Warning: This story will contain talk of sex, rape, drugs, abuse, prostitution and slavery. This is going to be a VERY dark story.
This is a fanfiction story based on the W.i.t.c.h. and Serenity (The inspirational manga one) universes. W.i.t.c.h. is owned by Disney and Serenity by Buzz Dixon of Snokie Stories. I don't claim to own these great series.
Session 2
Hi again, I had a pretty eventful day today and I honestly wasn't sure if I was going to write in here or skip a day. Setsuna says it is important to write as soon as possible though so everything is still fresh in my mind so I guess I'm staying up late again tonight to do it.
The morning started off kind of lousy to be honest with my mom and me saying some pretty crappy things. I feel that she doesn't want anyone to love me, and despite Setsuna thinking I should give my mom a chance to defend herself, I don't think my mom loves me either. In a way I understand why she doesn't, then again most of it was ALL her fault! If she never brought THAT man into the house and let him do things to me, let him get me addicted to drugs, none of the other stuff probably would have happened. How can I let her defend herself against that? What kind of defense can there possible be?
At the least the morning took a turn for the better, or worse I'm not sure yet, when Setsuna caught me talking to God. Yeah, you heard me right, I was trying to pray and talk to God even though I'm not so sure he exists. Then again I did ask for a sign the other day and I got one in the form of a giant pink bunny that looked like he was on steroids. I never had a weird dream like that before, who was I suppose to even be, a bad version of that woman from that Grave Raider game. No, that doesn't sound right, Ruin Raider? Tomb Raider? I can't remember, it doesn't really matter anyways.
Anyways, it was weird finding out that Setsuna goes to the same beautiful clearing that I found every morning to relax in the peaceful scenery and pray for guidance to make it through the day to help those in need. Isn't she supposed to be the 'guidance' counselor? Well, I suppose it might work for her, because as much as I hate to admit it, I really like talking to her. Through the god and the bad.
The door to the office swung open just as Will rose her fist to know scaring the hell out of her. There was Setsuna standing there smiling at her with an innocent look that was too over the top making Will realize she was playing with her.
"Hi, I'm glad you made it." Setsuna said, smiling at Will. "I have snacks for after our session and we can go over classes and get what you want picked out so you can start Monday."
"That's...great." Will said, not really meaning it. The snacks sounded great, but she wasn't sure she wanted to talk about more school stuff. Then again, it would be nice to have someone help her decide what classes to pick.
"Come on in." Setsuna said as she led Will into the inner office, shutting the door and turning on the white noise machine to help keep their conversation private. She wanted to ask how they would hear a knock if something important happened, but then again the woman always seemed to know when she was coming if the last two days were any indication. "So, looking forward to the big rave tonight?"
"How did you know?" Will asked as Setsuna handed her a colorful flyer advertising it.
"They're all over the school and from what Mrs. Knickerbocker told me they are supposed to be very fun yet very safe at the same time." Setsuna explained, "Apparently the youth group throws one every few months. They play all kinds of music to so don't think it is only going to be boring stuff. They do keep away from anything offensive and vulgar though and tend to play mostly upbeat music."
"That sounds kind of fun, I have to admit I was a little worried about that." Will said with a hint of relief. She kept picturing just hymns when she thought about it, but wanted to get out and have a little fun without worrying about her past haunting her.
"Don't be worried, just relax and have a good time. I think it will do you a world of good." Setsuna said.
"Yeah, maybe." Will sighed. She was still worried about the adults and hoped that if there really were some there that they would either be ignorant of who she was or didn't care. Either way would be fine with her as long as they didn't make a scene driving her away or worse, be someone who thinks they can get her to sell herself to them. Thankfully the later hasn't happened since she came here except for the bastards on her first day at school, but they weren't adults. It was bad enough that people her age wanted, even expected her to, but there was just something even worse when an adult wanted it.
"So, want to talk more about what we did yesterday or how about this morning?" Setsuna asked as they settled in for the afternoon.
