Looking for Love

Tsukasa: Don't Say You Love Me kind of started with a reversed cliffhanger, didn't it? Well, this will remedy that. This "Fanfiction" is a look into Touko's travel journal from when she first starts out her journey, covering her run ins with team plasma, her gym battles, and even her confrontations –among other things- with N. But it doesn't stop at the championship, continuing all the way to the start of Don't Say You Love Me. Read and enjoy!

I don't own Pokémon, only this idea!

P.S. This will be long ^-^'''

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Day 3 First Entry

Today I got a package at the Pokémon Center. Inside was this journal. I know, it's actually a diary, but that's too girly an item, so I'm calling it a journal.

Apparently, Mom wants me to keep track of the events on my journey so I can look back on them one day. Doesn't sound too interesting to me, but I figured what the heck, you know? Well, this marks my third day. I made it to Accumula town, and something really odd happened. I met a boy. Yes, a boy other than Cheren. He challenged me after some old dude ranted about Pokémon freedom. On that topic, total crud on his part. It made no sense. Pokémon freed from humans? Why?

Back on track though, I beat the boy, who named himself N. He somehow communicated with my Oshawott! I have no idea how, but he knew what my Pokémon was saying... he could feel it's emotions, and I could feel something from him. He gave off a sad vibe... it was nerve wracking. Well, I'd better wrap this up. In short, hectic day!

Day 6

I can't believe how hectic each day has been till now! But I think I can finally rest a bit. First off, yesterday I beat Bel. She didn't put up much of a fight, but I don't think she was trying too hard. She really tries to baby her Pokémon, so she doesn't push them that hard. Then today... Hoo boy, today. Right out the door at dawn, I entered the Pokémon School and the next thing I knew I was battling Cheren. He was WAY harder to beat than Bel, but Oshawott and I pulled through. Oh yeah, I still only have Oshawott. I really don't care much about the pokedex, I'm just going to catch what catches my eye, and focus only on them. Otherwise, it's kind of cruel to those other Pokémon who just sit around doing nothing. Anyways, after our battle, Cheren suggested something odd; he's trying out for the Pokémon league, and suggested I try it out myself and see where I go with it. Honestly, I have no idea what kind of trainer I want to be, but being the Champion does sound kind of glamorous... which isn't really my thing. Oh well, I decided to try it out anyways. Come dusk, I entered the Striaton city gym and took on Cilan. It was tough, considering the type difference, but just when all seemed lost, Oshawott evolved into Dewott! I couldn't believe it! With its newly learned Fury Cutter move, he sliced right through Cilan's Pansage. It wasn't an easy victory, but we pulled through. Maybe I am cut out to be champion? Maybe... Maybe...

Day 13

Not much to say today. I caught my first wild Pokémon though. Roggenrola... Sounds like rock and roll, doesn't it? Weird...

Day 15

I caught a Sawk Today. Man he is buff. I know I'm supposed to be too young to be into this stuff, but if I ever get a boyfriend (hah!) I hope he's buff too. Speaking of boys, I have to admit N is kinda cute, in a weird... VERY weird way. Yep, I met him again... we battled again, but afterword, he showed me around Nacrene City. It was fun. I hope we do it again. At the end of the day we parted ways, but... something about him, it's really bugging me...

Day 16

I got my second gym badge today. Rock'n'roll (my Roggenrola's nickname) beat the tar out of the gym leader (Lenora)'s butt. It was a cinch since I had a defensive advantage. But something odd happened after the battle. A group of people named Team Plasma stole a dragon skull from the museum the Gym was built under. Of course, I had to take charge when everyone was running around like scared chickens, chasing after them. I searched all over Pinwheel Forest, and, after listening in on them, I tackled the leader, using Rock'n'roll and Dewott to distract while I grabbed the skull and took off for the museum. I got a moonstone as thanks, but what I'll do with it I haven't a clue. Whatever, I'll find something to use it on one day.

Day 26

Another day, another Team Plasma run in, and another gym badge. Happy day!

Day 32

I guess N and I have become closer than I thought. He took me on the Ferris wheel in Nimbasa City... and... well, he took me into his arms and held me close... I wonder... was the feelings I felt what it meant to be... no, I barely know the guy. Back on topic, he told me something very unusual, yet also very important. He is the leader of Team Plasma. Again. He. Is. The. Leader. Of. Team. Plasma.

