Second chapter.

Not the longest, sorry.

I forgot to tell you in the first chapter that English is not my first language, so please let me know if you find any mistakes, I know how annoying they can be!

Disclaimer: I do not own Castle

'Castle.'

Her voice sounded hoarse, felt like a thousand knives in her throat through her body. Her eyes stung and her breathing was harsh, as if she had just run a marathon.

'Hi.'

He smiled, but the smile didn't reach his eyes. His blue eyes that were so big, and so deep. Confusion was written all over his face.

'I -I am so sorry.'

She didn't know what else to say. What could she say? What just even happened? Thinking about it made her head spin and her blood rush in her ears. She could feel her eye balls rolling upwards.

'Wowow, Kate, stay with me!'

'Hmm?'

She looked at him with hazy eyes. It was really hard to focus. Maybe not focus on his eyes, way too intense.

Kate's eyes glided over his body, until they fell on his hand. They were holding hands, her hand. At least they were connected to her arms, so she guessed they were her hands. She moved her thumb, watching as it stroked over is palm. She was doing this, but she couldn't feel it.

Her fingers followed the deep lifelines on his palm, all the way to the end. She loved his hand, this beautiful big, worn writer hands. Wait, what?

'Kate, sweetie.'

This time it was a soft whisper, it sounded unsure.

'I am so sorry.'

'Why?'

'I -I don't know, for dumping this problem on you, for breaking down, for making you deal with me, with my issues, for -for-'

'Kate!

The words she had spoken had climbed up her chest and throat, now at the top of her airways, making her choke on nothing but emotion.

'Yeah..'

Her breath shuddered while she exhaled deeply. Suddenly it was all really clear to her. This picture of her and Castle sitting here after she had just had a breakdown slash panic attack looked absurd to her, disturbing, so NOT her.

She grabbed her gun and badge, pulled on her jacket and stood on wobbly legs.

With her back facing Castle, she closed her eyes for a millisecond to collect herself and turned around without looking at him.

'You coming Castle?'

'Wait, what? Kate! Beckett!'

Kate turned around on her heels, her face a scary mix of playful and thunder.

'What Castle?'

'Kate, we need to ta..'

'We need to find this man Castle, before he murders again.'

Beckett spun back around with a newfound energy. She was going to find this man, she was also not going to talk to Castle about what just happened. Absolutely not going to talk about it. No way.

'I agree, but we also… right, you are gone…'

T.B.C.

Sweet (rightttt) little chapter. So they have got a lot to talk about in the next few chapters haha. Kate is such a little fighter, she knows how to pile her problems.

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