A/N – Usual disclaimers apply, I do not own anything and if I did then M7 and Sentinel would still be going.
Poor Chris remembers something from the day the bomb went off and the men get on a plane.
Please review or make suggestions as they make me want to write more
Sentinel Legend Part 2:
"It's too far for you to walk Chris." Buck ignored the glare being sent his way; he could almost smell the pain coming from the sweating man. "We'll used the ATV's."
"Fine." Chris grumbled as Buck lanky frame headed for the out building where the two ATV's where kept, they would have to double up and do a number of trips so that all seven men could reach the top of the hill.
"Me and Vin will drive them." Buck smiled at the low grumbling he could hear coming from the blond man.
"I can drive myself." Chris muttered grumpily, he glared at the laughing Standish. "Don't know what you're laughing at Ezra but you can ride with Buck."
Ezra paused in his good natured laughing as he saw the other man smirking evilly at him.
"I think I maybe will ride with Mr Tanner if you do not mind." Ezra felt that Chris new something about Buck's driving skills that the southerner would not want to experience.
"Like Vin's gonna let Ezra ride with anyone else." JD slapped a hand over his mouth as the other men starred at him.
Chris chuckled at the horrified look on the young guides face, the group then started laughing with JD giggling as well, their mirth increased as Ezra tapped his foot.
"Gentlemen I am not a chew toy to be fought over." Ezra's green eyes twinkled happily at the other men.
"Wonder what they're so all fired happy about?" Vin moved to Ezra's side after he wheeled the black as if that was a surprise ATV to where the men where waiting.
"What's funny guys?" Buck asked smiling in response to the happy vibes he was getting off the assembled group.
"Ezra wants to be a chew toy." Chris face was carefully controlled his mirth hidden.
"Oh right." Buck looked at the smartly dressed man, even in what Ezra classed as casual clothes the man looked like he had walked off some sort of high class fashion magazine in his high priced jeans and polo shirt.
"Really." Vin stalked closer to the guide, reaching he pulled the startled man towards him. "A chew toy hmmmmm?"
Ezra drew in a surprised breath as the man nipped his throat he tilted his head allowing his sentinel to scent him, he felt the link between them humming with life Ezra felt the long finger hands pull him closer so that he was stood chest to chest with the long hair sentinel. He raised a hand and stroke over the flowing hair that trailed down the lean back.
"Guide." Vin drawled as he pulled the man as close as he could he revelled in the happiness the green eyed guide was feeling, his focused all his senses on the man he held.
"Sentinel." Ezra could not believe that this powerful sentinel wanted to bond with him, in fact Ezra was having a hard time understanding why these men, this pack, this sentinel wanted him to be a part of them, he was surely not worthy of such an honour, surely there had been some sort of mistake.
"Mine." Vin nipped the other man sharply almost as if he could read the negative thoughts the chestnut haired guide was having regarding his inclusion with the pack. "Ours."
"Pack." Chris crowded against Ezra's back he had felt the man's disbelief regarding his place as a member of the pack and the Alpha wanted to reassure the man that he was wanted and needed.
Ezra did feel like a chew toy but at this time he did not care, he was cradled between the two sentinels and they where both projecting their desire for him to be part of the pack and guide within it.
Vin grunted as he felt the other men crowd around, he felt all the seven men link, the bond almost like a living entity as it wrapped around them, each man gaining strength and comfort from the bonding they where now doing.
Chris leant against Ezra's back he smothered a yawn he felt Buck's large hand land on his neck he turned his head towards the taller man.
"You ready to do this Big Dog?" Buck felt that the man was going to fall asleep stood up if they did not move soon.
"Yeah." Chris made no effort to move from where he was leaning on the silent guide, or shake off Buck's warm hand which was still on his neck.
"Come on guys lets move." Buck had to smile as Vin grumbled having to release his guide. Ezra still just looked like he did not believe his good fortune. "Vin we'll take Chris and JD up first."
"Sure Bucklin." Vin could see Nathan was not happy the men where not going to be wearing helmets, but both he and Buck would rather die than hurt either one of their passengers. Vin patted the small hands that wrapped around him as JD clambered onto the ATV, he could feel the other man quivering with excitement as they waited for Chris to limp to where Buck waited.
"Don't see why I couldn't drive." Chris grunted as he climbed up behind the larger sentinel, he ignored the pain from his knee and held in a cough as Buck waited for him.
"You ok Chris?" Buck was waiting for Chris to let him know he was ready to move.
"What are you waiting for Buck lets ride." Chris growled down the other man's ear, he closed his eyes and fought down the feelings of pain and nausea as they raced up the hill.