Day 59

It's been a long while, journal. I've just been so busy that right after the day ends I fall right to sleep, leaving no room to write. But today... something interesting happened. I know, when does anything non-interesting happen to me, but this was... special. After N challenged me to another battle, he took me out on a date! I couldn't believe it, but we went clothing shopping in Mistralton City. This was also the first day it snowed, making it... magical. That's the best word for it. The best part was when I talked N into trying on a white shirt with black overalls. It was hilarious! He looked so weird, yet his awkward looks and persistence in trying to work with the look was adorable. The one problem was, despite his asking me in the first place, he wasn't all too into it. But I think that's just the way he is... it's definitely cute, that's for sure. Well, off to my next gym battle!

Day 65

Today, I had some issues with my trainer title choices. A few days ago, a young biker took me under his wing and taught me how to ride a motorcycle. Being so young, I had no idea what to expect, but I actually did pretty good. He could also tell by my attitude I had some promise in both the biker and roughneck statuses... but today, I took on an Ace trainer who was a veteran from another region. I had no idea what to expect since my pokedex couldn't register any of his Pokémon. But somehow I pulled through. It drove the guy nuts that he lost to a rookie like me, and his girlfriend nearly passed out, but when we all calmed down and talked, he said I have true potential to be the champion. I already met the current champion, and honestly, he's kind of a roughneck in his own way. WAY different from what I thought it would be. I don't know... maybe I really should try to be Champion. I haven't lost a single gym battle yet... maybe... maybe...

Day 85

I can't believe it. N actually did it. He befriended Reshiram... and now he's off to destroy the world, so to speak. I just... how could I have been so wrong about him? I look back at the times we had, then... and now... Oh great, I've got tear stains on the journal... but really... what did I see in him? Yet... there's still hope... according to him, I'm chosen too... I can befriend Zekrom and beat him! I have to! Here I come, N! I will defeat you!

Day 96

This is it. I have my final badge. I've decided: I will become the champion. I'm going to become the champion and defeat N, then protect the peace between Pokémon and trainer until, in turn, I too am defeated. That is my decision. And if anyone stands in my way... Cheren... I will defeat you too.

Day 103

I've defeated Shauntal, Marshal and Caitlin. The battles took hours... thankfully, there's a rest stop for trainers, however, my Pokémon aren't allowed to rest. It's cruel, but I released them from their pokeballs to continue training. Don't worry guys, I just need a little bit of rest...

Day 104

I didn't make it in time. N beat Alder. By the time I arrived in the champions chamber, the battle was coming to a close. Alder begged N with all his heart not to separate people and Pokémon, but N wouldn't hear of it. I was heartbroken, but as Team Plasma's castle emerged and fused with the buildings around us, I knew once more I had to stop this madness. I will defeat you N!

Day 105

Alder allowed me to rest a little before I ventured into the castle. I couldn't believe my ears when I was welcomed and treated as a guest. No battles, free items, infinite knowledge of their plans... but as I traversed the castle, I stumbled across some information that shocked me, then when I entered N's room... I could feel the torment and anger held in the room... All his life, N was all alone... He had nothing but Pokémon and his toys... I know it's not right, but they said I'm allowed to rest wherever I like... I'm staying in N's room tonight.

Day 106

I'm crying as I write this entry. I did it. I actually did it. I became a chosen hero and resurrected Zekrom, befriended it, then defeated N with it... Then the truth came out with Ghetsis. He's been behind this whole scheme from the start. He wanted control of the world, and being the only person with powerful Pokémon would have allowed it... but I stopped him. I destroyed his pokeballs and released his Pokémon from his evil grip before he took off... then N and I... the final attack my Zekrom used blew open a hole in the wall, leaving N room to run. He jumped on his Reshiram's back and... he told me to follow my dreams... to become champion and fight for what I feel is right... and then he left... But what are my dreams? I wish he would have stayed just a little longer... so I could figure it out...

Day -

I don't even know what day this is. It's been a year since N left. I love my Zekrom, but I don't use him in the league. He's just too powerful, and it's unfair to the elite four to have to face him. But due to my noble actions, I just can't seem to win... until now. I finally beat Alder. In truth, I could beat everyone but him. I lost countless amounts of money, both in battle and buying items, but I finally did it. I'm champion! Now... I'm going to become like Alder and travel... I must find him... I have to find out what my dreams are... with him...

Day -

I found this old journal again... I can't believe how long it's been since I wrote in this thing. Well, let's catch up. I'm fifteen now. Still the champion, though I'm called a badass now. Oh yeah, I curse now. Yep, it just comes naturally now. It's so not ladylike, but hey, who says I'm trying to be a lady? (hell yeah!) I'm still searching for N... I can't believe it's been five years... and I still haven't found him... Heh, no tears this time journal. I'm kinda burned out of them after so long... well, let's just say I'm getting close. I've been hearing rumors about a tea green haired kid wandering the Unova region. I'm coming for you N. Your ass is mine!