"I don't really want to talk about this morning, I'm kind of embarrassed about this morning. I don't even know if God is real or not. And if he is, I'm sure he has more important people to listen to." Will said with a sigh.
"God does listen Will, to everyone. He is everywhere around us Will, a part of everything. He loves all his children, and you are one of his daughters Will, one of his children." Setsuna said gently, shaking her head at the look Will was giving her. It was easy to figure out that Will was starting to think she was crazy. "Okay, let me ask you this. How does it feel when you talk to him?"
"Well...I'm scared when I talk to him, but I'm not sure if it is because I'm afraid he isn't listening or if I'm afraid that he is." Will sighed as she sagged a little.
"Why would you be afraid that he is listening?" Setsuna asked curiously.
"Because of the things I did in my past and how stupid what I have to say is." Will said.
"Will, nothing you have to say is stupid, especially to him. Everything is important to him from the least worry to the worst. And before you ask, everybody does, God doesn't give you everything you want. He will most often give you what you need or otherwise you wouldn't grow as a person." Setsuna said, watching Will who nodded in understanding after a few moments. "Okay, what else do you feel when you talk to him?"
"I kind of feel a warmth filling me that makes me feel good, makes me feel things I wish my mom made me feel." Will sighed.
"Then for the moment, isn't that worth praying for? To feel that way?" Setsuna asked. "And besides, just like your diary, sometimes talking to God can help you sort out your problems and worries."
"Okay, so maybe it isn't such a stupid thing to do." Will admitted, though she wasn't sure why. She wanted so much to believe that the whole thing was just stupid bullshit, but the way Setsuna put it the woman had a point. She wasn't sure if there was a God, or if he was listening, but it did make Will feel good in a way so she decided it couldn't hurt. Though she had a sneaky suspicion that Setsuna meant for her to keep praying and sooner or later it would lead to believing more and more in it and God.
"Good, now what about your mother? Maybe if you let me call her, I can ask her to come in?" Setsuna asked, "We might find out her side of things from what you told me yesterday." Setsuna said, folding her hands in front of her on the desk.
"No, I don't want her here, remember you promised me she wouldn't know any of this." Will said, a little fear rising in her.
"I did and I will keep that promise, I just think it would be a good idea for both of you. If you don't want to invite her today, then let's talk more about yesterday." Setsuna said softly, "If you are feeling up to it."
"I guess." Will said fidgeting. It was what she was supposed to be here for after all, wasn't it? "Well, I told you about how the guy wanted me to come to him during school when I wanted another fix, right? Well I tried fighting it off at first, but the man wouldn't leave me alone and the drugs already had a good hold on me. I guess some of the kids from my school noticed me skipping classes, including some of the people I thought were my friends."
"What do you mean they were supposed to be, Will?" Setsuna asked.
"We weren't like BFF's or anything, but I thought we were pretty tight you know?" Will sighed as she rubbed at her eyes, thanking Setsuna for the tissue box that the older woman handed her. "Thanks. I guess it turned out that we weren't very good friends after all..."
"I heard Cindy say that your brother got the new X-Men movie, do you think he will let us watch it tonight?" Will asked as she followed Mary into the girl's house. It was Friday night and Will was going to spend the night since it was one of the days that she wasn't feeling so bad from the drugs and just needed to get away from it. She needed a nice, normal night with friends since Mary and her older brother who was the high school football star were her closest ones.
"Maybe, but our parents are away for the weekend and I think they have other plans. After all, they did ask me to borrow Jean's camcorder." Mary said giving Will a grin that made her a little uncomfortable.
"They planning on making some kind of movie or something?" Will asked as she dropped her stuff by the couch.
"Or something, he's downstairs in the basement shooting pool. He wanted us to come down when we got home." Mary said dropping her stuff off to, but pulling out the camcorder and leading the two into the basement. Will personally loved their basement, it was huge and finished unlike her own basement that was rough and more like a room in a cave or something. Mary's family had an entertainment room built with a pool table, air hockey table, some weight benches and an entertainment center with a TV so big it could almost double as a movie screen...or at least in Will's mind it could seeing as how their TV looked so small in comparison.
