Kalinda arrived at the cafe where her and Lana had agreed to meet. She was glad she had suggested lunch, so she didn't have to wait longer to have this conversation with Lana. She had found it difficult to focus at work all morning, her mind constantly returning to this very confusing situation she had suddenly found herself in. She spotted Lana at a table in the corner and slowly walked towards her.

Lana smiled an uncertain smile as Kalinda approached her. "Hey" she said.

Kalinda sat down across from Lana and looked her straight in the eyes. "So you're a mom," she simply stated, not being one for small talk.

Lana shifted uncomfortably in her chair. Kalinda's emotionless face was making her nervous. She didn't want this thing with Kalinda to stop now that it finally seemed like they were moving towards something that might eventually could turn into something, but Kalinda didn't seem to share this thought at least not anymore, and that was making her nervous to say the least.

"So I'm a mom," Lana said breathing slowly. She reached across the table and took a hold of Kalinda's hand. "Look Kalinda, I'm sorry I didn't tell you…" she started, but was interrupted by Kalinda.

"Why didn't you?" She asked pulling her hand out of Lana's hold. She didn't like the hurt look that crossed Lana's face, but that didn't make this any better. She wasn't suppose to care about a hurt look, and she certainly wasn't suppose to care about Lana keeping secrets. The fact that she apparently did care made Kalinda want to run much more than Lana's secret did.

Lana leaned back in her chair taking a more defensive approach. It wasn't like she knew everything about Kalinda, far from it. So in Lana's opinion Kalinda didn't have any reason to be angry with her for this, and she was certainly getting the angry vibe from Kalinda right now. "Would you have wanted to know?" she said acting much more calm than she felt.

Kalinda opened her mouth to answer, but then realized that she didn't know. Wouldn't it have ruined this nice casual thing they had going, if Lana had told her about this? Or maybe she wouldn't have cared? Kalinda wasn't sure. She looked down at her hands not knowing how to answer Lana's question.

Luckily for Kalinda a waitress interrupted them at this moment. "What can I get you ladies?" The way too cheery waitress asked them.

Lana wasn't answering. She kept her eyes on Kalinda, seeing that she had hit it on the nail with her last question. She was hoping that this would make Kalinda realize that she had no reason to be angry with Lana about this.

Kalinda looked at the waitress when Lana didn't order anything for them. "Two glasses of wine," she told the waitress. She didn't care that she was going back to work after this and besides one glass hardly made a difference.

"Coming right up" the waitress said and left them alone again.

"Wine, really? You do realize we're going back to work after this right?" Lana said raising an eyebrow.

"So?" Kalinda said sending Lana a half smile which clearly made Lana relax and did a lot to help with the tension between them.

Neither of them spoke again until after the waitress had placed the two glasses in front of them and walked away. They both picked up their glasses and took a sip of the wine.

"So what I don't get is… you're gay, so… how did this happen? Was it before you realized it? I mean, you must have been around fifteen, right?" Kalinda asked, something she had been wondering about a lot since she had met Lana's daughter.

Lana smiled and took another sip of her glass before she answered. "No Kalinda, I didn't get pregnant at fifteen, I have in fact never been pregnant. I met Kelly's mom, Lisa, when I was seventeen and Kelly was two," she told her. "She was my high school teacher," she added.

Kalinda couldn't help but smile at this. This made much more sense than anything Kalinda had thought about. "You dated your high school teacher?" She asked. She found this to be so Lana that she was surprised she hadn't thought about it. Lana was hardly one to back down if she wanted someone - Kalinda knew that first hand.

"Yeah, ehm…" Lana said. She looked down and nervously bit her lip, which Kalinda found adorable, but she quickly shook it off. She wasn't someone to find something like that adorable and she shouldn't be finding it adorable now.

"What is it?" Kalinda asked reaching across the table and taking a hold of Lana's hand. She was curious to find out more about this, so she wanted to make Lana feel comfortable enough to tell her.

Lana looked back to Kalinda's eyes and squeezed her hand. She might as well just tell her the whole thing now; there was no point in hiding anything about this anymore. "I was with Lisa for ten years and well… Including Kelly we have four kids. Kelly at seventeen, Daniel and Christopher at eleven and Emma at eight." She told her.

Kalinda pulled her hand back and sat back in her chair. She grabbed her glass of wine and took a big sip. She wasn't looking at Lana anymore, knowing what kind of look she would find there and she couldn't look at that right now. She had had enough trouble with the fact that Lana had a teenage daughter, but learning that Lana had a family, that she had small children… Kalinda knew there was only one thing to do. It shouldn't be a problem doing it, she was used to it, but it was…

Lana could see Kalinda pulling away both physically and emotionally. This was the exact reason why she hadn't wanted to tell Kalinda. She had known that Kalinda wouldn't be interested in having anything to do with her if she knew about the kids.

"Kalinda listen, it's not that big a deal, I don't even get to see them that much," Lana explained. She realized that that was probably the first time she had ever used that as something positive. "I only have them one weekend a month." She searched Kalinda's face for a reaction. However, Kalinda seemed to barely be listening.

Kalinda was barely listening. She had registered what Lana had said about seeing her kids, but she had other concerns. Something she had thought wasn't that big a problem had now turned into being a big problem.

Nick. Nick knew about Lana. Nick knew about her and Lana. Nick knew where Lana lived.

Kalinda had not meant for him to know about any of this, but she hadn't been too concerned about it when she had learned that he knew. She knew that Lana could take care of herself, that she could protect herself. But Kalinda hadn't counted on children being involved. She had been okay with putting Lana in the middle of this thing with Nick, but she was not okay with children being apart of this. Nick might just be crazy enough to go after Lana's children if he couldn't get to Lana and Kalinda would not have that on her conscience. The only way to get him to back off would be for her to back off.

Kalinda stood up. "I have to go," she said with a voice that showed no emotions. She turned around and started walking away, only to be stopped by Lana's hand gripping her wrist and turning Kalinda back towards her.

"Kalinda," Lana said holding tightly onto Kalinda's wrist. "Don't…"

Kalinda was caught off guard with the look Lana was looking at her with. She seemed so… lost and confused. Kalinda kept her stone mask on though. She had to if she wanted to keep Lana and her family safe. "Let go Lana," she said calmly.

"No, why are you leaving?" She asked.

Kalinda knew that she had to say it. She had to make it clear to Lana, so that she wouldn't try to contact her again. She had to completely cut Lana out of her life, and it had to happen now. Kalinda looked away for a moment, locking her emotions up inside of her, so that she would be able to do this and make it believable.

"I don't want mess. I don't want to be part of anyone's mess." She held up her free hand to stop Lana from interrupting, as she had been about to do. "This is mess and…" Kalinda stepped closer to deliver the final blow, keeping her face clear of any emotions. "You're not worth it." Kalinda then tore her wrist free from Lana's grip, which wasn't very tight anymore and walked away. She needed to get away from Lana as quickly as possible before the hold on her emotions fell.

Lana was left standing in the middle of the café looking after Kalinda as she walked out. She had just been punched in the heart and didn't know what to do with her self. She couldn't believe that she had meant so little to Kalinda and she felt so foolish for thinking that they had actually had something. She was hurt, she was angry and she needed to get out of here.