His gaze. 1


"My name is Blaine."

Kurt Hummel who belonged to the team of last year sectional winner, the New Direction. He was right in front of me. Maybe he didn't know him and I were a familiar. When i was in a my ex-school, i had been blatant discrimination and hard pain, so i had come the sectional competition of glee club because of refreshing myself and then i was admired by many team's songs.

Tender and Lovely..

Sing for just his way..

Eyes and Gesture like Fallen..

Known by emotion..

Since then, He jumped into my Eyes.

I didn't know the reason, Cracked a smile he introduced himself that his name is Kurt, and then he said "He is NEW". He asked me why the Dalton's rush students were fuss.

'Are you a SPY, Kurt Hummel?'

I wanted to tell him immediately, but i thought that was boring. I decided to stamp him on me by my song. And i told him the students ran to watch the Warbler's show. Of course I didnt forget to describe Warbler was a Rockstar of Dalton. He was interested so i told him i knew the shortcut and held his hand with my temble mind. I was tensed. It had been a long time to feel like that. Even I couldn't remember when i was holding my lover's hands.. We were running the hall like a children who wanted a candy. When a window slided by one by one, His cold hand like a apple juice getting warm with my hands.

-HEART BEAT

Empty hall, just Him and i were running, Just two of us. I was scared he would notice my heart sound. So i stamped my feet loudly on purpose and i held his hands tightly.


"Oh, I stick out like a sore thumb"

"Well, Next time don't forget your jacket. new kid"

Kurt thought he splashed among many Dalton's blazer because he was wearing a suit. But actually He wasn't. Not by clothes, His Face expression, His motion, His existence, there were all redound to Him. I kept chime with his lie, but also I thought If this situation was real, It was great.. I had been dreamed that He transfered to Dalton so we were going to school together. School life with him, our Christmas, our valentine's day, i was wondering that the dreams come true in real..

Only sad thing, He came to here to see the Warbler's show because the Sectional competition. So just this moment I had one advantage to see him my Main song that was always i wanted to sing to him.

Before you met me

I was alright

but things were kinda heavy

You brought me to life

Now every February

You'll be my Valentine Valentine

just love

We can dance

until we die

You and I

You make me feel

Like I'm livin' a Teenage dream

The way you turn me on

I can't sleep

Let's run away and

Don't ever look back

Don't ever look back

I am get your heart raicing

My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real

So take a chance

Let you put your hands on me

In my skin tight jeans

Be your teenage dream tonight

He had little laugh, and maybe He thought my song was fun. I saw that He grips his bag on his little shoulder. More and More he was get into the rhythm. I was excited to see his movement and I finished my song with my heartbreaking. I really wanted to get across to him my heart.

My heart stops

When you look at me

Just one touch

Now baby I believe

This is real

Now every February

You'll be my Valentine Valentine"


"Are you guys all GAY?"

I asked him because i wanted to know why he cut a crap. But his answer was unexpecting thing. Ofcourse I felt he was a kind of me, but i didn't know his whimsy thing. I was always round him and this time is the first time to ask somthing to him. Even at that time when we had our first tea time, the first word of his talk was warbler's sexuality.. It was really fresh shock! So i was laugh and i answered him.

" No, i mean i am but these two have a girlfriend."

His blue eyes were getting big. And he looked like he shocked and dumbfounded. But right away He expressed his feeling by his face seems to be ready to tears. I guessed he heard about Dalton's prohibition on discrimination. No, i was pretty sure. My heart broke for another feeling. I had seen this face. It had seemed like When i was hearing the Dalton's institution before i transfered to Dalton. His blue eyes made My heart moved again. And that emotion was forgotten.

Hate,

Sorrow,

Ignore,

Ridicule,

Angry,

Contempt.

"Would you guys excuse us?"

My two friends left there seat, I talked to him.

"I take it you're having troubles in your school."

Since then I heard about his come-out story and a savage who were born having mission to make kurt's life hell. I felt he has big sadness because anyone didn't care about him. That Feeling, Only guys like us could understand. Little waver his blue eyes, It was really like a Past-Me. His eyes were full of tears but he didn't want to drop the tears futilely. When I had a courage to Come-Out, But i didn't wanted to be hurt. I shouted somebody to save me when i was stand on the edge of a precipice. But the only echo came back to me so i lamented that why i was born a GAY. My throat was choked because I understood he is livin a life likes mine. I really wanted to tell him transfer to Dalton. But tuition of Dalton was very expensive and suddenly the hard time during Dalton came up on my mind so I told him don't run away.

"Confirm, Call him out!"

Honestly I didn't sure he could handle the things what i couldn't. But also, I was sure I wanted to be a little help to him at least.


"So, you just let him go?