Day -

I found him.

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"Where... the hell am I?" I asked myself as I tore through several low trees before skidding to a halt. I could hear a voice... and another... a Pichu? My travels through all the regions allowed me to recognize almost all Pokémon cries... I crept forward, looking through the branches to see a young man with green hair standing in front of a small pond, a yellow mouse in his hands listening to him as he talked.

"I don't know little guy... I just can't get her off my mind... what do you think I should do?" the young man asked the Pichu, "I'm sure she's looking for me, but if she finds me... what should I do? Should I face her, or?" He shook his head at the thought, "I'd probably just run." The Pichu spoke up, talking back to him. Yes, N could still speak to Pokémon. I took this brief moment to step out of the brush, the Pichu catching sight of me, though he stayed quiet as I put a finger to my lips and signaled to stay quiet. The Pichu knew who I was immediately, and smiled as it continued to talk to N as though nothing was wrong.

"You think so, huh? I don't know if I could though." N chuckled, not noticing me get closer and closer, until finally I spoke up, "Still talking to Pokémon, huh?" he spun to face me, "Tou... Touko..." He stuttered, shocked by my presence, "I heard all of that... still can't stop thinking about me, huh?" he took a step back, and just as he began to run, I took his hand, pulling him back to me, into my arms, "Do you remember...?"

N just stood in shock, not knowing what to do, though he did silently say, "No... remember what...?" I giggled at his question, "On the Ferris wheel... you pulled me into your arms... just like I did to you now..."

"Oh... Oh yeah..." he stuttered again. I couldn't help but think he was cute, even with how handsome he had become. Yes, I did think that. He was handsome. Very much so, to be honest. "Touko..." he began, "Yes?" I replied.

"Let's battle."

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I stared at him in shock, "What?"

"I said let's battle."

"For what?"

"For this Pichu" N laughed as the Pichu let out a quick "Pii?" of surprise.

"Wha... what? Are you listening to yourself?" I asked, though he quickly explained, "This Pichu needs someone to take care of it. I know you're champion, but I wonder if you're still the amazing trainer you used to be... So come on, let's see who gets to keep this Pichu!" for the first time ever, I could comprehend what he was saying. His speech had slowed down to the point where it was understandable. I thought about it for a moment, then smiled, reaching for Zekrom's pokeball, "Alright, let's do it!

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I won the battle, and with the win I not only got a Pichu, but I also got N to travel with me. I can't wait to see where we go from here!

Day -

I... I don't know what to think here... N he... he tried to... I don't know...

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"N, are you sure?" I asked, staring up at the large sign. It certainly was a tea shop, but it was so fancy that it had to cost a fortune, "Of course I'm sure" he smiled as he led the way in, dragging me by my arm- something I was accustomed to doing to him.

We quickly found a seat amongst the large groups of people, though I could tell N's eyes were only on me. I was wearing a red long sleeved shirt that went apart from my usual style as it looked quite feminine with frilled trimmings along the neck and end of the sleeves. But, just this once I was going to look good for N, and my usual clothes wouldn't match his laid back blue shirt with brown slacks. Too fiery I have to say.

So with my red shirt and black skirt I kept N's eyes on me, and before I knew it he was feeding me part of his strawberry shortcake... though it wasn't odd. It was indeed an indirect kiss, but it felt right. We laughed and talked, we acted just like a couple, even though we weren't. At least, I didn't think we were...

But then he asked me to close my eyes. I couldn't help but wonder what he'd do now, but I agreed and kept them shut... and even as I felt his breath near me, I kept them closed, praying he would, and at the same time, wouldn't kiss me... but he did. He kissed me. I knew he wanted me to, but I didn't kiss back, though I did savor his warmth for a moment before I finally opened my eyes and, although gently, pushed him away, turning away to hide my apparent blush. I hated myself at that moment. I wanted it, yet I didn't want it...

"N... Natural... why did you just do that...?"

"Because I... I..." N just sighed, quickly correcting me, "It's N... and I just... wanted to try it. I guess it was a bad idea." He quickly stood, placed his napkin on the table, and then headed for the door. I looked down at the table before putting my hands to my face. "What have I done...?" I took one last bite of my chocolate mousse cake, and then took off after him. "N... I'm sorry..." I whispered as I began walking at his side, though he didn't hear me... it was probably better that way though...

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Day -

N and I have been rather distant since that day. Both of us keep trying to make advances, but we both stop at the last second, deciding to remember what happened at the tea house. We're right now half way to Nimbasa City... I wonder what will happen to us from here on. I noticed that I have a habit of stroking my Pichu's ears whenever I get nervous...