Author's Note- I changed a few things in this chapter, so I'm reposting. Song is 'Running from You' by Saving Abel. -Reese
Disclaimer- I do not own any of the original characters. They belong to Stephenie Meyer.
Chapter 2 – Running from You
It started when I was on patrol this morning. I heard Jake phase and was instantly thrown into his thoughts, which, as usual, were about Renesmee. Don't get me wrong, the kid's cute, but it's so damn annoying to hear all the pathetic things in Jake's head when he thinks about her. I'm gagging at the memory. So anyway, I don't think he realized I was in wolf form because his thoughts shifted, and suddenly I was the focus of his mind. He started thinking, 'what the hell am I supposed to do about Leah? This is getting out of hand.' Before I had time to hear more, I made myself known. I thought he meant I was being annoying or bothersome in some way. I didn't like knowing I annoyed the members of this pack too. It was bad enough when I was a part of Sam's. So when Jake realized I was there, he tried to act all cool and got a little awkward, so I told him I was going home if he was taking over patrol. That was when Jake surprised me.
"Leah, we need to talk, preferably face to face, and not as wolves."
Oh shit. "Look Jake, I'm going home. You wanna talk to me? Come to the house. I'm out." I phased before he had a chance to say anything else. I had just finished putting on my clothes when I heard him coming into the clearing where I stood.
"Leah."
"What Jake?" Why did I sound so bitchy?
"Leah, can we talk?"
"Isn't that what we're doing?" I really couldn't help the bitchiness. It was my only defense mechanism. I could never let Jacob, or any of the other boys in our pack know about my crush on Jake.
"Le… I don't really know how to say this…" Oh shit. Oh fuck! "I don't know how, but I like you Le. A lot."
Wait, what? My mouth dropped. "You what?" I was too in shock to notice how condescending that sounded.
"I… uh… well, umm… I like you. Like I have feelings for you?" It almost sounded like he was asking permission.
"No. No way. But you imprinted! How is that even- No. This is ridiculous." What was I saying? Shut up Leah! This is what you want! Why are you telling him no??
"But Le, I want to be with you." he whimpered. Oh god, when he called me Le, it made my heart do jumping jacks. It always did. And the whimpering? This was too much.
"No, Jake. You're my Alpha. You're Nessie's. You don't belong to me. You can't." Shut up and tell him you want to be with him too, you idiot! My words betrayed my heart.
"Come on LeLe, don't be ridiculous."
"I'M BEING RIDICULOUS? Jake, look at yourself. Do you really think I would be with you? That I would want to? HA!" Oh my god, shut up, SHUT UP! Please. "I mean come on. You're so young and naïve. You can't have Renesmee yet so you're just looking for someone to obsess over. Just like with Bella." I hit home. I drove the nail right through his heart and I knew it. I should've stopped. I wanted to hold him and tell him I was lying, that I didn't mean it. It killed me to watch the emotion written across his face.
"Is that what you really think of me Le?" he whispered.
"Yes Jake. Quit being so pathetic." Oh god, did it never end? I felt like dying as I watched the pain spread. Jake I'm sorry.
"Ok Leah. I get it. Just forget I said anything. I'm sorry I can't make you happy the same way Sam did." He turned away.
That's when the bitch vanished. I panicked, I had to fix this.
"No, Jake, I'm sorry, that's not what I-"
"Just leave me alone."
My heart dropped. I blew it. I sighed and turn and ran to the one place I knew I could. The Cullens. The tears fell as I ran through the trees, narrowly avoiding tripping over downed branches.
I'm running from you
Can I get any further away?
It feels like the first time... I've been in love
If I'm running from you
Will you follow me down to the end?
If I fall again, will you say goodbye?
Will you say goodbye? Yeah yeah...
I barely made it out of the forest before I stumbled and collapsed to the ground in sobs. The door to the house opened and Alice and Rosalie flocked to my side, comforting me. The sobbing was uncontrollable as Rose shushed me and Alice rubbed my back. Slowly, the tears ceased, and when I looked up, Jasper and Edward also stood over me, looking quite concerned.
"Oh, Jazz, thanks for calming me down. Guys, I'm sorry, I'm a mess right now." I said.
"It's ok. What happened hun?" Alice asked, clearly upset that she couldn't have seen this coming.
"Ugh, It's just… Jake-" I stopped as I looked up at the noise that came from Edward as his face twisted in recognition, then sympathy. He had just witnessed the whole thing through my eyes, mental commentary included.
"Oh, Leah." He leaned down and scooped me up in a hug, taking me by surprise. Edward and I were not close by any means. He knew full well how I viewed Bella and tended to steer clear of me because of it. "I'm so sorry." He whispered in my ear. I couldn't help it. I threw my arms around him as the tears fell once more. He scooped the rest of me up and carried me into the house as Rose, Alice and Jasper followed, still very confused. Edward didn't stop as Seth and Emmett looked up from their game and asked what happened. He simply carried me up to Alice and Jasper's suite upstairs. He set me down on the chaise lounge that was in their sitting area.
Alice, Jasper, Rose, Emmett, and Seth were there behind him. I just laid back and closed my eyes as Edward filled them in on what happened. Instinctively, my little brother growled and clenched his fists.
"I'll kill him for making her cry." Seth growled again.
"No Seth, please." I whispered. Everyone looked at me, surprised that I had spoken. My eyes were closed again.
"But Lees..." Seth whimpered.
"No."
"Fine" He turned on his heel and stormed out. The Cullens that encircled the chaise looked back down at me.
"You ok?" Alice asked
"Yeah… I just don't know what to do." The boys took this as their cue to leave. When just Rose and Alice remained, I continued. "It's just like, I want him more than he could know. What am I supposed say now?"
"You just gotta go talk to him, and tell him you were out of line." Alice said.
"Yeah, or you can throw him down and fuck him like you really wanna do." Rose snickered.
"Oh shut up. This is serious!" I shot back. "I might have ruined my life…"
"You drama queen! Just go talk to him and apologize." Rose told me. I guess she was right. UGH! Stupid Jacob Black, making me cry this much.
"Time to face the music," Edward popped his head in "Jacob's here."
