Told you I'd get to it! :) like I said...I'm not a writer. I'm not creative, but JORI MUST LIVE ON!

Jade P.O.V

After the PMAs had concluded, I found Myself in an internal battle that was, I thought, slowly but surely driving me out of my skull! I couldn't believe what I had just witnessed. The girl whose life I'd gone out of my way to make a living HELL...Had the perfect oppurtunity to take the one thing away that had mattered most to me, away from me for good, possibly permanently! It would've been the perfect revenge. Cruel, albeit justifiable. All she could think about was not ruining OUR "friendship"?!

I had not been lucky enough to be "blessed" with the gift of Love from anybody until I met Beck. He's been an incredible friend to me, and we felt we were compatible about 4 months after meeting to give love a try, but after awhile, my insecurities, jealousy, and unrelenting possessiveness started to come out. It was only a once in awhile thing at first, only once or twice a week; then SHE came. First impressions are hard to erase, and the first impression I got was she was trying to take my boyfriend. I had been under this impression for awhile. After that it seemed like she was trying to make up for it by being her, what i soon found out to be, her USUAL perky happy self wanting to assist me with anything she could conceivably think of. I never could understand WHY. I have always been a good judge of character and because of this, I'm a natural pessimist of human nature.

Tori Vega over time started to grow on me, but I never showed it. Every day she continued to surprise me. Her working Then came the PMAs. Beck and I had just broken up 3 months prior. Our fights had become too frequent. Cat had left her laptop open and I saw Tori and Beck talking. Beck was making some lame-ass attempt at humor talking about free hat meat. When I saw him lean in to kiss her, my heart jumped in my throat, but then, inexplicably, Tori Pushed him away. Tori talked about "us" being friends, me and her...and Beck kept trying to talk her out of it. The part that pissed me off the most was when he said "she took your spot in the platinum music awards." Bastard! I didn't do anything to have her basically fired from the PMAs. she told the truth, Mason didn't like it, and when he asked me if i wanted the spot, I seized the opportunity. When she said those 7 words, "I can't do that to a friend", a part of me lit up, but a bigger part of me died. She just broke me. All the guilt anybody could fathom flooded me in light speed and I know I was showing it. I'm surprised that when Cat and Oliver come out with the dress, she didn't ask what was wrong. She usually does.

I knew after this, things had to change. More specifically, I had to change. I now felt like I needed to make myself feel as worthy of her friendship as she felt I was. my first act of, well, repentance maybe...I gave her back her rightful place in the PMA's. After this...Who knows where we'll go from here, but the Jade west Tori has known for the past year is no more. I vow to myself that I will be as truly worthy of her as she believes I am now.

I felt this was a good place to end this chapter. I promise you dialogue "present time" chapters soon. just bear with me. I have a vision for this and I want it to be as good as possible!