The following week we were getting back to normal. Ella was at school, Jon was back on the road and i was busy doing my own thing

Jon and I had been debating and going back and forth trying to figure out what the best thing for Ella is.. Do we keep her in school or do we pull her out and homeschool her? Do we stay home or go back on the road with Jon? I honestly don't know what to do.. I don't want to take her away from her friends or her routine but I also don't want to risk her having a seizure at school and not being there and I can't do this by myself and handle this alone yet..

I was running errands around the house and just picked Ella up from school. We got back to the house and she was telling me all about her day as we did her homework. I was making dinner when I began to feel sick.. I waved it off like it was nothing..

It was until 3 weeks have passed that I kind of started to worry.. I was nauseas everyday and lightheaded I was passing it off as nothing but decided I should go to the doctor which I did this morning while Ella was in school. Jon got home tonight and I was asleep on the couch and Ella was curled up on top of me when he came in I opened my eyes and waved he bent down over the couch and kissed me without saying a word Ella woke up hearing the sound of the door shut. She got up and hugged Jon jumping into his arms tears began to fall

"I just got her to sleep..." I said crying Jon looked alarmed and Ella just looked at me like I was crazy

"I'll put her back to sleep no big deal.." Jon said

"That's not the point!" I yelled getting up and walking up the stairs

Jon came up in our room fifteen minutes later.. I was sitting on the bed

"You okay?" He asked

"Yeah.. I'm just tired.." I said and he nodded

"Well she will sleep through the night hopefully.." He said

"I went to the doctor today.." I said and he looked at me

"Are you okay?" He asked

"Uh yeah.." I said "I've been feeling off lately.." I said he sat next to me "I thought I was pregnant.." I said and his eyes widened and he smiled

"Oh my god.. Babe.. Are you.. Are we gonna have another baby?" He asked

"No..." I said as a tear fell from my eye "they did blood tests and ultrasounds and they found a cyst.. They said the placement of it could make it hard to conceive again... We could only have Ella.." I said and he kissed my forehead and I cried

"I want another baby and we can't have one.." I said

"We thought we'd never have Ella after We lost Aria but we did it just took some trying.. We'll have another baby when it's meant to happen"

"It just sucks.. I was so convinced that I was.. I was so excited to tell you.." I said as I wiped the tears away

"Stop.. stop.. It's okay.. We haven't really been trying.. Like I said We will have a baby when we are meant to.. You're coming back on the road with me so it will be easier somewhat.. Just don't worry about it and get worked up over it just let it happen naturally.. If you need to get surgery to get this cyst removed so we can have a baby then that's what we're going to do but until we get those answers you need to just relax.."