Buck went as fast as he dared, he could feel Chris behind him, the man was panting and swallowing, Buck hoped that Chris did not vomit over them as it would not be a pleasant experience. He heard Chris moan and began to slow the ATV down preparing to stop.
"Don't stop Buck." Chris quietly commanded, he rested his weary head back on the broad back and was determined not to give in to his urge to cough.
"Hold on Alpha." Buck headed up the hill going as fast as the ATV could, once as the top he halted the vehicle within a short distance from the two graves that stood on top of it.
Chris staggered as he dismounted from the stationary ATV; he felt a strong grip on his elbow and nodded his thanks to the Texan sentinel.
"Go get the others me and JD will be fine." Chris led the quiet guide towards where his wife and son where buried, he stood between the two head stones and look closely at JD. "Sarah used to love coming up here and looking out over the land."
"I'm sorry Chris." JD bit his lip as he looked deep into the devastated green eyes.
"I was blessed for the short time Sarah and Adam where in my life." Chris rubbed the headstone which proclaimed
Beloved Wife and Mother.
Sarah Louise Larabee.
Life is not forever. Love is.
JD nodded not able to speak. He looked at the smaller grave and gulped at the unfairness of the suffering his alpha had gone through.
Chris other hand rested on Adam's headstone, he watched silently as JD read the inscription.
Beloved Son
Adam Buck Larabee
Sleep, my little one, sleep.
"I think Sarah and Adam would approve of your mother coming to sleep beside them." Chris walked slowly over to the overwrought Bostonian; he gently pulled the younger man into his embrace.
JD could not stifle his sobs he buried his face against the older man as he released all the sorrow over his mother's death due to the cancer which had invaded and then destroyed her body. JD welcomed the support from the older man as he cried out at the unfairness of his loss, he had not been able to help his mother fight the disease and in the end had begged god to end her suffering.
Vin brought up Ezra and the two men looked to where Chris held the sobbing JD, Chris rubbed a hand over the dark hair, he remained silent letting JD's grief run its course.
"Go Mr Tanner." Ezra nudged the other man back onto the ATV. He stayed back from the two men, until Chris looked straight at him and without saying anything Ezra understood that Chris wanted him to come closer. Ezra rested his hand on the other guides shoulder, he could feel the heart wrenching sobs shaking the man's frame, and JD had his face buried against the silent alpha's throat as he cried.
"Let it out son." Chris huskily spoke, he watched as the ATV's topped the rise, he smiled as Nathan dived off the machine before it had even fully stopped, the compassionate guide rushed over, he immediately placed his hand on the youngest member of the pack's back.
"I asked God to end her suffering." JD was overwhelmed with guilt; he hid his face as he continued to weep.
"You did what any good son would do." Josiah waited for the expressive brown eyes raise up and meet his own. "You put your mother's needs before your own."
"I wanted her to die." JD managed to get the words out.
"No JD you wanted her pain and suffering to end." Josiah took hold off the man's chin as he bowed his head in shame. "God took back his angel to sit at his side."
"JD son your mother would be proud of you." Nathan moved to stand next to Chris, he could tell that JD was leaning against the silent Alpha and the doctor was not sure the man was strong enough for that.
"It's alright Guide Nathan." Chris felt the bigger man put an arm round his waist. He felt Nathan nudge at his mind, he welcomed the man into the link, and he felt the others follow so that all seven of them stood together looking out at the land which made up the Larabee ranch.
"I think my mom would like it here Chris." JD gave the ill blond a timid smile.
"It's settled then." Chris released his hold on the guide, he moved back towards the graves, he ignored Nathan's hovering as he gingerly lowered himself into the gap between the headstones; he began to pull weeds from round the markers. "I'm fine Nathan I just need a few minutes."
Nathan nodded and moved back to where the others stood.
"This is mighty fine country." Vin could see the mountains in the distance, he spotted a river snaking through the lush land, and he noted the woodland and took a deep breath of the fresh country air.
"It's truly magnificent." Ezra was not a fan of nature but even he could appreciate mother nature's offerings.
Chris rested against Sarah's headstone, he was exhausted and after coughing for what seemed like an age he felt his eyes grow heavy, he relaxed knowing that the other men where near.
Chris found himself on his bed looking down into the bright blue eyes of his beloved Sarah; she smiled up at him, her hand gently stroking his face.
"I love you Chris Larabee." Her lilting voice brought a smile to his face.
"I love you more than life itself Sarah Larabee." Chris felt himself tugged down until their lips met in a gentle kiss.
