Chapter 2 finding kayden
'Kurt I can't find kayden.' my dad yelled to me from kaydens room.
Soon as he said this I knew where I had to go. I turned and sprinted out of the house through the back yard and into the woods, I knew exactly where kayden would be. About halfway into the woods there is a small clearing he showed me last time I visited, I remember him telling me it would be our secret place just for us two brothers. Sure enough when I got there he was sitting on the ground with his back to me.
'Kayden.' I spoke quietly to inform him of my presence; he turned, looked at me and smiled sadly.
'Hey' he said back sadly.
I eyed the ground with a curled lip before sucking it up and walking over to where kayden was sitting.
Eyes that had fallen closed once more at his approach suddenly shot back open when I gracefully sat myself down on my brother's lap.
"Kurt—what the hell!" my younger twin gasped from under the extra weight while bringing cold hands to my hips to shift me to a more comfortable position.
I allowed my brother to move me without protest from where I sat sideways on him.
"You're crazy if you think any of that is going near any of this," I sniffed with a mock haughty air, gesturing first to the ground then to his designer jeans.
kayden rolled his eyes at the sight of them, the previous blue now a more stormy gray. Silence fell comfortably between us after that, each lost in our own thoughts.
"Why are you here?" kaydens voice cut in a good ten minutes later.
"Because you're here," I answered softly, picking lightly at my sleeve before lifting my gaze to meet my brother's. "Because you're not an openly emotional person and so you would go where people can't insistently hound you to see how you're coping. Because you don't want to be forced to feel something you don't."
Our eyes stayed glued to each other as I leaned in to rest my forehead against the colder one before me.
"Because only I can see you cry. And if you can't...then because only I can cry for you," I finished quietly.
Silence fell over us as we simply stared at each other. I had no idea how long we might have sat there if our dad hadn't texted us to come back to the house to eat. Just as I was about to push myself to my feet, kaydens arms found their way around my waist and held on tightly.
"Sing," my brother breathed against my ear.
The strange request confused me. i was just about to tell him so when kayden gave me another tight squeeze.
"Sing." This time his voice had a firmer edge.
Sighing, i relaxed against the warm body. "Sing what?"
There was a few seconds of silence before, "Blackbird... mom's song"
Swallowing some saliva to moisten my throat, i opened my mouth and started to sing. i was just starting the second verse when i felt Carson's cold cheek press against mine.
"You said you would cry for me..."
i closed my eyes at those words, my voice a little shaky as i continued with the song. Before i could get my own tears to well over, i felt hot moisture burning a path down his cheek.
Neither of us said a word about it.