"Hey girls, grab a beer while they're still cold." Scott said indicating a cooler filled with ice and a lot of dark bottles sticking up from the ice. Mary walked over to grab two while Will stared in shock at Scott, Hank and Peter were shooting pool. Three of the biggest football stars in the high school all there laughing and having a good time while...drinking...
"Come on Will, it's not as bad as the stuff you do." Mary said shoving an open bottle into Will's hand.
"What do you mean?" Will gasped in surprise as she stared at Mary who was sipping her own beer.
"I know you do coke, Will. We all do, but it's okay. We all need a good release now and then since school is so stressful." Mary said taking another drink. With a heavy sigh Will took a drink of her own cursing herself and what was going on as she was looking forward to a nice normal night, but now they would probably end up getting drunk.
"You know, I also know you do other stuff to, Will." Scott said putting his pool cue down before walking over to her as she noticed Mary starting the camcorder and aiming it at then.
"What are you talking about." Will asked as she grew more nervous as she took a few steps back, She was planning on turning and running, but he was too quick. He grabbed her by the hair and yanked her back hard forcing her to scream out in shock and pain.
"Don't fucking play games with us, you little whore." Scott said hatefully, "We hate being played with."
"Please let me go, I don't know what you are talking about." Will cried as she struggled but Scott held her tightly as Hank and Peter came over and started ripping at her clothes.
"Just relax Will, we know you like it. We know you sell yourself to that man for those drugs. Well, my brother and his friends deserve it more than him. They're the town heroes, not some piece of crap like that old fart." Mary laughed, her words slurring a bit making Will realize she was already drunk and enjoying watching this.
"Please stop this." Will sobbed as she struggled but one of the boys punched her in the stomach hard making her double over painfully as Scott let her go to slide to the floor.
"Are you going to stop this bullshit?" Scott asked, "We know you like shit like this and if you're good maybe we can get you some coke to snort to. You'd like that, wouldn't you."
"Answer him!" Hank roared kicking her hard in the stomach.
"Please...let...me...go." Will gasped out between breaths. Instead one of them dragged her up by the hair and threw her on the pool table. She wasn't sure who did what as her vision swam and dots danced in front of her eyes. All she could feel was hands pinning her down, groping her as they ripped what was left from her body before they took turns forcing themselves on her. She didn't know how long she was there, it felt like an eternity, but when the finally left she curled up on the table and sobbed until she feel asleep.
"..." Setsuna was speechless as she looked at Will in shock and sadness.
"It hurt to much to move, but I should have tried. They came back later for more before Mary helped me in some clothes and dumped me out on the street." Will said, her voice sounding dead. "They weren't the first so called friends to betray me, but it was the worse."
"Oh sweetie." Setsuna cried as she came around the desk and gathered Will into a comforting hug. "Did you ever tell anyone?"
"No...the last thing they said was not to tell anyone. They said who would believe me over the town's football stars. And they were right." Will sighed, "Mary...she planted pot n my locker later and got me expelled from school and it was the first time I got in trouble with the police."
It hurt so much telling Setsuna all of that, but she held me. She let me know she was there for me and made me feel loved. Something I wish my own mother would do which is kind of sad seeing how a stranger treats me better than my own mother. Setsuna even bought us more brownies which I'm starting to worry about getting fat eating so many, but I can't really say I care about that all that much.
The rest of the day went well, though when I went to Rachel's I can't say I was exactly comfortable. When she tried to help me changed I almost completely freaked out, but thankfully nothing happened. I really want to trust Rachel and the others, but I have so many reasons not to. So why do I keep finding myself being stupid and trusting them and enjoy being with them when I know in the end they will betray me? Maybe if I'm lucky they won't betray me...I guess only time will tell...
I want to thank my only reviewer for this story so far Penguin Lord0029 and all the support he's shown for both New Bad Girl in Town and Sessions.
