What Now?

Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy. Or Private Practice.

A/N: Thankies for the reviews. :) I didn't even think of extending this (this was supposed to be a one-shot. Oops, didn't put :P) until I read two reviews. :) My muse was happy and bouncing around and telling me "Do this, write this! No, not that!" :P Which is odd because it's not doing that for my serieses (new word :P)... So, this is set after the last PP episode, 3x19. :) And also, last episode from Grey's. So, enjoy!


Addison thought back to the 'affair.' What Amelia had seen was unexpected to all of them. Addison thought about her breaking Mark's heart... twice. But he broke her heart, too, when he came to LA, when he cheated on her, when he lied to her. She was upset but not angry at the Grey girl. She should have seen it coming.

Did Amelia want her and Mark together? She wondered why it wasn't Derek and her. Professional jealousy? Derek being the golden child? Maybe. She had to talk to Amelia about this.

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Addison asked Amelia to eat lunch with her and Amelia happily agreed. Addison wasted no time talking to her.

"Back at your mom's party," she fidgeted a little, "You know that wasn't supposed to happen?"

Amelia's eyebrows furrowed but soon relaxed. "I wasn't talking about that." Addison turned to stone. "I saw you two in the park, just years ago. It broke my heart, but just a little. Derek is not my only brother. I hated having more sisters than brothers so Mark was like a brother to me. Actually, he was kind of more a brother to me than Derek was. Derek was off trying to be the best neurosurgeon out there."

"Oh," Addison's voice dropped. She was right.

"How long had it been going on? You and Derek were married for about six years when I saw you kissing at my mom's birthday." She whispered, "Was it going on for that long?"

"Mark and I only had a real relationship when you saw us together a few years ago. Two months."

"Then why did you guys kiss at the house?"

"Derek trying to be the best neurosurgeon out there." Addison shrugged. "He missed two anniversaries because of work." She took a deep breath as she remembered how she spent their fifth anniversary. "And because Mark... said some things..." She looked out the window, making her mind go into the distance, somewhere far away, somewhere like Seattle. "It's funny... I've never felt that way in a long time. When Derek says it, it sounds..." she shrugged "robotic and like he does it everyday. Which he does, he tells me he loves me everyday. It just... doesn't feel the same. But when Mark says it," She smiled, "Even if it was that one time and a few more times years after that, he puts meaning into it. You know he wanted to get into my pants since med-school?"

"Where is he now?"

"Seattle."

"Is he dating anyone?"

"I think so. He's in love with someone else. My ex-husband's intern girlfriend's little sister!" She laughed and ran a hand through her hair. She felt relief, saying these things to Amelia. They had trusted each other ever since they first met. She felt relief... and sadness. Heart-breaking sadness.

"Are you okay?" Amelia asked. Tears were forming in Addison's eyes. She quickly wiped them away and sniffed. "Are you still in love with Mark? Hasn't it been long since you two had," Amelia thought of a word, "Some form of a relationship?"

Moment of truth. "No, I'm not in love with Mark." If her heart had taken the form of a person, it would be screaming at her. "But," she continued, "When you have great history with people, like really great history, it's very hard not to fall in love again."

Addison looked at Amelia and asked, "How many times do you think Mark has broken my heart?"

"Maybe a few," Amelia replied honestly, "He doesn't mean it though. At least, he tries not to mean it."

"How many times do you think I've broken his heart?"

"Maybe once," Amelia shrugged, "I get it because he's a man-whore. Can't really trust a guy like that, can you?"

"No, no you can't." Addison looked at Amelia and rested her hand above hers, on top of the table. "I'm sorry I broke your brother's heart." She put some money on the table and stood up.

"It's okay. You know how Derek can be with work and all," Amelia replied.

"I don't mean that brother." Addison smiled and left for home.

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Seattle...

"Call an ambulance!" Mark shouted at Teddy. She had heard noises, mostly someone screaming, "The baby is coming!" and had put on the nearest clothing and ran out into the living room. Sloane was on the couch, breathing heavily, screaming in pain. Teddy dove for the phone and quickly called the hospital. Mark tried to calm Sloane's breathing while she held on for life to his hand, which was quickly turning white.

"Okay, they're on their way," Teddy said. Sloane looked at Mark and then Teddy and then back at Mark. She squeezed tighter on his hand.

"Seriously, you old perv?!" She gasped out. She let go of his hand and he rubbed it. She screamed and held on tight to her stomach. "This hurts like hell!"


Sorry Seattle part is short. Apparently, my muse only had enough energy for that part. :P I think I'm gonna continue this for a little while... Review please!