AN:: I'm back! Sorry, it took longer than I expected to get this to you guys. I promised someone an update before Christmas and here it is. I also promised Spashley Christmas cuteness… but I would be rushing the story if I put that in…
So I am going to write a one shot later today… look out for it :)
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I am thinking I have a huge problem. I think I like one of my closest friends. Yeah I know, it isn't a problem as such. Well it depends how you look at it.
I hate it. Crushing on a straight person who won't ever be yours sucks. We haven't spoken about that night in the club but she keeps giving me looks. She swears she is straight and has spent most of her time talking about the guys at King High. It drives me crazy. She drives me crazy.
"Earth calling Ash!" she said as she waved her hand in front of my face.
"Piss off Carmen, I was day dreaming."
"Ooh! What or who were you dreaming of!" she said excitedly.
"Hey guys, god I hate that guy!" she slid in to the seat next to me and bumped my shoulder with hers. "Heya hubby, how was your day?"
We are married. Some weird inside joke gone incredibly amazing. I just wish half the things we talked about would actually happen, but being married has definitely brought us closer.
"Oh you know, boring my dear Wifey. I think my chemistry teacher has it in for me." I pouted and she kissed my cheek.
"Awh, I don't think he does. Maybe you should try showing up to class on time."
"And let you get like, raped on your way to your class? I don't think so."
"You are such a guy sometimes Ash." She laughed. Her cheeks dimpled slightly and my heart melted.
"But you love me anyway."
"Ahh, it's sad but true." She sighed and looked away dramatically. I shoved her playfully and went back to eating my lunch. "Ok I have to go. I'll see you guys later. Ash, are you coming over after school?"
"Yeah of course."
"Ok then. See ya." She hugged Carmen then walked away. I watched her go, her hips swaying mesmerizingly from side to side.
"Ash,"
"Mmhm?" I answered as Spencer rounded the corner, causing me to lose her from my sight.
"What's your deal with her?" she asked, the playful tone gone from her voice.
"Nothing."
"There so is Ash. Come on I know you well enough by now. You know she's straight right?"
"I do. Which is why I don't like her. I refuse to like another straight girl." I pouted slightly. She sat looking at me for a few minutes. "Ok," I sighed, "I do like her. I think. I mean, I haven't ever felt like this bout a girl and it's confusing me."
"What do you mean? You have been crushing on girls for ages. You have been sleeping with girls for ages." She said softly.
"Yeah I know. It's just, I want to kiss her. I want to hug her. I just want to be close to her. I want to be there for her. Sex isn't the first thing I think of when I think about her. I think about how pretty she looks and how I wish she was mine."
The bell rang and Carmen said bye and left. My phone rang in my pocket as I walked to class.
"Hey boo."
"Boo?"
"I'm trying our new names for everyone." She said innocently.
"Spence you know that boo means boyfriend or lover or something along those lines right?"
"Well you are my boo you silly husband." She laughed.
"That I am. What's up Spence?"
"Well I have a few things to do before you come over after school. Sadly you can't be there while I do them."
"They fighting again?" Her parents fought all the time and it upset her a lot.
"Yeah they are." She said seriously and sadly.
"Are you sure you don't want me to be there with you. I can stay in your room or something so you have someone there."
"You would do that for me?" she sounded like she was crying and I broke my heart. I heard sobbing coming from an open classroom.
Spencer was sat to a desk, her head in her hands and her gorgeous blonde locks shielding her face. I sat on the desk in front of her. She put her head on my thigh and cried harder.
"Spence, I'll come home with you, and I will even stay the night with you if you want." I ran my hand through her hair as her body continued to shake.
"Thank you Ash. You are really a great friend." She said after a while of crying. "You are going to get killed by your teacher!"
"I vote we skip the afternoon and go to the beach." I offered.
"Yeah, that sounds good."
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Over the next few weeks, Spencer and I became impossibly close. Her life was slowly destroying itself as her parents destroyed their marriage. I have seen her playing with bottles of pills. It worries me because if things get much worse between her parents, she would take them.
I sighed as I stared at the ceiling. Spencer was led next to me, her breathing deep and steady telling me that she was in a nice peaceful sleep.
I turned over and put my arm over her stomach and my head in her neck. I want to kiss her so badly but I can't. She isn't mine. I want to wrap her up in my arms and tell her I will protect her from whatever life has to throw at her because I love her.
My phone vibrated on Spencer's nightstand. I reluctantly moved away from her to pick it up. Fucking Carmen! What the hell does she want at 1am?
"Yeah?" I answered roughly
"Did I wake you?"
"No but I was about to go to sleep. What's so important that couldn't wait until morning?"
"I just wanted to chat. We never talk anymore." She finished quietly.
"That's not true. We talk at school and everything."
"Yeah but you spend all your free time with Spencer. And even when I finally get you to hang out with me, you are always texting or calling her. I know you love her and all Ash, but really?"
"Are you drunk?"
"No why?"
"Because it sounds to me like you are jealous of Spencer. And you aren't jealous person."
"No it's just I feel like I'm losing you to her."
"Carm, you know you won't lose me. Its just Spence is going through a lot at the moment. If it was you in her position right now I would do exactly the same thing."
"You wouldn't."
"Look Carmen, I'm not giving up my sleep to fight with you about her and where my loyalties lie because the lay equally with both of you."
"I love you Ash."
"Love you too Carm, night."
"No Ash. I mean I really love you."
"Really?"
"Yeah. Don't hate me."
"I won't. I love you carm, but in a different way so nothing will happen between us ok?"
"Ok. Night Ash."
