Liquid Lust

Chapter one

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot.

Summary: I could barely control myself when Carlise called me over to help with Bella's leg, I could barely control myself long enough to get out of the room when she cut herself with the wrapping paper. I've never been this bad, I've never wanted to drink a humans blood as much as I want to Bella's. I've asked Carslie and the others countless times if they have had similar problems, and they all have but back when they were younger. It bothers me to know that after years and years of hard work some little human can make me lose every once of my self control with a smile.

I slammed the poor fragile girl down on the bed, making it creek with all the force I used. Bella stared at me as I pinned her weak body to the mattress, I looked into her eyes for any signs of fear and there wasn't any her eyes were blank. I dipped my head down dragging my nose up and down her throat lightly biting her pulse point, as she slowly began to tremble.

''Alice...what, what are you doing?" I didn't answer, I couldn't answer I was so focused on trying to find ways to drink her blood that I was unable to speak. I slowly scraped my teeth against her warm pale skin. I could hear myself growling and moaning, I was becoming more and more hungry with every passing second.

Deep inside I knew this was wrong, I knew if Edward was to ever find out what I was doing to the love of his life he would kill me, I knew all this but I didn't care my teeth were millimeters away from the sweetest tasting blood in the world. All I had to do was break the skin to finally fulfill my deepest desire.

She put her hand on my cheek forcing me to look away from her neck. "Alice, you need to stop.'' I growled inwardly snapping my teeth at the girl below me. "Come on Ali you know this is wrong, do you really want to hurt your family, do you really want to hurt me?'' I stared at her for a few fleeting moments. She was right I couldn't loss my family just because I have no self control. I jumped off of her and out my window running into the forest and as far away from my one desire as possible.


I ran to my spot, the place were I could spend all of eternity just thinking. I sat back against one of the trees, curling into a ball as I began to rock back and forth. I couldn't believe myself I was so close to murdering Bella tonight, I was going to steal the blood from her veins like some animal. What would the others say if they found out what I was going to do, what if someone had walked in, what if Bella wouldn't have been able to stop me.

"You know Ali-cat its extremely hard to feel your emotions when your feeling them all at one time." I looked up and away from my knees, there standing in front of me was the love of my life, my husband of many years.

He sat next to me, pulling me into his lap, and hugging me to his hard body. "How did you know where I was?" "I felt you become sad and frightened, I asked Bella where you went, when she said you jumped out the window and ran to the woods I knew you would come to our spot."

He slid his fingers between mine. "Whats got you feeling every emotion ever created?" " I don't think I should tell you, I don't want you to hate me." He looked down into my dark eyes and smiled.

"Hun you know you can tell me anything and you also know that I could never hate you" "You say that know, but when I tell you you'll want nothing to do with me, and I don't think I could live if I loose you Jazz."

"Does this have something to do with a certain human, named Isabella?" I looked at him confused. "How did you know, I was trying so hard to not let anyone know."

"I can feel your emotions whenever your around her, I can feel you trying to hide them, I just don't know whats causing you to feel them," He moved me to face him. " I feel you desire, your attraction, your lust, and arousal whenever your near her." I opened my mouth to speak, but he silenced me with a kiss. "Let my finish love, Sometimes I feel your love for her and yet sometimes I feel your love for her blood. It confuses me, are you in love with her or are you just lusting after her blood.?"

I shook my head, trying to process what he had just said. " That's the thing Jazz I don't know what my feelings for her are. I feel at times when it just me and her the love I shouldn't be feeling for someone I call my sister, then at other times I just want her for her blood, I get so distracted I feel nothing for her, all I want to do is sink my teeth into her."

He stared at me say nothing for a few seconds. " Alice I think you need to talk to Bella and Edward about your feelings and if not them you need to talk to Carlsile about it" "No they will all hate me if I ever tell them what my feelings are, they won't understand"

"Didn't you just say the same thing about me," He kissed my nose and forehead. "I'm not mad and I don't think they will be either." I hugged him tightly burring my face into his chest. "Do I have to?" '' No, but don't you think its for the best?" I sighed loudly. "I do, but I really don't wanna"

He chuckled and stood me up. "The choice is yours love, but if I feel something bad is going to happen I will tell them." I nodded. "Fine" We walked at human speed through the forest in silence just holding each other close.

When we had gotten home everyone was sitting in the living room talking rather quietly. "Whats going on?" I ask sensing something was wrong. Bella was sitting on the couch next to Esme and Edward was staring out the window with a worried pained expression on his face.

"I've deiced to postpone the wedding," I couldn't help but smile at Bella's statement, but I quickly hid it so no one would ask any questions. "And Victoria is back."


Ok here's my first chapter I really wish I could have made it a little longer but I had to stop here in order for it to make sense

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