A/N:: Oooo, Eeee, I love you so much SOA loving mom, you throw the devil right out of me and bring in the angel, you rock girl and i'm lucky to call you my older smutty sister, who rock and rolls and needs to keep it coming and going with your awesome stuff and things, if you havn't read or heard of anything she does, you need to. READ ALL HER STORIES NOW. I know I am. ;P Oh and...sorry to say, this story ain't gonna be soo happy, its going to make you upset and wanting to read more, its hard and rough all over...but thats what its suppose to be, right? *sarcastic laugh* haha...uuhhhh, ok..well don't kill me...well TRY not to please. ^^;
Anywhoooo, chapter 2 of this fanfiction..here we goooo,
It had started with morning sickness. Then she got dizzy and whenever she smelled the food being cooked for breakfest, she ran for the bathroom once again. Once those signs showed she knew, so she asked Hershal for a test, he had one left. She took it. And now here she was, telling Beth she was pregnant, not believing those words would come out of her mouth again.
Beth closed her eyes and sighed roughly, trying to stay calm for Carol, "Carol, is Daryl the father?"
Carol nodded slowly, not trusting her voice at the moment, scared of breaking into tears or having a voice crack every word she rolled out, off her tongue.
Beth looked at Carol, she knew, she knew Carol hadn't told Daryl, why would she?, but she wanted to make sure, "Does he know?"
Carol looked up, her eyes wide, "Daryl? No. God no, I just found out. Your the only one that knows other than me...Hershal might, but no one else" Her voice cracked and threatened to break, but she stayed strong.
Beth then walked over and knelt down in front of her friend, extending her hand with a warm smile, "come on. Let's go see daddy"
Carol took the girl's hand and stood up, sighing softly. She nodded and followed Beth to Hershal's cell. When they entered Hershal was just finishing looking over a worried Maggie. Maggie had found out she was pregnant and Glenn almost had a heart attack, now the young woman was a few weeks and cramps we're happening, it was worrying Hershal.
Hershal smiled as they stepped in, Beth speaking first, "Carol's pregnant, can you look her over" Maggie had just left, not hearing in issue.
Hershal nodded to Carol to sit down, "I knew that was the situation. Sit dear" he turned to his daughter "thank you Beth" Beth nodded and left Hershal and Carol alone.
Carol sighed, smiling, "I just found out this morning...it happened last night and the signs started this morning"
Hershal nodded, "Is it Daryl's?" Carol nodded slowly, Hershal just smiled, "ok. Was it your first time with him?"
Carol sighed, closing her eyes, "yeah. First time..we forgot a condom...i'm sorry Hershal"
Hershal put his hand on her knee, making her open her eyes, "don't be sorry. Miracles of life are always great. You'll be fine, both of you"
Carol smiled, "what do I tell Daryl?" She looked at her hands. Shit, he wouldn't be happy.
Hershal sighed, squeezing her knee before letting his hand drop back to his side, "he won't take it well. But stay strong, he's never done this"
Carol nodded once again, "thanks Hershal. Can you tell Rick for me? I want to get some sleep"
Hershal smiled wide, "rest will do well for you. You just rest, I got it" Carol smiled once more before leaving the old man to go to her cell for a nap.
He won't take it well. But stay strong, he's never done this
The vet's words rang in her mind, he won't take it well, Carol closed her eyes, it wasn't long before sleep took her. The last thought was of Daryl.
Hershal stood up right after Carol left. Sighing as he watched her retreating form, she was shaking the whole time he looked her over. He hobbled right to Rick's cell and went right on in, when he stepped in, he saw Rick was just pulling on his boots. He looked up at Hershal and frowned, "what's wrong?"
Hershal sighed, "Carol's pregnant with Daryl's child. She just found out and hasn't told Daryl. Only me, you and Beth know, don't say anything to our redneck, Carol said she was going too after her nap. She just wanted you to know"
Rick sighed, about damn time. He saw this coming, "Daryl isn't going to take this well. At all."
Hershal nodded slowly, "I told Carol that. He's going to be stubborn about it. Upset. He tends to blame things on her when really he's blaming himself, he just needs someone to take it out on. I should tell her this, but she's asleep right now." Hershal shook his head, deep with ditress.
Rick ran his hand through his hair, "yep. That's Daryl. For now, we can just hope Carol get's told before she tells Daryl. We don't want anything tragic ans regretful to happen"
"I agree" Hershal nodded, sighing, he turned, "bye Rick" and with that he slowly made his way back to his cell to think, leaving Rick to pull on his boots and walk out without looking distressed.