"I have something to tell you." Sarah smile was blinding in its intensity.
"What is it love?" Chris returned Sarah's smile with of his own, he felt her take his hand and place it on her stomach.
Chris shot to his knees holding his head in his hands he roared with anguish at the images that had just ran through his mind.
"No no no." Chris began to pound his fists against the earth.
Buck reached the howling man first, he had been surprised that Chris had fallen asleep leaning against Sarah's grave, the men had stood admiring the views from where they where stood, until Chris's roar of anguished pain they all then charged towards their alpha.
"Chris." Buck grabbed the tightly clenched fists before they could hit the ground again.
"No no no." Chris head whipped from side to side.
"Chris talk to me Big Dog." Buck had never seen such utter sorrow before as he starred into the green eyes of his best friend, the raw emotions swirling around had Buck pulling the man close and wrapping both arms around him.
"Oh God Buck Sarah was pregnant." Chris anguish new no bounds he shuddered within the gentle hold.
"Oh Chris." Buck felt tears fill his eyes at the blond's anguished words.
"I can't be here Buck." Chris pulled away he got unsteadily to his feet.
"What do you mean?" Buck was confused.
"We can go to Boston now." Chris limped away from the graves not looking back.
Buck frowned he stood slowly and patted both headstones as he walked after the hobbling man, he felt the others following close behind.
"Chris you're ill." Buck stopped as Chris rounded on him.
"We're going to Boston now." Chris snarled his eyes flashing angrily. "Do you understand?"
"Yes Alpha." Buck realised that Chris needed time and space to process the memory he had just experience, he shook his head stopping Nathan from attempting to stop the leader of their group.
"Good lets go then." Chris fairly growled he climbed up behind Buck and remained silent as they travelled back towards the ranch house.
"Chris talk to me." Buck watched as Chris paused as he limped painfully towards the front door.
"Not yet Buck." Chris sounded tired and weary. "I just can't be here its too hard."
"Alright." Buck and Vin headed back for the rest of the pack.
Nathan had ridden down first with Vin; he walked silently by his alpha's side.
"Nathan find out if we can use the Foundation's jet I want to get to Boston as soon as possible." Chris headed straight for his bedroom determined to focus on something else other than the pure horror and disgust he felt when he considered than he had suppressed the fact that Sarah had been carrying his child.
"This is so not good." Buck wanted to yell his frustration to the world, had his friend not suffered enough, to now remember that was a second child murdered in front of him, it was no wonder that Chris need to get away from the ranch and all the memories of what had happened and what could have been if the bomb had not killed Sarah, Adam and their unborn baby.
"Chris needs to rest not drag himself to Boston." JD began to pace, he could not believe how much the blond alpha had lost, he did not think he would have been strong enough to survive losing a wife and child, and to then recall that there was an unborn baby as well, JD felt that he would have possibly gone insane with sorrow and heartache.
"He doesn't want to remain here knowing what he does." Josiah did not think he would ever forget the sight of their Alpha's grief. "Chris needs time and space so that he can reconcile himself with what he now remembers."
"Indeed Sentinel Larabee must be devastated by his returning memories." Ezra had wrapped an arm around himself he could still feel the overwhelming sense of loss from the alpha; he did not know how the man could function with such sorrow in his heart.
"Vin you take Ezra back and then come back for Josiah." Buck intercepted the pacing JD; he wrapped a brotherly arm around the unsettled guide.
JD was so glad he was no longer alone and could share his grief with his pack brothers; he hoped that Chris would allow them to help him deal with his feelings.
"JD, Chris will be fine, and this is not your fault." Buck squeezed the youngsters shoulder. "I'm not surprised Chris's memory of that day is coming back, but he's not alone now and we will help him whether he likes it or not."
"Come on lets go get ready for Boston." Josiah climbed up behind the other sentinel, as they raced the other ATV towards the welcoming ranch house.
Chris stood impatiently waiting for the flight attendant to allow them to board the Sentinel and Guide Foundation jet, he could feel Buck stood at his back offering him his silent and unwavering support. Chris was ignoring all his aches and pains, as soon as he got on the plane he would rest but for now he was to wound up, he wanted to pace but he had seen the look Nathan had shot him when he had.
Nathan was glad that he had been able to restock the herbs that Kojay had suggested, he was going to prepare a pain killer as soon as they where air borne and hopefully get the agitated Alpha to relax and rest before he collapsed again. The Alpha Sentinel looked exhausted and Nathan had heard him growl when other commuters had gotten too close, Buck Vin and Josiah had gently herded the man away from the crowds and Ezra was stood beside the man talking with him.
