Inspired by Evanescence – Forgive me. Skipper's P.O.V. for the ones who truly like this story. I hope u like it. I don't own anything. Btw, I find it a rather soppy story, don't you think?

It happened so fast. I stood there, waiting in the darkness until that familiar sound would fill the air and a blinding light would shine into my eyes. I waited, every second slowly passing as I thought of all the happy moments I had with the one I loved most, my Private. The ground began shaking as it seemed that the break of the day was there. With pain in my heart and my mind clouded from the memories, I jumped forward… and everything faded into black.

Now here I am, standing in front of a white world full of good memories, without the cursed feeling of fear. But it's not perfect. It's not even near perfect. There's still that one specific place that is empty and won't be filled for a long time, I hope. I looked up at the angel who waited patiently for me to enter heaven.

"I can't, not yet. There's something I need to do… or rather hear, before I can move on." I tell her. She nods with a warm smile and I find myself falling back to earth, into my old HQ.

'Can you forgive me again
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you'

There he sat, Private. Crushing the newspaper in his flippers while tears stream down his face. He shouts at me as if he knows I'm present. He says he doesn't understand. He never fully will, I know that much, but I have to let him know why. Rico and Kowalski are beside him, he's fine there for now.

'I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you'

Even though I'm dead, I still feel the mental knife that stabs my heart. Maybe it wasn't the right choice? Of course it was! If I hadn't done it, he would have been dead instead of me. I couldn't live with myself if that happened. Neither I nor Kowalski and Rico could have saved him from that.

'Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken'

He glance up, looking right at me… well, through me. The scene I see is enough to make my heart fall and shatter into millions of little pieces. He just sits there, flippers limply beside his body, his face emotionless and his eyes dull and empty. That's the worst thing, his eyes. They show me so much sorrow, so much pain and yet so much emptiness. There's no light in them, no life.

'I'd give anything now
To kill those words for you
Each time I say something I regret
I cry
I don't want to lose you'

"Private, you know we didn't lose Skipper entirely." Kowalski says reassuring. Private nods quietly.

"I know what you're going to say. That he'll always be in our hearts and we'll never forget him. It's not that simple for me. He asked me to forgive him! How can I after what he did?" Private says. I drop my shoulders and I'm about to leave when he continues. "I mean, I know I love him and I always will with every vein in my body. I just wish I understood." I smile at that.

'But somehow I know
That you will never leave me'

My funeral followed soon. Never thought I would add my own funeral once. Kowalski, Rico and Private are visibly broken. Marlene sobs quietly into ring-tail's chest who holds her and pats her back reassuring. I sigh and roll my eyes at the scene. I mean, really? Am I really that depressing? Add some fun into this funeral, it's like someone died… well, besides me. I focus on Private's broken expression and on how I can let him know what I've meant to tell him for a month (before and after my death combined).

'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me'

Suddenly an idea strikes me. I concentrate hard and change into a ghostly wind, or a windy ghost. Either way, I'm invisible but not inaudible. I fly past Private, causing him to shudder, and whisper in his ear: "Smile, Private." He hears me. I know he did because his eyes widen and for the first time I see the light returning to his eyes and he smiles. Not just a small here-you-go smile but a really happy smile, a relieved smile. It causes me to smile to.

'I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me'

"Stay with me." Private whispers back. I fly past him again and make sure I stroke his face. He smiles and leans into the feeling. I stay close to him during the ceremony. Put my flipper on his when he seems to have an emotional breakdown. I'm not sure, but I think he can feel me. When I touch his flipper, he visibly relaxes. I ghost past him towards a window and my plan worked because he turns his attention in my direction. I move into the window and concentrate on me appearing in it. It works because his eyes and smile widen as he looks at me. Tears shining in his eyes.

'You look in my eyes
And I'm screaming inside
That I'm sorry'

I hope he sees how sorry I am. And I remember why I did this.

Flashback:

I stand in a dark hole with my number one enemy, Dr. Blowhole. Why? It doesn't really matter. He finally got me where he wants me. I can see it by the way he grins widely at me.

"If I'm correct you have a new recruit in your team, right Skipper?" He asks me looking at me intensely.

"What about him?" I ask suspiciously.

"Ah, so it's true. I also heard you care a lot about him. I wonder exactly how much you care for your team, and for Private."

"What do you want Blowhole? Name it." I snap at him. He chuckles.

"You know what I want. I want you…dead. As long as you're alive, your little buddy is in great danger. I can end his life with on push of this button I have. There's nothing you can do about it, Skipper. You can't save him and yourself this time." He says evilly. I'm nailed to the ground… mentally. How could I save Private now? If he died, I couldn't live with myself. I nod in defeat and make my way back home. Tears in my eyes, my heart heavy and my head aching. I jump through our fishbowl entrance and find him there looking for something. I quickly develop him into a hug because I don't want him to see my tears. How am I going to do this?

End of flashback.

I watch as my Private puts a flower on my coffin. He looks at me briefly and mentions me to follow him. I float after him. Of course he doesn't look behind him to see if I'm there. I'm dead, he can't see me. He enters a supply closet and switches on the light. I feel bad for not being able to talk to him, let alone touch him. Suddenly a white figure appears next to me. It's the angel. I look at her sadly but she just smiles.

" I'll allow you to be able to become touchable and audible for three days straight. You both seems to be needing it." The angel says. She has silky dark brown hair and deep dark brown eyes. Her skin is very pale but looks soft during to the light that reflects from her white dress. She wears a necklace with a little green stone in the shape of two wings. She takes the necklace of and hands it to Skipper, then she disappears. Skipper sighs and puts the necklace around his neck. He turns back to Private, noticing he sits there quietly sobbing. I smile at him.

"Private…" I begin softly. " I thought I told you to smile soldier." He glances up with watery eyes in shock.

" Skippa?" He asks in a whisper. I nod, smiling broadly. His face breaks out into a smile and he jumps into my flippers still crying softly. I gently push him off a little and kiss his forehead. Suddenly there's a knock on the door.

" Private? Are you in there? Are you ok?" I hear Kowalski ask with great concern. I nod at Private. He opens the door and quickly drags Kowalski in the supply closet, taking Rico with him as well. Kowalski looks at Private angry. " What's this about Private! Suddenly you were gone without leaving a trace! Don't EVER do that again, ok?" He says protectively. Private nods shyly and then points to me. Kowalski looks in my direction and his eyes widen as his jaw drops.

" Now Kowalski, that's no way to greet your commanding officer." I say grinning at him. Rico to stares at me with great awe.

"S-Skipper… b-but that's impossible!" Kowalski says grabbing his head in confusing.

"Not probable maybe, confusing most certainly but impossible… no." I say with the grin still present on my face. Suddenly Rico starts shouting around and banging his head into the walls. "Calm down soldier! You don't have to fear me."

" S-So…" Private starts while playing nervously with his flippers. " How long will you stay with us?" He asks hopefully. I smile lovingly at him and ruffle his head feathers. He's just too damn cute.

" The angel that's supposed to take care of me gave me three days straight. Then I'll have to move on whether I want it or not." I tell them. Their heads drop. " So let's enjoy those three days!"

" Aye-aye Skippa!" Private chirped happily. Kowalski and Rico both nod.

Three days to live life to the fullest, which seems a bit strange seeing as I'm already dead. But still…