"Hi darling, how was your week? I barely spoke to you on the phone, you must have been pretty busy."

"Yes I was. Sorry I didn't call you a lot. Was your conference okay?", Derek asks her.

"Usually conferences are boring but this one was pretty interesting actually."

"Glad to hear that."

"And I have a good news", she replies with a big smile on her face.

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"I'm sorry, really. It's not that I don't want to, but now everything is different…"

"I guess it is", she says walking away.

He looks at her heartbroken. How his life had changed in one minute threaten him. One minute he was happy and about to ask a divorce to his wife and live with the woman he loves, and the next one he is stuck with his wife for life and about to become a father. Life is playing tricks to him and he isn't sure if he'll be able to handle them. Since Meredith came to work with him his marriage has been starting to disintegrate. They had been some issues between Addisson and him before, but they always managed to solve them. They used to be married and in love or at least they thought they were. But when he met Meredith he started to not be able anymore to care about his wife the way he should. They slowly parted from each other; she had her own practice while he worked at the hospital and they spent less time together. Then he started hang out with Meredith. And then he started avoiding her. They ended up to live together but barely see each other.

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"We shouldn't…"

"Yes."

"I mean it."

"Do you want me to stop?"

"Yes."

He pulls away and looks at her. She opens her eyes, surprised that he actually stopped what he was doing.

"I don't know…, maybe not"

He doesn't give her time to change her mind again and puts back his mouth on neck then raises it to her mouth to make her quiet.

They are both unsatisfied with the situation but also unable to stop it. They tried to stay apart, to not spend so much time with each other anymore for not being tempted, but they failed. Once they tasted it there was not turning back.

So they sneaked, every moment they could take they took it. They sneaked at work or with work, to give them some alone time. Stopping it is now impossible, but being together too. This make them freak out when they have time to think and see how their lives are messed.

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Meredith is waking up and it is hard for her to open her eyes. She isn't still used to her new home. It seems empty to her and she has pain to live in, this apartment already reminds her too many bad memories even if she only lives in for a month. So much happened in so little time and it is hard for her to believe who she is now.

She climbs down her bed, puts her slippers on and goes to the kitchen. She makes her coffee and tries to focus on what this new day is going to bring her. She is going to go to the hospital and work with her new peers now that her leave of absence was over. She feels happy to go back to the hospital and busy her mind with other things than her own problems. She already thought to much this last week, alone in her apartment. To be frank her mind has been so busy that she still has a headache. But today she decides she will focus only on her job. She missed a week and will have to catch up with the other interns. Surgery his hardcore, you can't leave to long or someone will take your place just because you weren't there at the good time. Life is all about timing. She lets herself think about what her life could have been if she had had another timing, she does that fairly often and it always leaves her more sad then she was. She knows she should stop but she isn't really sure she wants to. Dreams are all she has now.