Bella pov
It's been three months. I am worse than when I heard the news originally I think. It is just hitting me that my Edward really isn't coming back. I am trying to move on, but every other guy I meet…. Well they just a fall short.
" Bella, Jacob is here to see you." My dad calls to me. I don't want to see him, how many times do I have to tell my dad that I don't want visitors.
" Tell him I am busy." I call back down before going over to my radio and cranking up the volume. Music is my only escape these days, and even that sometimes kills me. The songs Edward and I always listened to, hurts the most so I never listen to them.
" Bella!" I hear my dad scram over my music. I turn down the volume so I can hear is newest complaint about my new way of living. " You can't keep hiding from everyone." My dad is trying and the fact he is trying so hard hurts me too.
" I can and I will!" I unintentionally yell at him and for good measure I slam my door and play my music nice and loud. It is one of " those" songs so I quickly change the station and have my radio at full volume.
This is, this will be my life now. I can't live a full and happy life without Edward. Edward in all sense was my life.
A new song comes on. It is one of those dreaded songs but this time I don't change the station. I listen to it and I let my tears fall like rain down my face.