Daryl Dixon had his comfort zone. The woods. The woods was Dixon comfort zone, they we're always alert and at attention when in the woods, always focused. But Daryl, Daryl fucking Dixon was not focused. He already missed hitting five squirrels and a doe and it was pissing him off and over what? A woman. Dixon don't pussy up to women but here was a Dixon getting off by some woman he fucked last night. In his opinion it wasn't fucking though, but he wasn't 'making love' to her either. He was simply giving her comfort, letting the tension go for one night of comfort, one night of happy pleasure and feels. He needed to let some steam off, have one night of good and that was the way. He was drunk, hell he wasn't that drunk, but he needed alcohol in his system to actually get the nerves to do what he planned and it worked, worked just as planned and she most likely thought it was a drunk redneck fucking the next available chick. Did he feel anything for this woman. Hell he never thought about it, he did feel something different for her then he did about other women. He would also fuck to fuck, but no. He didn't fuck her, he comforted her, helped relieve her tension...his tension.
Movement. Aim. Shoot. Miss.
Damn it. He can't focus, shes been on his mind ever since he woke up and she wouldn't leave it. He cussed as he got the mis-shot arrow from a tree and loaded his crossbow back up. What was she doing right now? Was she ok? Was she thinking about him? Did she leave the prison? Is she dead? What the hell is she doing right now? The un-answered questions linger in his mind, adding new ones next second and soon he would have to go back and see if some of them can be answered. But how can he face her? Fear gripped him, when he sees her, what expression will she show towards him? Fear, regret, anger, sorrow, pity, neglect...or will she show happy, welcomed, love, approval or will she simply forget it or ignore it all and pretend it never happened. That would only make it more awkward for him, the worse would be she killed or self or left out of sorrow or pity. He couldn't live with himself if that happened.
Movement. Aim. Shoot. Miss.
Damn it. What if she left, and no one tried to stop her? What if she thought he did that out of pity towards her? What if she thought it would be better to live with her daughter? What if she felt so uncomfortable with him after what happened that she'd leave? What if she got hurt because of him? Killed because of him? Felt horriable because of him? What if...she got pregnant because of him? He gaged, THAT was his worse fear, worse thought of fear. If she got pregnant because of him everyone would be mad at him, maybe throw him out of the prison or make her leave. What if she died while the baby growed in her? What if the baby died in her and was born dead? Was if the baby died...and came back..and...what if the baby got stuck and something happened? What if she died from the pregnancy? What if she died trying to give birth to the baby like Lori? Daryl shivered, these ideas we're killing him.
Movement. Aim. Shoot. Miss.
Time to head back to camp. Back to the woman he feared most to see, Carol.
Carol sat up, pinching her nose shut as she did as the nausea hit her strong, she groaned closing her eyes. Why did they have to cook eggs today? Eggs always lead her to the toilet. It always did with Sophia, thats why she stopped eating eggs after the first week of being pregnant with her first child, she never really ate eggs again unless Ed insisted or like now, they only have eggs and thats what they want and like, eggs. She sighed, slowly getting up, but the nausea won again and she was forced to run straight to the toilet, holding her mouth with wide-eyes. Once she reached the toilet she let it all out, all her dinner from last night and everything she had in her, she sighed, flushing the toilet and leaning back against the wall, holding her hand over her forehead and closing her eyes. When she opened her eyes, a curious wide-eyed Maggie stood in front of her with a plate of eggs, she took one look at the eggs and doubled over into the toilet once again, stomach acid being the only thing she heaved as the nausea eased off, Maggie put the place outside the bathroom and took a step closer to Carol. Carol flushed the toilet and leaned back against the wall, groaning, her eyes downcast.
Maggie sighed, kneeling down in front of Carol, "are you alright?"
Carol looked up at her, her eyes wide with sorrow and exhaustion. She took a deep breath and went for it, "I'm pregnant..Hershal confirmed it this morning...only you, Hershal, Beth and Rick know...please don't tell anyone. I havn't told anyone else because I just found out this morning" She pleaded with the farmer's daughter.
"Is-is it Daryls?" Maggie asked in pure shock and Carol nodded.
"Eggs ALWAYS set me off. Happened all the time during Sophia's pregnancy. I never knew why, Egg's just don't do well when i'm pregnant" She explained her self and slowly stood up, the nausea still lingered, but not enough for her to vomit.
Maggie nodded, "ok. I'll make you a can of peaches then. Sound good?"
Carol smiled, "Thank you, but I can get the peaches"
Maggie shook her head, "No, I got it. You just go sit in your cell. You look exhaused from this morning's events"
Carol sighed, but gave in, "thank you Maggie"
Maggie just smiled and took the eggs back to the kitchen as Carol made her way back to her cell. She knew. Beth knew. Hershal knew. Rick knew. Maggie knew. Who next? She had to tell Daryl before the whole prison knew or he would be pissed, thinking she wasn't going to tell him at all.
She sighed and laid down in bed, a silent tear fell from her cheek and she didn't wipe it off, she let it fall. Let the feelings take her, but she did it in silence.
Can nobody hear me?
I got a lot thats on my mind.
I cannot breathe.
Can you hear it too...?
