Get Over It
Callie chose Erica over Arizona, but took her best decision? And Arizona is in a new relationship, joining the pieces of her heart with ribbon and glue; But is that enough, she may forget some Latina brunette who hurt her just six months ago?
Romance / Drama
Callie T., R. Arizona
Chapter 2 Agony
Six months ago
Arizona Pov
"Callie?" I knew exactly what I was asking, but was afraid of the answer of my girlfriend.
"I can't ... I can't do this Arizona" in a moment I was confused by her words, but then she looked at me, and I could literally feel like my world was spinning.
Then she spoke again "I know you're hurt, that I am the cause of that pain, but you have to know that that was never my intention, I never meant to hurt you the way I'm doing it and believe me when I tell you it hurts me it so much as it hurts you ... "
She didn't finish speaking when I interrupted
"'This hurts you as much it hurts me'? What the hell are you talking about Callie? Are you telling me that after all the time we've been together, you just don't love me anymore and want to get back with her?
"I love you" she said
"Nice way to show your love Callie"
"I know that I love you and I thought I had forgotten her forever and I would not mind if she came back again to my life, but I was wrong, I made a mistake ..."
"So now I'm your fucking MISTAKE?" I was screaming now, I was so angry at her and that damn woman was to appear now, just when I was happy with Calliope ... or at least that's what I thought, I thought that I made her happy.
"Arizona, I'm sorry, I'm sorry you can't think ever that you were my mistake, my mistake was thinking that I could just be with someone else when I hadn't passed to another yet, I don't regret all the nice things we live together I could never forget you babe ... "
"Do not call me that anymore ... it's good to know that I was just a rebound girl now, at least I can now get on with my life knowing that the woman I love loves me but is not in love with me anymore and that definitely my mistake was thinking that once you be completely mine Calliope "
She is troubled by me using your name, I just use your full name when we are in bed making love or when I'm happy just to have her in my arms telling her how much I love her, but now all I feel is ... sadly , agony, anger and a lot of pain to use that name.
"I sincerely hope that someday you can forgive me for hurting Arizona in this way, but I prefer that not to continue lying to you any longer, I had to be honest with you and tell you the truth before it all came out of my hands and end up screw it up even more with you. Sorry, please forgive me" she finished saying.
I don't know if I want to just slap her for the so stupid thing she just said or for her not see that that woman will never be able to love her as much as I do.
"Thanks for being so very honest Callie" I say sarcastically, I turn to the door of her apartment and say exactly the words I was thinking "I hope you'll be happy, but certainly she will never be able to love you as much as I love you Calliope "with that I close the door to her apartment abruptly from the wrath that is running my body right now.
I'm lying on one of the beds in the emergency rooms of PEDs wing, remembering ... remembering that day when Callie without further dumped me to be with the infamous Erica Hanh and every time I remember that conversation hurts me more and more. I keep thinking that I shouldn't mourn more for it but inadvertently tears run down my face without any restrictions and I can't stop them and my head hurts for the effort not to make me listen and that huge lump in my throat torn me soul and makes it hard to breathe.
But then I hear the door open in a silent tone and then I can feel the change of bed announcing that someone is on my back and put her arm around my waist pulling me closer to her, at that moment I turn around and I bury my head in the crook of her neck, pulling her impossibly more closer to my body shaking, I can smell her delicious scent and feel the warmth of your lips giving me a small but meaningful kiss on my head.
We were in that way for I don't know how long, but I don't want to let her go, I don't want to let her go now or ever and she gives me little massage on my back as always used to when I was in a state of agony with any of my patients, but now she is the one who is causing my pain and she knows it, so I open my eyes and I know they are swollen because I hurt so much for me mourn on her shoulder, but I don't care because the next second I'm jumping out of her body and the bed where we were both. I'm frantically searching my shoes and when I wear them I raise my eyes to her and see the guilt in her eyes, guilt is something I don't want to see so I'll say ...
"You must stop trying to find ways to redeem yourself, I'm not your girlfriend anymore, you can't just come and hug me when I'm distressed when you feel like it, you don't have that right anymore, so leave me alone Callie" and with that said leave the room.
The rest of my day was not much better after that, I lost three of my patients are all victims of a car accident caused by a drunk at the wheel. But I survived another day, when I get the Lokers to change my clothes and I look at my phone where I have two messages and three missed calls, all from the same person.
"Dinner tonight at your apartment?" ... "I missyou" - Lauren xo
And I know she does but I'm definitely not for dinner, or pretend to be listening to a conversation and then have sex while I'm thinking of someone else. That's not fair especially for not for Lauren, so I sent her back a short Message.
"I can't ... I was called for emergency"–A
I know that's a lie but I really just want to close my eyes and dawn again to keep putting one foot before the other, trying not to fall apart again.
So when I change into my street clothes I got my bag and left the hospital, to the Joe's bar, needing more than just a glass of white wine, needing something to make me sleep faster and deeper, wanting tomorrow better just a little angst and agony that occurs within me at the thought of the brunette who has literally stolen my heart and apparently doesn't have any intention to return it.
AN1: It would be great to see views and see if I am doing well and if I need to improve.
AN2: I don't speak or write English well since it is not my first language, but I try do the best that I can. So any mistakes are mine or my translator (lol)