The man who was turning his chair against me, tapping on the table and blowing his top in front of me was Jeremiah. I had known him ever since he and I were flirting with the same guy and then we came to be close. We were both turned down by the same man, after all we understood each other most. Anyway there was an age gap between him and me, we were so called the best friends. When I was with him, I became a different Blaine. More honest. .To spell it out, while I was with him, I was like a fast-running leopard, whereas I was like a trained decent german shepherd in a Dalton uniform. It was more cheerful to be a leopard which didn't know his destination rather than to be a trained shepherd which had to be educated for a mandatory time. And it was a very small happiness to talk to him about Kurt or Warbler without any reluctance after I finished my school day.

"What should I do? Is there anyone who wouldn't feel uncomfortable if someone told them ever since he met him in the sectional he have had a crush on you?. If someone confess like that to me, I would have treated him as a stalker.

To make Jeremiah calm down, I conveyed my thoughts in a soft voice ,fiddling with my cellphone. he was a straightforward person. He gulped down a cup of coffee like cold water. And he took away my cellphone waving his wrist like he was reading a child a lecture.

"Finally you got a chance after just watching him for a year, but did you tell him to fight with him rather than to transfer to your school? Why did you give him such a stupid advice? You have to spend more time with Kurt getting to know him. But you just kicked the chance. Is it true that you like him? "

Jeremiah's clear and ringing voice caused my headache. I responded to his voice, by bumping my head on the table grabbing a handful of my hair. The customer around us paid attention to me for a while, but I didn't care and and I raised my head once again. I sighed with the second sound of a bang, I made an excuse in my mind for my heart's making rational decisions but its being at a loss emotionally.

"But what can I do? At least we traded phone numbers. I understand Kurt's feelings but tuition at Dalton is expensive and I don't want to make him regret like me.

-Bleep

"Ok. Transferred"

The Ringtone of my cellphone was spinning around my ears. It was the text ringtone of my cellphone.

"Ah. What are you doing?"

Looking at Jeremiah's face with surprise, I noticed he laughed like a devil, and he was holding my cellphone. Soon his face changed to elation and started to blow his own horn.

"You approached to him as a adviser, you have to encourage him to the end. And you also need this. Watch and learn. You can be attractive with just this."

He flicked the end of his blonde hair in the back of his head and pushed the cellphone to my chest with wink and flicked his finger again. Surprised by owners calling his name, he disappeared while I was sitting there. I shook my head looking at Jeremiah who was pointing at my cellphone with a wink, and that wink was a sign to look at my cellphone.

Send to Kurt

-Courage


I was sitting in front of the piano in the practice room looking at the score of a song that I want to sing with him next time I meet him. After I finished rehearsal with Warbler I was searching the score and tried to make an MR to an piano accompaniment . I have never felt as happy as today. The sound of piano showed the confidence that his clear ringing voice would match perfectly with my bass voice. It was really excited to just imagine dueting with Kurt, breathing with him, and having the same emotion. It didn't seem right because we were opponents, but it was just my imagine... No, It could come true if we were be more familiar with each other. I finished my melody repeating my rationalization. At that moment my phone rang. It was him. K.U.R.T. It gave me a happy smile that when I was thinking of him and then I got a phonecall from him. Moreover it was a happy and welcoming thing like the sunshine on a cold day for people who have a crush on someone. Immediately I answered the phone.

"B...Blaine... Blaine. B..Blaine"

Over the phone, he kept on talking with a voice fulled with quivering that it made the person on the other end of the line breathless. If it had not been for the caller ID display, I would not have known who was calling. He just said my name breathless and his voice became high-pitched voice. All of a sudden, I was worried about him.

"K..Kurt? What's wrong?"

"T.. The savage..Blaine, Oh my god. Oh, my God. Blaine, It's absurd. Blaine. "

If it was not a tape recorder, it was a really serious situation. He just repeated OMG and savage. After he repeated it 5times, his high-pitched voice turned into a crying voice with a sigh. He always tried not to cry in front of me, and he controled himself not to lose his calm, so I didn't understand why he reveal such emotion to me in a high-pitched voice .We had only known each other for a short time.

''Kurt, stay cool. What's wrong with you?

There was a 5-second silence with just the sound of breathing in and out. I was not able to hear what he said. No. I didn't want to listen to him. NO. actually I heard it, but I wanted to listen to it again. I thought I had to confirm what I heard. I didn't know my breathtaking was whether his fast speaking or mind taking 5 times repeat of OMG and Blaine. I unconsciously spoke to him in a grave and skeptical voice moving my buttocks from the piano chair

"What? Kurt. Say that again. what?"

"Blaine. I got kissed by the savage!."


This is the first time that I am translating from korean to english. i'm not good at english but because this fanfic was really interesting, I started this work. I hope you guys understand my bad english and enjoy it

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