CHAPTER 2 - Ariana's POV

Luckily, my face of hate was pretty much painted on my face, because i wasn't about to let them see my vulnerability. I kept focus, pretending to shove it off, but, i couldn't, in my head i was being pathetic and weak, but i didn't know what to expect before i met their faces, i was scared before that final glance, then i went into defense mode. I didn't know why, but Heather Morris and Naya Rivera, were standing beside me…on both sides actually, on my right, they were in the flesh, on my left they were on my TV. I let my eyes look over to the Tv before finding their faces again. I swallowed, frowned and looked down at my hands before ending the silence. "What are you doing here?" obviously they were not expecting that reaction, they kept looking sideways at each other then back at me, then at each other before Naya answered, "We, ugh, came to talk i guess?" I snickered, again by accident… ok a little by accident, "Wow…" I guess they felt a little sense of hope wash over them because they let a small smirk go until i opened my mouth and made them feel like shit again. "Explains so fucking much now doesn't it? Everyone else fucking gave up, obviously I'm closer to the end then i thought, your their last resort, hows it feel? huh? Did you just come here to try and save me, try and fix me, feel sorry for me, make me feel better that at least someone pity's me? Well ya know what? i don't fucking want it, if thats all your here to do, just get the fuck out and while your leaving, just know I'm not gonna be sad that yet another person has walked in and out that door only to never see me again. Whatever, just, whatever. By the way when you leave, tell Dianna i want her." I was close to tears, i wanted them to stay, i wanted them to save me, but i couldn't bring myself to let them in, they're famous people for god sake! they make hospital appearances and probably get paid for it, they don't really care, but i wanted them to, so bad! I looked back to my Tv and turned it off, i was close to tears, i just made them feel worthless, but it still made me feel so pathetic, did i really hate people that much? yes, yes i did, and thats what i did, i didn't let anyone try and get a glimpse at myself.

I kept my eyes forward, using the peripheral vision to see what they were doing, at least by doing that my concentration was on them and not on the tears that were welling in my eyes, the very tears i was forcing back. I saw them move, but it wasn't away, in fact it was closer, and it wasn't on the chairs they were using before, Heather sat at the foot of my bed on the right side and made herself comfortable and Naya on the left, my feet in between. I wasn't sure if i wanted the closeness yet, so i pulled my feet up and pulled them loosely into myself. They exhaled when i distant myself from them. They didn't say anything, they just sat there. Three hours went by and Puck walked in, "Ugh, ladies its like an hour past visiting hours, should i tell Di whats up or what? i really should kick you guys out, but Ari here is my little buddy and considering she hasn't done anything stupid yet…right Ari?" His eyebrow raised in my direction, and i shot him a little devil smile, "i might let you guys stay a little longer…" he continued. "Actually Puck we should get going, we don't wanna get you or Ariana into trouble, and no nothing stupid has happened, however if Dianna is still here, id love a word" Heather didn't like using the word stupid, or so it sounded, it made her sound uncomfortable. "Sure thing, Blondie." Puck left to get Dianna and Heather looked expectantly towards Naya and they both adjusted their eyes on me, they needed to say something, but by the looks of frustration on their faces, they didn't know what to say. "Naya and I would like to talk to Dianna, hopefully sort something out here, but, we will be seeing you tomorrow, from eleven am, till whenever someone removes us. Im really hoping we can get to know you tomorrow Ariana." Heather placed a hand on my knee and Naya reached for the bottom of my leg, i flinched at their touch and drew my legs in closer to my chest so i resembled an anorexic ball of ripped and scratched human flesh.

Heathers POV

We couldn't believe what we just witnessed, usually we light up a room, as selfish as that sounds, but it was just a shock to see that Ariana didn't even so much as give a tiny reaction. It was actually refreshing, even though the pure hatred that was just emitting from her. Naya and i thought for a second we had her when she flicked her eyes between us and the TV but then she went and flipped out, like the thought of having someone there scared her. Like she felt intruded upon, i could feel her walls slowly falling, particularly when those few times occurred, a single tear would just fall from her face and into her lap. Sometimes it was a couple of tears, sometimes just that single one. It seemed as though she was mentally, physically and emotionally killing herself, but unintentionally. Ariana wanted to seem in control of herself, but i just cant help but think that she actually has no control over herself, that she cant make those tiny changes in oder to make that step, although something is telling me she has tried and fought with herself to change, but lost the internal war only to end up losing to a mental blood bath that took a toll on her in every way possible.

When Ari let lose for those few seconds, saying that everyone leaves, i could feel Naya tense up, she's been there, she has had people give up on her, leave her. I wish i could have just held her and Ariana. Naya and i were heading back to my house, we were in my car and i let my hand free of the steering wheel and let it fall to Naya's thigh, "You okay?" I could see the emotion forming on Naya's face before she spoke, "She's just…so, broken" Naya was confused and frustrated, she had been there, not in that state but she was depressed for while after losing her family because she told them the truth. They had tried at first but then gave up, its been four years, almost five and still nothing from her family, she was a lesbian, committed to Heather, she even tried to change to get back in with her family, but just gave up the fight, so tired of fighting, so tired of being fake. She was a grown woman, capable. Im not sure what she was going through during the year before we met, once Glee had started, she let herself go a little, she had a new family now and her families, families love her too. At least she had one true family member left, her uncle.

"You wanna talk about it babe?" I wished i could have just scooped her up in my arms but i was driving and her eyes had that glaze over them. At least i knew what she would be doing for a few hours that night, luckily the following day was saturday, she could rest up before our visit to Ariana. "I don't know what to say, i mean I've kind of been there but, what derailed her in the first place? why cant she just slowly come back? i feel like i need to know so much, i feel like she is dependent upon me, upon us. I just wish i could make it all go away for her, its not right…" I sighed, she was racing over so questions in her head, i could tell that wasn't going to let this go, that Ariana was just gonna be another kid to her, she was gonna mean a lot to Naya, and myself for that matter. This kid is thirteen years old, and already has a story, a past, her present wasn't much and her future was very, very uncertain. "I cant just leave her Nay, like i don't know what it is, but your right, she has no one, she is just a kid, and … I'm trying to comprehend it i guess, such an extreme situation for such a young girl, nobody should ever have to go through that." my heart ached for both Naya and Ari, Naya because i loved her, Ari because she needs someone and i cant even think about turning away from her.

We arrived at my house, i got out straight away and walked up to the door, Naya was slowly in toe. I unlocked the door and began to walk in, but she didn't follow, she just stood there, her hands in her back pockets, looking at the ground. "You comin?" i asked. "Ugh, i think i might go to the track for a bit, ill txt you when i get there." Nay seemed dazed, racing was her thing, she needed it, like i needed dance. By the time she finished i was down in front of her, i knew she could sense the worry i had over her. Thats probably why she said she would text me. Her right arm pulled me gently in at the waist as she reached up and kissed me tenderly, it wasn't long but it was soft and caring, "Night honey." I didn't have the best feeling as she left, her hot pink, done up Toyota Supra being ripped up the street towards her Uncles track.

Once i wondered into my house, i found my self changing into a pair of sweats and a tank top, and heading for my dance studio in the back yard. Obviously i needed to clear my head too, its ten PM and I'm blearing hip hop beats and moving my body at an extreme rate.