Disclaimer: Once again, I don't own Gossip Girl! I'm just a fan.

Chapter 2:

As the cab pulled up to the Empire, Blair let out a sigh.

She realized that she'd been so caught up in the moment that she hadn't even thought about what it was that'd she actually planned on saying to Chuck. So much had happened in the months following the accident that she didn't even know where she was planning to start. Sure, he knew about her pact with God but there had been so many other things other things on her mind. She had forced herself not to think of any of them and had pushed herself into what seemed to be happiness and the life she had always dreamed of. But she was the only one who knew why. And he deserved at least an explanation, even if he didn't want her back. She really hoped that wasn't the case, but she had to know that it was extremely likely. Who would take her back after all that? No one in their right mind…

Blair shook that thought from her mind and threw her shoulders back as she plastered on her best smile as she walked through the doors. Nothing would stop her now.

Well, not exactly.

On her way to the elevators, Blair knocked right into a familiar blonde.

"Oh my God…S! I am so sorry! I didn't see you there"

"It's fine B, it happens even to the best of us" Serena hastily replied as she tried to walk away as quickly as possible.

She didn't know how angry Blair was about the whole diary situation, and didn't want to try her luck.

Blair wasn't sure what to do. She needed to talk to Chuck, but she also owed a huge apology to Serena.

Blair figured she might as well kill two birds with one stone, since Serena was already here.

There's no time like the present, right? Blair thought.

She held onto the blonde's shoulder before she could get away.

"Wait S…can we talk about something?"

"Blair…if it's about your diary…I'm sorry…and I am working on it…I was right about to send Gossip Girl something and-"

"Serena. It's not about that. It's more important. Can we please just sit and talk? There are some things I really need to say."

Serena finally agreed, and the two headed to the lounge in the hotel's lobby.

Neither spoke once they were both seated. Blair was debating where to start and was gathering everything she wanted to say. Serena waited nervously for her friend to start.

"So…B…what's up?"

"I have so much to say, but first I just really need to say that I'm sorry." Blair paused. "I'm sorry for what I've been putting you through for the past couple of months. I'm sorry for telling you to tell Dan how you feel about him and then dangling our relationship in front of you. I've wronged you in so many ways and there are a million things I need to apologize for, but mostly I apologize for not treating you like a sister and a best friend"

"Wow B I really-"

"Please S, let me finish."

Serena nodded.

"I feel like other than an apology, I owe you an explanation of what was going on in my head as I did all those terrible things. I was so lost after the accident. I felt like I had finally figured everything out, and then it got all messed up again. And then there was Louis, and I thought that's what I wanted, what I had always dreamed of. But he turned out to be horrible too. So I saw Dan, and I saw that he had some feelings for me. I knew he couldn't hurt me; I knew that he was safe."

Blair paused again.

"So I went for it. But I shouldn't have. I was just running from my problems, but it wasn't helping me or those around me. I know what I did was inexcusable, but I hope you can forgive me somehow."

Both girls were silent for several moments.

"B. Thank you. I really do appreciate the apology, it means a lot. But I have to ask, where is all of this coming from?"

"Surprisingly it came from this whole diary fiasco, which by the way I realize I totally brought upon myself. Anyways, I was ranting to Dan about how I was going to plan your social destruction, and he said it wasn't me. I got angry, realizing he had no place to tell me who I was. But then I realized, I didn't know who I was either. I alienated all everyone who I cared about, and was being a coward by running away from all my problems. I realized the real Blair, or the Blair I want to be would never run from anything. In the process, I realized why I was with Dan and why he was with me. I already told you why I was with him, because he was safe, but he wasn't with me because he 'loved' Blair Waldorf. He was pursuing this relationship because he saw me as that character he wrote in his book. And maybe I was like that for awhile, but I don't want to be anymore. I'm taking back control of my life, and I have to start by apologizing to everyone that I've hurt in the process. I really didn't mean to tear us apart S."

"I know you didn't B. I understand where you're coming from. I do really appreciate the apology, and you've given me a lot to think about. I do want to work on things between us, and hopefully one day they'll be the same."

Serena smiled at Blair and she smiled back.

"I do too S. I'm really glad you're willing to try."

"We'll always be sisters B. But even sisters have to work on things sometimes."

The two girls hugged.

"I missed this"

"So did I B, so did I"

They smiled to each other as they pulled away from the hug.

Serena continued, "Well I do believe you have someone else you need to talk to, isn't that right?"

"Very right. I'm so nervous, but if anything he deserves a conversation. I don't expect him to take me back…"

"You'll do fine! Now go!"

"Alright! Love you S! I'll call you later, okay?"

"Sounds good. Good luck B!"

Blair exited the lounge feeling even better than before.

She and Serena were going to work on things.

She was finding herself again.

She was finally starting to be Blair Waldorf again.

She entered the elevator and pushed the penthouse button. She began re-preparing herself for what she was about to do. Now nothing was stopping her, and she was finally going to tell the truth. The whole truth.

As the elevator doors opened, she stepped out and let out a big breath.

This was it.

A/N:

Well there's chapter two! So I know I probably had you guys believing that she'd be talking to Chuck in this chapter, but I promise it'll be in chapter 3! I've already started writing it : )

As usual, I hoped you guys liked it! I thought it was important for Blair to talk to Serena first since I was extremely unhappy with the SB storyline in the finale. I'd like to know what you guys thought, so don't hesitate to leave a review! I love hearing different opinions!

Anyways, new chapter in a couple of days!

Xoxo, thattchuckbasstard