"How are you senses Alpha?" Ezra was becoming worried as the man rubbed at his blood shot eyes.
Chris did not want to tell the guide that his senses where spiking, the smell of the masses of people and their unwashed bodies was making him feel sick, he tried to block out the overwhelming smell of perfume and body spray, things where not helped by the odours from the restaurants dotted around the terminal or the restrooms that where nearby. Because of this his sense of taste was making his stomach turn over sickeningly as it seemed like everything he could smell he could taste in graphical nauseating detail.
"Chris." Ezra moved closer to the man who had his eyes tightly closed and his fists clenched at his sides, Ezra could see the blond alpha was flinching every time their was an announcement of flights and information. "Alpha."
Chris could hear every noise, he could hear children screaming as they ran around waiting with parents for their flights, he could hear the squeal from luggage carts, and the stamp of the seemingly endless line of feet as people rushed around. Chris kept his eyes slammed shut as the artificial lighting with the terminal was so bright to him that it was almost blinding and it was sending bolts of pain through his head every time he opened his eyes.
"Sentinel." Ezra took hold of one of the trembling man's tightly clenched fists he place it over his heart, moving so that he was up against the other man he place his hand on the lean chest. "Focus on my voice, feel my heartbeat under your hand."
Buck and the others watched with concern as Chris shuddered paling as he struggled with his spiking senses.
Ezra moved his hand up to Chris neck he gently coaxed the shaking man to rest his head on his shoulder.
"Sentinel focus all your senses on me." Ezra used his guide voice to command obedience from the struggling sentinel.
Chris could hear the slow steady beat of the guides heart, he could smell the man's cologne and underneath it the scent that was unique Ezra, burrowing closer he felt the man's dexterous hand run over his head encouraging him to nestle nearer, sighing Chris began to feel his senses dialling down as he listened to the soothing voice of the guide talk him through bringing his sense under control.
Ezra was amazed at how easily and readily the strong willed sentinel followed his instructions, he looked over Chris's shoulder and was astounded by the pride and happiness being directed his way from the other members of the pack. He blinked and saw that he not been mistaken and the other men circled round him expressing their support and affection.
"Good job Ez." Buck had been ready to help if Ezra had faltered but the southerner had handled their Alpha in a calm and confident manner.
"My name is Ezra Sentinel Wilmington." Ezra continued to run his hand over the now relaxed Alpha thick blond hair, he felt the guide doctors hand on his back.
"Good job Ezra." Nathan patted the man's back before turning his attention to the sick alpha. "Chris how are you feeling?"
"M fine." Chris's voice was muffled against Ezra's throat.
"Gentlemen your plane is ready for you to board." The pretty attendant announced watching the men closely she had been told that these where important sentinels and guides and to offer them every courtesy. "Please follow me."
"Chris we need to go." Nathan smiled into the weary green eyes, the man nodded then walked after the female attendant, Nathan noticed that Chris was masking his limp; the other men quickly followed the long striding Larabee.
"You did a great job Ezra." Vin smiled as he sauntered passed the stationary guide. "You coming or what Ez."
"Sentinel Tanner as I have repeatedly informed Sentinel Wilmington." Ezra paused as Vin laughing blue eyes twinkled at him. "My name is Ezra P Standish."
"Sure Ez." Vin sniggered as he continued after the rest of the pack.
"Humph." Ezra could not help himself he chuckled shaking his head he followed the sniggering sentinel.
JD yawned he fastened his seat belt and was surprised when Chris settled beside him.
"Tired JD?" Chris felt himself yawn in reaction.
"Why is yawning so infectious?" JD felt another yawn make his eyes water.
Chris smile was tired, he felt the plane lift off, and he jumped slightly as he felt Nathan's large hand come to rest on his shoulder.
"Chris I have something for you to drink." Nathan held out the glass, which Chris emptied slowly grimacing at the taste. "Then maybe you could go lie down."
Nathan had checked the sleeping area on the large luxurious jet, he wanted to make sure the area was safe and sentinel friendly now he just needed to persuade the alpha to rest. He smiled as JD yawned, Nathan realised the potential of using the young guide in his quest to make their alpha rest.
"JD you can keep Chris company." Nathan moved back so the two men could rise.
"Not really tired Nathan." Chris words were not believed as he covered his mouth as a jaw cracking yawn made his eyes water.
"Sure you're bright as a new penny Cowboy." Vin chuckled as Chris glared at him.
In Boston Sentinel Dwayne Hicks watched his Alpha pace the large office, he could feel the man's agitation rising as he stomped from one side of the room to the other.
"Why are they coming back here?"
