good morning, juvia!

another day, another morning for juvia... kind of...


It's morning already? Ah man, I didn't sleep too well last night, for some reason. I wonder if I was nervous about something? I mean… I'm nervous every day when I'm around him anyways. Ah, no Juvia, no! I shake my head and close my eyes, pushing away all the negative thoughts. I have to stay positive! For the sake of the guild!

This week has been really rough. Not many jobs have been posted, so everyone's trying to keep the guild as lively as possible by holding lots of parties and things like that. And that's my favorite part of being in the guild! It definitely wasn't like Phantom Lord… but of course, back then, I didn't really know anything but that guild. I had nothing to compare it to. So, I wake up every morning, no matter what, grateful of how far I've come. I'm so glad I've met everyone that I have!

Whenever I leave my room happy, or come to the guild excited, people always ask me why. Usually, I really am happy! But, I always want to put my best face forward, especially for Gray-sama! If I am not happy, then I must have a pep talk with myself. What is troubling you, Juvia? You are having a rough week, hm? Don't worry, though! Gajeel told you to be tough during Phantom Lord, and you can do anything, because you're in Fairy Tail! Make Gajeel and Gray-sama proud, Juvia! You can make progress with Gray if you stay positive!

I always must tell myself these things. Oh, why is this important? Well, before, of course, I wasn't ever very happy. Often times, I would be alone and watching the skies fill with rain again. I would walk outside and hear people say things about me, like, "Why is it so gloomy? Why can't the rain stop?" Look, I am trying my hardest to make the rain go away! But, it just won't go! Gajeel helped it lessen a while back… but it wasn't until Gray-sama came along where I can be with everyone in the guild and have clear skies all the time! So being happy is the most important thing to me. You can't go to Fairy Tail sad, anyway! Everyone is so caring, I don't think I could leave my dorm without one of my friends asking what's wrong. I guess that's why this morning is a bit of a drag… I hate feeling like my old self, you know?

Carefully, I rise from my bed, and I decide taking a shower would be best to liven myself up a bit. Warm showers always feel so nice, and whenever I am feeling those gray skies returning, the showers put me back in motion. I feel… excited! Ready! I'm gonna tackle the day!

Oof! Ouch… Next second I find myself on the floor of the shower. Guess I got a little to excited, huh… Oh! At least Gray-sama didn't see me make such a fool of myself! I breathed a sigh of relief at this notion. Thank god! Juvia tries her hardest all the time to be as perfect as she can!

Even after my shower, I can't seem to shake the nerves. But, I must be positive! So, even though I am nervous today, and I couldn't sleep, it's okay! It won't be for long. Once I reach Fairy Tail, once I see Gray-sama again, I'll know I still belong in Fairy Tail! "Yes, Gray-sama!" I say, as I reach to hug my Gray plushie. "Today, I just know, will be such a good day for Juvia and you! Are you ready?" I let it go, placing it back on the shelf, and think how nice it would be to hug the real thing. "Ah, Juvia, don't get your hopes up." My voice sounded quite muffled and small. I look at the Gray plushie again, and my heart starts to ache. "But maybe someday," I finally breathe out. Just as sudden, a smile crosses my face and my eyes soften. "Be strong, Juvia, be strong." Hey, it could be today of all days that Gray-sama realizes what he's done for me. But who knows? I guess there's always tomorrow, right?


notes; thanks for reading! stay positive like juvs!