Here is Kendall's POV in the sequel-ish songfic to "Don't forget."
Disclaimer: I do not own BTR or the song.
I'm so glad
You made time to see me
How's life?
Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while...
Dear Logan,
Hey, its Kendall...How are you? How's your father; I haven't seen him in a long time.
You've been good
Busier than ever
We small talk
Work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Um, how's school-oh, have you found a good medical school yet? James, Carlos, and I have had to spend more and more time at Rocque Records...I heard there was a blizzard in Minnesota; it seems like L.A gets hotter every day...Listen, I'm writing this letter for two reasons. First, I want to try to friends again...What I mean is, I was thinking about the last time we called each other. I justcouldn't get over the way we acted as if we barley knew each other!
Cause the last time
You saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses
And I left them there to die...
Before I move on to telling you the second reason for writing this letter, I completely understand if you rip this up the second you finish reading it…What I did is probably still burned into you…Logan, you were probably the best thing that had ever happened to me, and I tore you apart…
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standin' in front of you
Sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missing you
Wishin' I realized what I had
When you were mine
I'd go back to December
Turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time
Logan, the second thing is...I'm sorry. Sorrier than I've ever been in my life. It's been a year, and I know this apology is coming far too late. December must be painful to go through because of what I did. I suppose I believed that breaking up would free us of all the haters...free us of everything we had wanted to escape from...I was wrong. I know I was stupid. I shouldn't have cared what they thought. You were mine, and that should've been the only thing that mattered. Logie...every day, every night, I wish I could go back to that December night so I could take back the words I said to you...
These days
I haven't been sleeping
Stayin' up
Playin' back
Myself leaving
When your birthday passed
And I didn't call...
And I think about summer
All the beautiful times
I watched you laughin' from the passenger side
Realized that I loved you
In the fall...
Logan, I have been up night after night, remembering that night. It is as if it is on an endless replay. What makes it worse is that I never had the courage to even call you on your birthday three months ago...Logie, you have no idea how much I take out that picture of us from last summer...You know? Our last picture before it all went wrong...And I want you to know I never forgot the afternoon we fell in love...We were sitting in the Big Time Rush-Mobile, watching the sunset; I told you your laugh was cute, you told me my smile was cute.
Then the cold came
The dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love
And all I gave you was...
Goodbye...
But...then I stopped remembering the feeling I had that day...I was embarrassed...Scared of the haters and what they would do to hurt us emotionally, and maybe even physically. Logan, I should've been stronger for you. You gave me all your love...All I gave you was goodbye.
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standin' in front of you
Sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missing you
Wishin' I realized what I had
When you were mine
I'd go back to December
Turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
Logan, I know no matter how many times I say it, you probably will never believe me...I'd do anything, pay anything-heck, I'd even give up my own life to change my mind. To change what I said to you that night. Every December is not only torture for you...I feel the same pain as well.
I miss your tan skin
Your sweet smile
So good to me
So right
And how you held me in your arms
That September night
The first time
You ever saw me cry
Logan...You weren't like the others. You may have thought of yourself as imperfect. An outsider. But I believed you were amazing. You thought you were flawed in every way. But I believed you were perfect and I know you will not believe me. You were a better boyfriend to me, than Jo was a girlfriend. Every night I remember the way we would lie together and talk about our day. Before we were even in love...You were the one who was there for me when Jo left me...It was the first time you ever saw me cry...
Maybe this is wishful thinkin'
Probably mindless dreamin'
If we loved again
I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time
And change it
But I can't
So if the chain is on your door
I understand...
Logie...I know writing this letter may just be full of wishful thinking...mindless thinking...Please understand Logan...If we ever loved again, I would love you right. I'll apologize as many times as I can. I can't change that night. I'll understand if you never want to see me again.
Yours truly,
Kendall Knight
But this is me swallowing my pride
Standin' in front of you
Sayin' I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothin' but missing you
Wishin' I realized what I had
When you were mine
I'd go back to December
Turn around and make it all right
I'd go back to December
Turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time...
All the time...
Why do I do this to myself! I was getting seriously depressed writing this chapter...Oh, and I just realized...I didn't need that picture frame...Oh well. I definitely need to write a happier songfic next =)
Oh, and sorry for any grammar errors, I was up early to finish this ;D
