
Love,
YoseiNoAme
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P.S.
Sorry if there are some errors.