The tears, the fear, the anger, the wonder, the regret, the confusion, the refuse, the truth, the lie, the real thing, the sorrow, the confession, the rejection...the happiness. It all spilled, it all took her over and she silently showed it all, to herself, to god, to the baby...but no one else.
Maybe if I fall asleep,
I won't breathe right
Maybe if I run away,
I won't come back
Maybe if she fell asleep, it would all end, she might not wake up, she might just stop breathing, it would be a peaceful way, for her. Maybe, but she had a baby, she couldn't do that, for the baby, it needed a chance..didn't it? But what baby needs to live in this world..
Maybe she could run away and not come back, but they would go after her, look for her...She couldn't get far, hell, she'd be lucky to get out the gate. Even if she got away, she wouldn't last long. She needed to think of the baby, this prison was safe, if she stayed here, maybe...just maybe, the baby had a fighting chance to live, but will she go like Lori or live to be with her baby...or she might miscarry or not even make it through the pregnancy...Sophia was born natually, no C-Section, if she got through this, this baby would be ok being born natually like Sophia, they had Hershal to help..maybe it could work, just maybe. But then again, the bad worries and thoughts took over.
Maybe if I run away,
I won't come back
Maybe, if she ran away, if she did, she might find another group, not come back to the prison, find others who could help her, new love, someone who might be willing to raise a baby with the likes of HER. If that was possiable, they have to be blind though...and deaf and maybe not be able to feel her...or maybe she could just raise it alone. Leave, find a group, raise the child alone...she could, maybe she would. Just maybe.
Maybe.
Daryl entered the kitchen to find Maggie and Beth handing out plates for breakfest, everyone was at the table except two people, Carol and Hershal. He looked around her them, but they we're not here. Beth smiled at him, "your back early"
He nodded, "nothin' out..Couldn' get anythin' other than a few squirrels" He put his kills out to be skinned and sat down beside Rick. A few of the people seemed different, comfortable, like they knew something he didn't...maybe they did. Did Carol leave the prison with Hershal? Did Carol die or something..Was she hurt and Hershal was looking after her. A few people seemed different, three. Three he knew would always know something before anyone else about things. Rick, Maggie and Beth. Rick was the leader, he always knew. Beth was always the first one up, she would know. Maggie's sister always knew and so did Hershal always know, so she would be told somehow. Hershal knew, he wasn't there. That left Carol. The concern must be able Carol. He looked at Rick and scowled, "what ya hidin'?"
Rick tensed, looking everywhere but at the hunter, "nothing Daryl, why?"
Daryl growled, "I can tell ya hidin' somethin'. Beth and Maggie know as well" He pointed towards the two fidgeting women who backed up into the kitchen.
Rick sighed, "It's not be for to tell"
Daryl stood up quick, "Then who is it to fuckin' tell, Rick? Huh?"
Rick looked up at him and gave him a serious face, "I can't say"
Daryl smirked with neglect, "I already fuckin' know"
Rick's eyes widened, "what? How?"
Daryl shook his head and chuckled, "Hershal and Carol ain't here. You, Maggie and Beth seem different, an' ya three and Hershal always know what happen first, and Carol ain't here. Somethin' is up with her and Hershal is with her"
Rick was surprised, his nodded his head slowly, "damn"
Daryl made his way towards the cell block, his smirk fading to a frown as fear gripped him, but what was wrong with Carol?
Carol was lying down on her bunk. The feelings she let go earlier had drained and now she was restless in bed, having Hershal check her over, making sure her and the baby we're ok for now. Tell her what she needed to do to help the baby come easy and be ok.
"Ok dear, you need to eat more. Everything on your plate. Meat, fruit and vegtables. You need rest, don't over do yourself. And don't work yourself up, don't cry much, don't get your blood running high with fear or anger. Don't yell much. No fast movements-" Carol zoned out, already knowing these things from Sophia's pregnancy as Hershal explained everything already known by all pregnant women.
Once he was done, Carol opened her mouth to speak, "anything wrong?"
Hershal smiled, "no. I can't tell everything about the baby yet, but soon i'll be able too. I know, for know, your doing fine. Just do as I told and everything will be alright"
Thats when they heard his boots coming towards them. Hershal looked toward the cell door, he knew who it was. She knew who it was.
It was the one man who started this, who got her into it. The hotheaded one that she began to love and care for. The redneck who was abused just as she, the hunter of the group and the one Rick looked to for final answers to decisions. The man who made this miracle in her and is part of the miracle in her.
Daryl.
A/N:: Sorry for the cliffhanger, I am just so happy how this is turning out. :D Its doing so good in my eyes, I got over the sorrow i'd been through over that story ending...but that doesn't mean i'm gonna let my other feelings come in...this will be a angst and sad story...VERY sad and full of stuff that will make you want to sharpen your pitch forks and light your torchs on me...but hold in there, some parts will be ok...well AFTER all the heartbreaking moments and shit...but yeahhhhh. okkkkk.
Song used is the same from chapter 1, Hear Me by Imagine Dragons...love the song sooooooo much!
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