Holding On to the Past

Yaoi, M/M Vampire Romance

© Christie Gordon

All Rights Reserved, eXtasy Books

ISBN: 978-1-55487-851-2

Burb:

With his one true love, Julian, at his side and a new son to look after, Sebastian's grief-stricken past comes out of hiding to find him. As Julian and Nikolai struggle to understand what vampire life should be and strive to live a normal life, Sebastian fights with his demons to allow the freedoms they deserve. But with the queen's band of chevaliers not quite under control and shadows lurking in the night, Sebastian's fears escalate. Can Sebastian find the courage to let go and at the same time give Julian and Nikolai the protection they desperately need?

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PG Excerpt 2:

Sebastian's shoulder shook.

"Sebastian?"

He opened his eyes. The dark bedroom appeared before him. A warm hand shook his shoulder once again.

"I'm sorry, Sebastian, so sorry." Julian's voice was heavy with emotion.

Twisting to his back on his bed, he looked up at Julian, kneeling beside him. He lurched up and tugged Julian down to his chest. "My angel, you are safe." Relief rained down on him. He kissed Julian's hair, cheeks and forehead. "Thank God, you are safe."

Julian sniffled and held tight to Sebastian. "I shouldn't have run away from you. That was stupid."

"It was, but you are here now." He released Julian. "Where did you go?"

Julian raised his head and looked down upon Sebastian. A sheepish smile curled one side of his lips. "I just went for a walk in the woods, that's all. I just needed to think and cool off a bit."

He nodded. "I see…"

Julian let out a long exhale. "Anyway, enough about my stupidity. How are you after getting the news about your friend?" His gaze searched Sebastian's face.

He let out a long sigh. "I'm as good as can be expected. It was very sudden and I suppose it doesn't seem real yet."

Julian's fingers toyed with the bedding next to Sebastian's head. "You seemed to be having one hell of a dream when I came in here."

He bit his lip. "Yes, I was."

"What was it about?"

He looked passed Julian for a second. "My sister's death."

"And?"

"And well, she was killed by the Huns right in front of me. Seems I was never any good at protecting the ones I love." His voice broke.

Caressing Sebastian's cheek, Julian said, "That's not true. You saved me from Nona. And now Caesar is no longer a threat."

A shock of guilt tore through Sebastian's body and he turned his head away.