I poked apathetically at my green beans, waiting impatiently for the horrendous dinner to to end. Draco stared intently at me from a cross the table willing me to look at him, but I could not. Will not. Focusing instead on the piece of roast on my plate I listened uninterestedly to the chatter of our mums. My anger had yet to subside, in fact it was building up at a rather fast pace. I felt my blood boil when he brushed his foot against mine and it took all the power in me not to step on his boots. My mind wandered as I thought of different ways I could torture my dear Draco. I wanted him to feel the pain I had felt, the stab through the heart. Although I wanted to stay mad at him, I could not help feeling weak under his stare. I was vulnerable, and I was naked in his eyes. My anger turned abruptly into agony, I felt once again the melancholy and the pain. My body shook with sobs fighting to break loose.

"Shay dear, what do you think?" Narciassa's voice broke me from my trance. I snapped back to reality and found everyone's eyes one me. I looked blankly at her, confused. Narcissa chuckled, "Have I grown so boring? Your mother and I were asking if you were excited to transfer to Hogwarts."

My heart leaped as I processed her words. "Come again?" I choked.

"The headmistress has accepted your mother's request and is very keen to have you attend Hogwarts. Aren't you happy?"Narcissa looked at me, confused. Surely she thought I'd be ecstatic to attend the same school as her son. I looked across the table, Draco's face was pale as he realized what his mother had just announced. I almost laughed aloud seeing his worried expression. His little secret will be a secret no longer. However, instead of feeling joy or satisfied at his obvious anguish, I only felt heartbroken. Heartbroken by how much he really cared for her.

Smiling I said, "But mum, I would like to finish my education in the states, its my last year after all. Besides, It'll be difficult to blend in at Hogwarts so far into the school year. I wouldn't want to stick out."

"Nonsense Shay. You've wanted to attend Hogwarts for the longest time! Surely Draco will introduce you to some of his friends." Mum replied. Sensing her tone I knew it was best not to argue. I felt helpless as I looked over at Draco. He was staring down at his pumpkin juice. I felt suddenly angry, angry at mum and angry at Draco. I stood up quickly and excused myself. I all but ran to my room and slammed the door shut. This day was just bloody fantastic.

There came a knock on my door. "Shay?" Came Draco's voice from the other side. I melted a bit when I heard him, and I was briefly reminded by all those times he whispered my name. I hear the door unlock and his foot steps come near my bed.

"Shay? Whats wrong? You've been down since you came back from school." He asked concerned

I debated whether I should confront him about what I witnessed. Was I ready to confront him and find out the truth? In my heart I knew the answer was no. I wasn't ready to let him go. It didn't matter how mad I was, I still needed him in my life. He was too important and I loved him too much.

I smiled sadly at him, "Yea, I'm fine. Its just my best friend Shanel from the states has fallen ill and I'm worried." Its amazing how natural the lie sounded, how smooth it flew out of my mouth. I wondered if he was able to spin these lies as easily.

He climbed into bed next to me and snaked his arm around me. I snuggled close to his chest, and I let out my tears. And I was able to cry till my eyes were dry, because he didn't know these tears were for him. He didn't know that my heart broke because of him. He didn't know how torn up I was over him. He didn't know that my whole world revolved around him. He didn't know I just wasn't ready to let him go. He slowly stroke my hair and patted me softly on my back. But the whole time, I wonder if he was even thinking of me, or if his thoughts were actually with her.

Sorry this was kind of short. Next one will be in Draco's view on how he fell in love with Ginny. Stay tuned! :)